Tamlin Headcanons - Tumblr Posts

Misc OC ask: 12 and 23 ❤️

send Tamlin miscellaneous questions (great choices!)

↳ 12 - is your character self destructive? in what ways? which emotion is hardest for him to process? why?

Tamlin destroys himself through cutting off the connection between his heart and everything else. The guilt he carries is often too much to bear and his shame haunts him into the daylight hours. He struggles with conflict and often resorts to cutting it off, instead of communicating. The silent treatment, the cold shoulder, and the door slam are only a few of the weapons in his arsenal when it comes to protecting himself from pain. After all, being alone is easier. When he alone, no one can hurt him. In his struggles with others, even his anger is a front for the hurt and anxiety which lie beneath it. After Amarantha's curse breaks, the inner mask which he wears over his raw emotions does not crack. Denying the truth of his broken family, broken relationships, and broken crown is easier than confronting the whispers in the back of his mind that tell him he was not enough: not a son worth loving, a friend worth keeping, or a High Lord still standing. He remains haunted by the decisions he's made and the promises that he's broken. Truthfully, Tamlin cannot see himself objectively. He doesn't see his own good, his own light, or the actions he's taken to heal and mend the hearts of others. He often sees himself as incapable of loving and unworthy of love and clings to the moments in his life and people who have given him brief glimpses of the light through the darkness. In the deepest part of his heart, beneath the betrayal, beneath the agony, and beneath the ashes of his burned court, there hides a small glimmer that whispers, "Don't give up. This isn't the ending you deserved."