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Easy Love(Youngbin- SF9)
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~Did you change or not? You're acting a bit awkward, it's obvious, it's a fact. I'm a bit strange. With my lips, I say no, no. Your face has a mask (Telling me to go, go. Telling me to turn around) Words you're spitting out to me. From some point, there was a crack then we broke apart. Ridiculously, I was ruined. I'll piss off, though I hate you I don't wanna be a loser~
"Look, see I told you they have it here." Lyn informed Jisoo as she pointed at the menu. "This is why you should listen to me!"
Jisoo rolled her eyes and shook Lyn's hand off, "Okay okay. Hey, y/n what do you want to order?"
You glanced over at the both of them and shrugged, "I'm not even hungry so can you just get me a drink? I'm gonna go sit down, alright?"
"Hmm? Oh, okay."
They looked to each other with concern as you walked off towards a random table and taking a seat. You hadn't even wanted to leave your house today you just wanted to stay in and watch netflix while pigging out on ice cream, but the girls decided to take you out and help you get over the breakup.
You sighed and laid your chin on your hand, resting your elbow on the table. Your boyfriend and you had just broken up and even though the ending of the relationship hadn't been the best the beginning had been perfect. Honestly you still loved him, but Youngbin being gone all the time had just built up a lot of stress on the relationship and every time he came back all you both did was fight. The last time you saw him was when he had just gotten back from another trip and you both started to fight, yet again, but you told him in the end that you were done. You didn't want to fight with him anymore.
To be happy you make sacrifices but most of the time those sacrifices aren't ones willingly made, sometimes things change in life that you don't want to change. And sometimes you lose the people you really love because you love them too much. You did love him and you were sure he had loved you, but in the end miscommunication had won.
~Breaking up is so easy for you though it hurts so much for me. Leaving me is so easy for you because it's nothing to you (Just tell me you wanna go) You had no tears at all (Drinks up let's lose control) I hate love, cause it hurts. Cause I'm saying that I hate you. Cause I'm turning into ice (Just tell me you wanna go) Cause it remains as a scar (Drinks up let's lose control)~
"Oh, y/n what about this one?!" Jisoo asked you as she held up a shirt which you actually thought would look nice on her.
You smiled faintly and nodded at her, "That's cute."
"Good, here."
You shook your head and pushed her hand back towards herself, "No you get it. It'll look better on you."
"Oh, really? You think so?"
"Mhm."
She smiled widely and hugged you, "Okay I'm gonna go try it on."
You watched her walk off with a smile on your face and shook your head. You walked around and looked at different things, but when you got to the jewelry casing you stopped and felt your heart drop. "It's-it's the necklace," you whispered as you looked down into the glass.
Behind the counter was a necklace that seemed very similar to the one that Youngbin had gotten you for your anniversary last year. As you stared at it you felt tears start to well in your eyes and quickly brought a hand up to wipe them away before anyone saw them. You let out a pained sigh after and laid your hand flat on the glass, right over the necklace.
"Why do I miss you so much?" You whispered to yourself, still staring at the piece of jewelry that brought good and bad memories to surface.
"Y/n?"
You straightened and wiped under your eyes again fastly, before debating whether to turn or not and face the person behind the oh so familiar voice. Finally, taking in a deep breath and gathering courage you didn't know you had you slowly turned around and stopped when you saw the man behind you, the one and only man you've ever loved.
"Youngbin."
~I was forced to wear you like clothes now it's too tight. If I can't take it off, I'll rip it off so let's break up now. I'll leave, it's what you wanted. I'm letting you go right now, I hope this song becomes an echo in people's hearts and reaches your ears. From some point, there was a crack then we broke apart. Ridiculously, I was ruined. I'll piss off, though I hate you I don't wanna be a loser~
He stood there stiffly and stared at you, his eyes wide and his mouth slightly parted, neither of you saying a thing and creating a suffocating silence. "H-Wha-Uhm," he stuttered out, not knowing what to say either.
He's still so handsome, you thought to yourself as you watched him figure out what to say to you. Why does this have to happen? Why today? Why now?
You were honestly thinking about just turning and walking away but you were frozen, you couldn't even take a step back. It was like seeing him all over again this soon made it seem like the breakup was slapping you in the face again, and you weren't sure how to deal with it. Thankfully you were saved by some girl walking up to the both of you, unfortunately she wrapped her arms through his and pulled him close to her staring curiously at you.
