"All We Ever Wanted Was Love. That Connection Between Souls That Merges Them Into One. We Started Dreaming

"All we ever wanted was love. That connection between souls That merges them into one. We started dreaming about it at the age of five, Wondering at everyone we met "Are you the one?" But decades came and went And after all of this time I find I am still alone. Forces greater than myself Content with teasing me. If past lives are real I must have been truly offal. I would like to think I deserve the life I've been given. The pain never seems to end. The psychological torture The only constant I have known. Through the years My belief in future love Was all that kept me going. Hope that one day Someone would come And heal all of my wounds. Maybe that was to much to put on someone, But I couldn't help it. I wanted someone to see me for me, To understand me and to not judge me. To love me as I so desperately needed, With all of the fervency I myself contained. But no one ever did. After all of my waiting I have gone to far. Unaproachable. Too broken. A box of mismatched parts Barely held together. I have only one fantasy Reimagined a thousand times over. I keep going over it again and again So I can make it through the years." - Andrew

"Wishing I Was somehow in Another life. Wouldn't be me."

Love Notes

I can’t look at the moon Without thinking of you

“When will the struggling end? When will my heart Quit being hurt? It seems life is geared towards my sorrow; Twisting my soul So as to make me scream. How low can I go before I break? How long till the ocean of mourning Drowns me? When will I be able to sleep And wake up happy With a smile of bliss?”

- Andrew

Selfersations

“I wish I could just be normal.”

“That isn’t right. I don’t want to be normal.”

Considers advantages of normality.

Perpetual dispair through circular reasoning loop.

“I just…” Lacks concept.

“Why can’t more people be unnormal?” Thought waits for consciousness to catch up. “Why can’t more people be unnormal?…” … Eureka. “Why can’t more people be unnormal!?!”

-me

“We move back and forth Each on our own stellar paths, Running between paradise And perdition. Caught up in the storms Of raging hearts We sing each others songs And whisper our names.”

- Andrew