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agatha gives a light shrug of her shoulders, head tilting slightly as she does. " i like confidence in people, but it's not a... i-it's not specifically what i look for. it's not a requirement, i mean. " but of course, to each their own, right? she knows some men do like confidence, she knows some don't. she isn't one to judge. " i like being confident because it feels good. it feels good to look at my work and be satisfied with what i see. same with when i look in the mirror. i'm not vain, by any means. or at least, " agatha pauses to laugh sheepishly, " i hope i'm not. i just wanted to be happy with what i do and the way i present myself, if that makes sense. "
that was where the therapy came in handy. she didn't want to be cocky, she just wanted to be satisfied with herself. she wanted to stop hating herself, to stop feeling so much sadness and hurt. to move on from the past and better herself.
" oh, yeah? " she asks now, her smile returning. " i think it's good when you can still be friends with your ex. i mean, just because you break up, it doesn't mean you have to throw the whole relationship away when you still have friendship, right? " agatha was still friends with the man from her first relationship. they parted ways amicably and still had a solid friendship, so why not? " i know you'll try, nnoitra. i believe in you and i believe that this can and will work. "
though agatha hopes she isn't pushing it too much, or at all. no relationship should be pushed or forced, she's just... she has a lot of faith and hope. that was another thing therapy gave her: hope, among other things. the feeling that, in the end, things will work out and it'll all be okay.
she listens to what nnoitra wants, glancing over the menu once more. a burger and fries does sound really good. she does usually go for the salad (caesar, specifically, as that was her favorite and it isn't often she deviates from her favorite foods), but lately she's been trying to broaden her palate a little whenever she gets the chance to eat out somewhere. " really? " agatha lifts her head. " well, thank you, nnoitra. " her smile grows and she looks back down at the menu before setting it aside once she makes her decision.
her gaze flickers up to the waitress when she comes to their table, ordering for herself once nnoitra finishes with his. " i'll go with the bacon cheeseburger, the steak fries and just a large chocolate milkshake. thank you. " definitely her idea of splurging a little when it comes to food.
Oh, yeah, he knew all about something "feeling right". It was just that that sort of thing... Unfortunately was more of a fairytale than anything. At this point, he was ready to settle for something that just didn't feel wrong. He just wanted to feel loved again, okay? Was that too fucking much to ask for? Probably, considering he was not very lovable---
❝ Mah, I guess 'daz more for women than 'fer men, yeah? Women want confident guys. Confidence ain't 'da first thing we look 'fer in a woman. ❞ Had Agatha also been sold the "girlboss" lie? These days women seemed to think that men valued them for their confidence, when that was far from the case. Well, it was best if the woman wasn't constantly complaining about feeling bad about herself, but it was even worse if she was bragging about herself.
Agatha told him about her past relationship. Nnoitra hadn't even met the guy, but if he was the type to suggest someone should go to therapy... There was no way Nnoitra would've gotten along with him. He was a strong opponent of therapy. Why the fuck would whining to a random ass stranger help you out? Maybe it worked for women, who liked talking about their feelings. He was glad that Agatha was happier now though. He knew what it was like to carry a lot of self hatred, and he didn't wish that upon her. ❝ All good, all good. ❞ He said, waving his hand slightly. He didn't mind her talking about her ex. As long as HE didn't have to talk about his ex.
❝ Yeah, I'm actually still friendly with one 'a my exes, so I'm sure we can stay friends even if datin' don't work out. ❞ It sounded like he wasn't too keen on dating her, so he added - ❝ But I'mma try real hard 'ta make it work. ❞ He WAS invested after all.
❝ Ya know me. I need LOTS 'a food, so I'mma go with nr. 12. ❞ It was a burger called "the tower", and Nnoitra was banking on it living up to its name. ❝ 'N extra fries 'n a super large milkshake. ~ ❞ He hummed, excited to get to eat. ❝ I can pay. ❞ He told her. Extremely out of character for him, since he was always getting people to pay for him. But this was a date and he was serious, so of course he'd pay. Especially since he was on a date with a woman.
The waitress overheard them talking about what they'd wanna order, and came over to their table. Nnoitra made his order. He wondered if Agatha would to the cliche girl-move and order a salad.