"Oppa, who's this?" She asked him as she gave you a smile.
Oppa? Ar-Are they together? You felt more tears rise behind your eyes and quickly moved your gaze away from the pair. And finally you felt that you could move again so you did just that. You turned and started moving quickly towards the exit.
"Wait, y/n! Wait!" You heard Youngbin calling after you and covered your ears before taking off running.
You didn't care that you were now running through a mall that was crowded with people, nor did you care about the fact that the tears were falling from your eyes and rising again making your vision blurry. You just wanted out of there, you needed to get out.
You didn't hear anything and you didn't see anyone, it was like you had a tunnel vision that was leading you straight towards the double-doored exit. All you knew was that if you didn't get outside, away from everyone, than you'd break and you refused to let Younbin see you break. And thankfully you seemed to reach the exit and push the doors open just as you felt a hand grab ahold of your arm, pulling you to a stop.
Youngbin's POV:
"Oppa, do you think he'll like this one?" Jihee asked me as she held out a nice dress.
"Yeah, I don't see why not, though I doubt he'll be paying attention to your clothes."
Jihee smiled and rolled her eyes at me, shaking her head. "Yeah yeah. Hey, do you think you can go and find me some earrings that match this? I'm gonna go try it on and make sure this size fits."
I nodded and turned away, heading towards the jewelry counter. I couldn't believe that my cousin had roped me into coming and helping her find an outfit for her date with her fiance tonight. I sighed and started to look through the earrings, not really finding any that would go nicely with her. My eyes ran across the rows and racks of jewelry, stopping only once though it wasn't for earrings but for a very familiar figure standing with her hand pressed against the glass casing.
~Breaking up is so easy for you though it hurts so much for me. Leaving me is so easy for you because it's nothing to you (Just tell me you wanna go) You had no tears at all (Drinks up let's lose control) I hate love, cause it hurts. Cause I'm saying that I hate you. Cause I'm turning into ice (Just tell me you wanna go) Cause it remains as a scar (Drinks up let's lose control)~
I felt my heart stop beating and felt the familiar pain that's stayed with me since the breakup. The memory of her walking away crying still plays in my mind every second I'm at home, that's why I've found myself avoiding the place much more than I used and want to. Opening my mouth I stopped myself and stayed silent as I watched her stare down at something. If I said something, anything, there was a chance she'd turn and walk away from me again and I didn't want that. I couldn't bear to see that again. But, I wanted to take a chance.
"Y/n?"
I watched with sadness as she stiffened and didn't turn around for a few seconds before finally she turned and our eyes connected. I felt my heart start to race and felt myself at a loss for words. She's still so beautiful, I thought as I stared at her.
And if I thought her beauty was enough to make my heart race it was nothing compared to how I felt when she started to speak.
"Youngbin?"
I stood there, motionless, as I tried to figure out what I could say to her. Maybe I could talk to her and we could- we could. No, she wouldn't want me back. "H-Wha-Uhm," I managed to stutter out, not knowing what to say in the end.
A thick silence surrounded us as we stared at each other, her eyes skimming away every few seconds and I could tell she was thinking of leaving. Yet, before I could open my mouth again and ask her to stay another voice interrupted us, cutting through the silence like a knife.
Jihee walked up to me and wrapped her arms through mine, pulling herself close to me like she usually did and stared curiously at y/n. ย
ย "Oppa, who's this?" She asked me as she gave her a smile.
I went to introduce them, forgetting that they'd never met when y/n turned and started to walk away. I panicked and started towards her, "Y/n, wait!"
She took off running and my eyes widened. I turned to Jihee and told her firmly, "Stay here."
She nodded and listened as I took off running after y/n, hoping to catch her before she hurt herself somehow. But every time I even got close to her someone would bump into me or I'd loose sight of her for a brief second making me slow. I called out her name but it seemed as though she didn't hear me, and was making a bee-line for the door not noticing how the people around her parted ways for her quickly before getting ran over.
"Wait, y/n! Stop!"
She reached the door and started to push on it, slowing down enough for me to grab onto her arm and gently pull her back towards me. The exit doors slammed shut behind her and I felt a lightness settle in my chest as I held her in my arms, almost as if a weight had been lifted off of it or as if all I needed to be complete again was her.
