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things we lost in the fire
for the boy who left me hanging.
(title from bastille’s song because I am an uncreative individual)
‘accept the fact that you will grow apart from people you’ve had significant relationships with. understand when someone no longer positively affects your life. let them go. don’t hinder your growth.’ -lyjerria
so this is how it ends, you with your arms around another girl, me waiting for the answer i’ll never get. how many nights have i spent washing your name off the tip of my tongue; how many nights have i spent collecting tears in the jars of my fists? once upon a time you were my personal map, a landmark i could seek when i lost myself in my own thoughts. once upon a time you were everything to me.
but i am no longer the fourteen year old that you first spoke to, two years ago. you are no longer the boy who gave me his number in place of a suicide hotline. i am sick and tired of putting an expiry date to my happiness; your departure is not its end. so tonight i will delete every text you sent me because i refuse to cling to ghosts that won’t stay. tonight i will not shed tears as i watch what made us, us go up in flames.
(but thank you all the same.)