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(sarcastically) i love going from being called a “smol soft boy” in high school to being afraid to be a transmasculine man.
my goal was to always be able to present comfortably as masculine and straight because that’s what i am and when i get shamed for it in LGBTQ+ spaces… it fucking sucks.
i’m used to it, unfortunately, in cis spaces, but when it comes to a community that i’m supposed to belong to, it feels like i’m getting stabbed.
and i’m not just talking about being online. i’m talking about my day-to-day life. i’m taking a class right now about gender, crime, and justice that is full of cis women, queer women, queer people, etc.
i have only spoken twice in the past 7 weeks i have been in the class because i know that the way i physically present myself would be absolutely shit on by at least 95% of the people in that class.
this also goes for the entirety of my college experience. once i started being able to dress the way i wanted and feel comfortable in my own body finally (going to the gym, wearing masculine clothing, doing things cis guys do like watch baseball and drink beer, etc.), it was like the entire community just said “oh wait. you’re not gay or feminine or bi or something that’s different from straight cis men? we don’t want you.”
that honestly hurts more than being misgendered by cis people and people outside of the LGBTQ+ community. because now i have such limited space to be comfortable in. i have such limited space that i don’t feel like there’s a massive fucking target on my back and people talking shit about me.
it seems like in straight cis spaces, i can’t be even the slightest bit feminine or i’m automatically gay. it seems like in queer spaces, i can’t even be the slightest bit masculine or i automatically hate women or hate the community.