Thanks Mum - Tumblr Posts

I can't talk right now, I'm doing eldest daughter shit.

*raising my brother while simultaneously not getting involved too much or else I'm going to get yelled at*

*calling my dad out on his shit*

*being a third parent*

*teaching my brother and cousin English because no one else in my family can and I apparently sound like I'm British even though I'm literally not*

*constantly burned out*

*being my mum's therapist*

*being my friend's therapist*

*being an exact replica of my dad*

*giving more affection to my brother than anyone else because I don't want him to end up like me*

*being unable to express verbal affection*

*found family is one of my favourite tropes*

*wanting to move out for college but being too scared to leave my brother alone*

Thinking about how I love my parents but don't particularly like them as people really fucks me up.

Hold me. Care for me. Stop yelling at me. I look so much like you. I wish I didn't. Why do you hate me so much. I love you. Stop touching me. I can't stand you. I wish you liked me more. I feel safe with you. I hate you. Thanks for bringing me tea when I work too much. Get away from me. I never want to see you again. I want to tell you about my day. Please don't ask me anything about my life. I love you. I feel like a disappointment to you. I wish you put more effort into our relationship. I can never tell you anything. My brother is your favourite. I resent you. I miss you. Listen to me. I wish I wasn't born. I'm sorry I ruined your life. I don't recognize you anymore. I never want to be like you.