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Things I need to start doing for myself. I've been EXTREMELY STRESSED OUT! And I'm sooooooooooo not even being dramatic. This has been the worst 7 months of my life.😤😣😫☠ but once things start turning back around, I will start doing whats right for myself.

soft princess tips

♡ carry yourself with grace

♡ be kind to all living creatures

♡ know your worth

♡ dress in clothes that make you feel beautiful

♡ use rose or honey lip balm

♡ find your signature perfume

♡ speak softly and eloquently

♡ use a face mask twice a week

♡ do things methodically

♡ always engage in your studies & learn more about the world

♡ have an open heart & an open hand

♡ keep your room neat & tidy

♡ always make time for self care

♡ drink honey, rose or vanilla tea

♡ rise early to enjoy the sunrise

♡ dress in flowy, lace night gowns

♡ dance in the moonlight in flowy, lace night gowns

♡ bake blueberry muffins & chocolate chip cookies to hand out to friends and family

♡ cherish every memory made

♡ cherish every friend and loved one

It's been 4 weeks since the betrayal. But I'm done. I'm done crying. I'm done mourning over something that was long gone. My friend really opened my eyes today. The person I once loved and cared for moved away from me mentally and emotionally away from me before they physically moved away. Their words and actions did not aligned with someone who still had "feelings" or "cared" for me. Words are cheap, actions are louder. I see their actions very loud and clear now.

I feel very foolish now thinking back on those last few weeks we spent together. Do I have regrets? Yes. Should I have known better? Yes. Did I hoped we would get back together? Yes. I blurred the lines between thinking we were still in a relationship when in reality all we had was a sexual relationship. My friend was right he was in it just for the sex not because he still had "feelings" for me. Guys can detached their feelings from sex. That's all it was to him a few fucks before he left. Already checked out mentally and emotionally. Did I know they were right for me? No. I invested more love into a person who wasn't willing to invest the same love into me or us, or even themselves.

I see that now. I see their actions loud and clear. I have cried and grief long enough. They will no longer have power over me. I have given them too much power over me. They don't deserve a place in my mind, heart or soul. They are no longer in my life, therefore they no longer matter. They are gone and so are the memories of us.

I have spoken my truth. Now I must begin my healing process. I will be a better person. I will be stronger. I will be love because I deserve love.

I am loved.

I am appreciated.

I am worthy.

I love me.

I love my life.

I love my family and friends.

I love my sense of humor.

I love my smile.

I love me.

I won't wish them all the best because that would be a lie. I don't wish them all the worst either. I simple wish them what they deserve, whether it's good things or bad things, that's between them and karma.

They know what they did. It's on them, not me.

I'm feeling incredibly crappy and sad today.

Keep thinking about his treatment, his cold and cruel silent treatment towards me. His cold cruel heart. How can you live with yourself knowing you caused another human being, someone you once loved and cared for, so much pain, hurt and heart ache. How can you sleep at night? How can you go about your daily life and put on a smiling face and acted as if nothing happened???

How?? Why??

I'm a good, decent person who gave my all into him and the relationship. I gave all my heart, my soul, my mind, and my body to this person and now they're throwing me away like trash. Like 3.5 years so nothing, meaningless to them. Now they have someone new and younger they discard you like trash.

How pathetic and disgusting that he has become this person or maybe this is who he was all along. Just didn't show his true colors because he didn't have to. Now he's shown who he really is. Just a shitty person. Can't wrap my head around it. This is fucking me up.

Maybe I am really depressed. I hope they call with an appointment soon. I so need the help to help me move on and become my old self again.

How can someone whom you gave your heart to can cause so much damage and pain? But I'm not going to allow that piece of shit to take power over me. He's not going to win in this battle.

I AM

I WILL

I'm the better one

I didn't wronged anyone

I wasn't mean nor cruel

I am a good, decent person who will receive decent and good things in life

I'm not the one psychologically abusing someone so they can avoid the pain and the mature adult conversation

I'm not trash