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Either the weather is the reason why my mood changed from high to low all day or I fucking controlled it. Bc tell me why it was fine, when I was fine, it was raining when I was balling my eyes out/trying not to, and sunny when I was “happy” (more like okay), then back to raining again because I cried again, then okay for the rest of the day when I got home because I was finally relaxed from a long, stressful day?
I need to go to bed istg.
the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i went nonverbal, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
this week has been stressful but also awesome, I’m thankful I got to meet my in laws and their family. They are kind! As for school I just need to relax and take it slow.
I’m thankful to have my soulmate there to hug me better and listen to me for when I’m feeling down or stressed.
BEWARE! I am in a bad bad mood... Seriously... Things are getting out of control lately. This week has been stressful for me. I am so stressed out! I think I need a therapist or anyone who can help me with my stress-management, because I start to feel like things are soon gonna make me insane and crazy..... Argh, I don't know what else to tell... I'm just too tired to tell about everything. D:
I should probably just eat some chocolates and get some sleep...for my own good!
Day 14 (30/11/23)🌟
just an extra comfort nam pic for an extra tough day
tw // food, body image
damn today I had a serious mental breakdown i don't know if I can talk freely here but I think I had some really bad thoughts about food and body image in general, and the fact that my roommates sow doubts is even more frustrating and annoying. i cried a lot because I really felt those kind of comments and i should be more direct with them, no more good guy. living with them is so irritating sometimes and i also blame myself because I didn't move out when i had the opportunity :( fortunately i was able to talk about this with some friends literally one of the things i'm most grateful for.
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good things done today (despite everything)
did my skincare routine🧚♀️
did some light exercises (legs and squats)🏃♀️
drank almost 2 lt of water💧
made some good and healthy food🍎
called my family all day long🫂
listened to a Japanese podcast, retained some vocab through apps🇯🇵
listened to a Korean podcast, learned new words with apps, translated some weverse content (seventeen's of course), wrote a to-do list for the day in my korean journal🇰🇷
watched a short clip about common Chinese expressions🇨🇳 (i know i said i'll stop till my uni exams but studying/immersing in foreign cultures and languages is just an important part of my routine so far)
with this kind of thoughts is very hard to study for exam session properly, i just organized timetables and set a plan for the next two week im freaking out i don't know if i'm gonna pass it or if I even gonna sit in the classroom that day I need all of the strenght
now I think im gonna wash, do my night skincare routine and continue reading Le sorelle donguri 화이팅!
