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i have reached the peak of my life
one of the girls i have on snapchat just posted a tiktok on her private story. the sound was the ranboo one that goes “oh i see, i see, i’m the problem” from when he was playing roller coaster tycoon. it was a really “angsty” tiktok too.
I am, yet again, in physical pain-
Well damn 😔 why is this on my for you page 😤😮💨
"my child is fine" your lonely-ass child has spent so much time maladaptively daydreaming about a nonexistent romantic partner that they've imagined almost every possible scenario and will never be satisfied with any partner in real life because no one will ever compare to their fictional significant other and anyone who could will take too long to reach a level of trust and intimacy that will satisfy their agonizing desire to love and be loved
I cannot send to this him, I can't lower my self-respect anymore it already in the ground (It's been 6 months of no contact after he rejected me and I blocked him)
I am really anxious. Can you talk like you did that day. Anxious like my bones are shaking. I am about to do something crazy and super important but I don't think I possess the guts to do it. So before that I am going something crazier so that the thing I will do next will seem pretty normal compared to this. Dude I miss you. You have no idea how many times I have dreamt of you. It's like you have left my life but still with me almost every night. I promised myself never to say your name again but it is your name that I see everywhere. Like it's impossible to forget you. There are times I suddenly miss you a lot like my brain is only capable so saying your name and then it appears that you posted something on social media or changed your profile pic. Like I get this intuitive hit that you have posted and I need to give my brain my dose of dopamine by seeing that picture. You said you were never interested in me. OK fine maybe not in this lifetime but maybe in the next. Or maybe after that one. I don't care. Just stay with me for one life out of the many you and I are going to have. And I don't need us to be humans also. You can be a monkey and I can be your favourite stone that you keep with forever till the day you die for all I care. I just mean that in any life we meet again, do not ever dare leave me again once you come in my zone of awareness. It will take me half a lifetime to forget you and I don't want to go through this agony again
The post series depression is hitting hard after watching goof omens is hitting way too hard
So I was travelling back to hostel and was sitting beside this girl. 3 hours into the journey I had my earphones on and she turned towards me with a maaza in her hands.
I thought she was offering me her drink or a sip out of courtesy. So I nodded my head no telling her I don't want to drink it.
But she she kept pushing it towards me and said something. So I removed my earphones and she said "please ise khol dena "
She wasn't offering me her drink y'all 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
She was asking me to OPEN IT💀👍
I was red with embarrassment somehow opened it for her
I still want to dig a hole and crawl into it.
Baithe bithae bezzati ho gayi bhai!
Had an emotionally draining day yesterday coupled with some solid cramps, today woke up with a killer headache and that's just not it I have an exam tomorrow for which I haven't studied anything. I feel so shitty it's not even funny atm. So yay love my life ( I need a hug)
Earlier I said something about not having a crush on anybody and how it's been a long time since I had one.
Well bhagwan ne sun li meri,I sorta like this guy now, he ticks all the boxes y'all😩
But but but I don't think he feels the same and upar se I've been ghosted🤡
Never I mean NEVER I'VE felt this strong for anybody this soon only to turn out like such a disaster. Because whosoever has been through heartbreak I can't imagine the pain because sirf thode se time mai I got so attached, crying myself to sleep and shit, constantly thinking about the situation, checking my phone🤡
I feel so stupid for feeling this strong and this soon like bro slow down. Can't really blame the guy because meri expectations ganja fookti hai cause they're always high.
How do I stop my mind ugh