~I though we were still in love but you just turned away on your own. I don't wanna let this go, you just wanna end this love. Your arms are now just a dream, your scent is now my breath. My breath is quickening. The flowing tears swallows me up. Thorns rise up above me covering this thorny story. The end of us ended with our last kiss~
Your POV:
You stood stock still as his arms wrapped tightly around you, holding you close to himself as he breathed out a sigh. With surprise you felt something wet fall onto your head and moving it back you realized he was crying. Tears were falling down Youngbin's face and didn't stop even as he stared down at you, and looking into them felt like you were looking through a broken window. It felt as though you could feel his pain and it didn't exactly help you keep the tears at bay.
"Yo-Youngbin?" You questioned him as he kept his grip tight on you.
"Please, please stay here for a minute. I feel whole again."
Your eyes widened at his words and yet you grew even more confused. "What?"
"I missed you," he whispered brokenly to you as he laid his face in the crook of your neck, "I missed you so much."
"Yo-You miss me?" You repeated dumbly, not really knowing how you were supposed to react. "Y-You can't say that."
"Why not? It's true."
You felt as if you had stopped breathing, you weren't sure at all why he said he missed you because he was with someone else. "Be-Because won't your girlfriend be mad?"
Youngbin pulled back and you saw his eyebrows draw together, "Girlfriend?" He asked you slowly, still not exactly understanding what you were saying. Then you saw a smile rise on his face and a laugh escape. "Her? Y/n, that's not my girlfriend. Actually I don't have a girlfriend."
You frowned and looked at him, confused now beyond belief. "Then, who was that?"
"That would be my cousin, Jihee."
"Your-Your cousin?"
He nodded and smiled down at you, pushing a strand of hair behind your ear. "Tell me something," he told you as his face grew sad again, "Do you miss me?"
You stayed silent and debated on answering him. "Yes," you finally whispered. "I miss you so much my heart hurts when I even think about you. Like earlier I saw a necklace and I started to cry because it looked like the one-"
"I got you for our anniversary?" He finished for you making you smile.
"Yeah, that one."
"Well, it can't be exactly the same." He said simply as he took your hand and led you to a bench.
"Why?" You asked him confused, yet again.
"Because I had that one made specially for you."
Your eyes widened and you turned to face him quickly, "What?"
He smiled and rubbed his thumb on your cheek, "You don't think I'd just buy you any necklace for a day that special do you?"
"Yo-You-" You couldn't say anything and felt tears rise again. He did something like that for me?
He smiled fondly and cradled your head in his hands as he stared down at you, "Don't make that face. It was supposed to make you happy."
"I am, it makes me so happy. I just-I just can't stop crying."
He closed his eyes and leaned his forehead against mine, "Don't cry baby."
"I've missed you, so much." You said simply as you closed your eyes as well.
"I've missed you, too. Please take me back."
You smiled and didn't say anything, instead you tipped your head back and kissed him. And you didn't know how much you missed doing it until it happened. You didn't want it to end but you pulled back anyways, smiling up at him. "Always."
~Letting you go is easy I'm telling myself. Erasing me is so easy for you because you're not saying anything (Just tell me you wanna go) That's how I can endure (Drinks up let's lose control) I hate love, cause it hurts. Cause I'm saying that I hate you. Cause I'm turning into ice (Just tell me you wanna go) Cause it remains as a scar (Drinks up let's lose control)~
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what do you guys think of this color pallette? I tried to go for a more, yknow, aesthetic approach
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based on my SF9 as: Mafia post found here
so this is a way for you all to get portions of each boyโs backstory prior to Sleeping Dogs; donโt be fooled though, thereโs more to these stories than you think, and the scars, oh they run deep.
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ย ย They are one of the most feared gangs in all of Seoul, their names spoken only in hushed tones. Nine brothers with an unbreakable bond thicker than blood, who will kill all those who oppose them.
ย ย But, in order to understand how these boysโ stories and hearts are intertwined, one must first know who they were as individuals.
ย ย Enter: The Red Dragons
Youngbin // Inseong // Jaeyoon // Dawon // Zuho // Rowoon // Taeyang // Hwiyoung // Chani
NAME: KIM YOUNGBIN
ALIAS: YOUNGBIN
D.O.B: November 23rd, 1993
STATUS: Alive; Leader of the Red Dragons
NOTES: Youngbin had lived a relatively normal life; his parents owned a local bakery, he attended University and achieved above average grades, and had a woman he loved since high school.
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