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there's just something about JOSHUA HONG that makes me feel like having butterflies in my stomach🦋🦋❤
I don't need new buddies........ Coz I have this GAM3 BOI 😆🍒
I feel like we Carats and Seventeen are going through such a tough time right now , so many bad things has happened since even the beginning of the comeback like The8 getting ankle injury, Seventeen's quarantine and now cheol got injured (that too a little serious injury with like inflammation and cuts) . I don't really know how to put out my feelings at this point of time coz in one hand I'm so sad and frustrated about all these series of bad omens and at the same time I'm happy that nothing too extreme has happened and that the boys are still smiling infront of us and fighting till the end just for us to be happy...
I actually didn't really know infront of whom I should rant out my feelings and thoughts which I'm going through at this moment and the fact that they are always say sorry to us even if it's something they can't control just pains my heart even more . At this point I don't even how I should feel but what I do know is that I'll never leave their side no matter what and I know a lot of carats are feeling the same way as I am right now , so this post is meant for my fellow carats to know that we are in this together!🌻
Awakening to Love
And then it happened, the shift profound,
Cast off the shadows, joy unbound.
No longer captive to past's dismay,
Embracing light in the present day.
Farewell to sorrows, bid adieu,
No more dwelling on what I once knew.
Tears and fears, now left behind,
Open heart, peace of mind.
Ready to love, with arms outstretched,
In the journey of hearts, no longer wretched.
Seeking a companion, a kindred soul,
To walk together, to make us whole.
Heaven Sent
Reluctantly, I send the text, feeling a weight lift as I erase every trace of you from my life. The coffin is closed, and I vow to never speak to you again. With the trauma bonds severed, I embrace my newfound freedom, returning to the world of dating apps.
After countless left swipes, I stumble upon a marginally intriguing profile. Despite my initial reluctance, I decide to give this person a chance. We match instantly and agree to meet for lunch during our work break since we both work in the same city.
As we meet outside Chipotle, I can't shake the feeling of disinterest, but I push it aside. The conversation during lunch is dry, and I find myself struggling to stay engaged. It's evident this man lacks depth, and I'm relieved when it's time to return to work.
Back at the office, I receive a text from him expressing his insecurities, seeking reassurance I can't provide. I politely bid him farewell, grateful to be back to my routine.
The workday ends, and I'm not keen on staying home. Deciding to head to Davis, I change and set out. Arriving, I find parking in a Wells Fargo lot. Unsure of my plans, I decide to wander. Just as I'm about to leave my truck, a white Silverado pulls in beside me, its bed adorned with a large metal cage. Curious, I inquire about it, sparking a conversation with the driver. Intrigued by his work catching mountain lions, I agree to walk with him.
As we stroll, conversation flows effortlessly. We delve into various topics, fully engaged with each other. We connect on various levels. It feels like I've known him forever, and all my previous hurts fade away in his presence. Time flies, and I'm surprised to find we've been walking for hours. Hesitantly, I accept it's time to part ways. He mentions tonight is his last night staying in Sacramento. He will return home tomorrow, which is approximately three and a half hours from my home city. He requested meeting up again, perhaps on his drive back. We exchange numbers and agree to meet again.
In the following days, we stay in constant contact, navigating obstacles and uncertainties together. Despite the challenges, our connection deepens, and we meet halfway between our homes, enjoying each other's company and the passion between us.
However, as his fears resurface and distance becomes a barrier, we realize the impracticality of our relationship. Despite our mutual desire for one another and flawless communication, the geographical gap proved too much for us to overcome. With a heavy heart, I decide it’s time to part ways. I'm grateful for the lessons learned and the brief glimpse of what could have been. He will always be the reminder that my standards are not too high and that sometimes, even perfect matches aren't meant to be.
To Love Again
Just as I thought the romance chapter of my life had closed, a new love blossomed. Yet, this was no ordinary affair. It wasn't the needy, suffocating type that demands constant attention. No, this love was serene. It left me content, illuminated my darkest moments, and didn't leave me longing for more. Instead, it propelled me towards my aspirations, fostering a sanctuary for authenticity. This love bestowed a joy that no external force could diminish. And the most beautiful part? I fell in love with myself.
I poured out my heart, expecting nothing in return, only to find that in the depths of your silence, you held the key to unlock the love I never knew existed.