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Monster characters explained by me:

“we can’t turn back now”

It’s not about repentance. If you remember Chapek, too, asked Tenma what was going to happen when Johan finally kills Bonaparta, whether or not that would be the limit of his collapse. The collapse of his personality. Suppose you’re a famous person, an idol. Your name is on everyone’s lips, people deify you, and so one day you discover a fan of yours plots an assassination attempt against you. You realize that a tragic death is exactly what you need, it’s simply congruous with your story, and it will allow you to stay unattainable forever. In the end, this tumultuous love/hate your fan feels is what you’ve always sought for, isn’t it… To die young, at the peak, and never destroy the legend, but, on the contrary, reinforce it. Never get a chance to become a mediocrity due to old age, health issues or other circumstances. At the same time, deep inside you’re still a living being, and you’re able to feel pain and fear. Is your imaginary self more important than your real one? Are you ready to sacrifice yourself? Are you ready to be completely devoured by the idea and turn into a character of books, newspaper articles, whatever… fairytales? So, by saying “we can’t turn back now”, Johan means he is ready. As a living being, he doesn’t exist. The thing is, he is possessed.

No matter what he felt, he needed both General Wolf and Dr. Tenma as witnesses in the first place. “Look at me, look at me…” and stuff.