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starting again! this time...with friends by my side!!

to: new from-izzy...

remember when you were scared that you wouldn't be able to make friends? well...look at you now? you've come so far!

no this is not a setback!

it unfortunately happened...and there's a high chance that tumblr's staff can't do anything about it!!

don't be discouraged! don't be sad for too long! cry it out! scream (okay it's 12:40am, maybe don't do that...) it out!

but don't forget your lovely mutuals! don't forget the genuine interactions you've had with them so far! don't forget the happiness you felt when they answered your message for the first time! don't ever forget these friends as you move on with your journey!

use this as an opportunity to start again! you said that you didn't like how your old posts looked right? you've found your trademark now!

rewrite it, remaster it, reupload it!

don't give up now, okay? not when there was proof before that people support your work!

you can do it! i believe in you!

from: old from-izzy

addressing my health and writing!!

fun fact: i'm rereading this post as careful as i can because i wrote ~90% of this post with my eyes closed!!

hi everyone!

the title of this post seems so serious but also not so serious at the same time...? 😅

anyways! this is just me updating a little bit of my health and how it's been affecting my writing.

on january 31st 2022, my psychologist wrote a letter to my school addressing that he 'has...identified that [I have]...Sensory Processing Disorder' (words quoted by the letter that was sent out). as far as i'm aware, i specifically have sensory modulation disorder.

i'll try to keep this concise and to the point. in terms of my spd in general, four of my five senses are hypersensitive with my top two being visual and hearing.

i recently just found out an important info by quite literally timing myself. i stayed in my room, lights out and in the dark for 20 mins. during that time, i did nothing but just stare at the ceiling (or i don't know, the spider that went past too) and jammed to some music. after, i started to write.

there is small time gap of 14 mins before i felt a twitch in my right eye. there is a small 1 min gap after when i started to get a headache. for me, i knew this before but i was afraid to admit it especially when i love writing so much but it's clear now that i am hypersensitive to lights.

that's why (at least, i personally feel like this) my writing quality has decreased drastically and writing errors are more apparent than ever. i get people to proofread for me but i'm really bad in asking for help so i usually just try to do it myself to the best of my abilities. the way i explain scenes have also been more boring and bland, and i want to tell you that if you think so too, you're most probably right! it frustrates me more than anything.

i'm trying to find ways to counter this or at least make the time gap bigger. i recently found out that writing in the dark, phone brightness down to the lowest helps and i was able to write for about ~40 mins before i started to get a headache. but unfortunately for my sleep hygiene, no technology should be in my room (i even moved my piano out of my room because of this) and so, i am trying to find another way.

another way i found is that closing my eyes works. fun fact: i'm rereading this post as careful as i can because i wrote ~90% of this post with my eyes closed!! yes it works but you can imagine how hard it can be.

if i can be fully honest, it's actually really hard for me to both read and write these days as well because there is no way i can make out the words without any form of light. when the headache strikes, it strikes and walking in a straight line can become difficult sometimes. the reality is that it's hard to write without reading and it sucks that i can't support anyone's work at the moment, especially when they have supported me so much (i'm so sorry to all the writers out there). there is nothing much i can do right now but to remember and learn the stories in my head as references when i write.

i'm still exploring for more ideas but if you have any ideas, do tell! i would love to try them out!

but i'm not going to stop writing! not when i have ideas to write and stories to share! it's just going to be slow and i'm planning to take it in a pace where i can handle. like i've mentioned before, i don't want to release stories that i'm not proud of.

thank you everyone for the support so far! 'double a decade' reached 100+ notes in less than a week! that's so crazy for me, thank you 😭💕

just a little update: i'm still here and still writing!! 🥰

i feel like my eye condition has gotten a tiny bit worse so i'm going RLY slow 😭

i was going through my veryyyy long list of wips and found ones as long as ~15k?! def going to see what that's about 🤣

here goes!!

hey! i don’t know if you know this or not but could you tag any physical descriptions of the reader in your fic in the content warnings at the top of your fic? i love your writing but i find that it’s kind of not inclusive to darker skinned poc because of how much physical description you put in 😅 you mention a lot of things that allude to paler-skinned people like red cheeks and straight hair (which is fine! it’s your blog you can write whatever you want 😅) but a little warning would be nice! the same thing applies to any other physical descriptions like size comparison (e.g. the reader being smaller than the idol/the idol’s clothes being really baggy on the reader/height difference/etc) i know it doesn’t really seem like a big deal but as a bipoc reader when i find a reader fic i really like but the reader is described with features that are so clearly not a physical description of me without any warnings it pulls me out of the fic and feels almost intentionally exclusive 🥲

again, it’s fine that you write these things but notifying the reader at the beginning of the fic would be really appreciated! thank you for reading this 😭 i hope you have a good day!

hey anon! first of all, thank you so much for supporting my work, it means a ton to me. second of all, thank you for acknowledging that this is my space and letting me have the creative freedom. i really appreciate and am thankful for this thought.

in terms of your concerns, i am taking this and others ones on board 🫂 and i'm trying my best to put in the appropriate warnings/notes/genres that are needed for my stories.

i'm sorry that i haven't been quite great with the topic and putting it in. i'll most definitely be more careful about it from now on. i apologise that i made you feel excluded in my stories, that was never my intention.

once again, thank you and have a great day!

about my writing and works!!

Even though I am planning to write all my stories in 'x reader' form, please keep in mind that most of my writings are very self-indulgent (as I mentioned before here, I write for myself)—especially when it comes to the 'especially to you...' series!

Because of this, unconsciously, I may add attributes that mirror me as a person in real life. I understand that this may not be suitable for everyone and I'm trying my very best to add these attributes in the warnings/genre sections in all of my stories. I haven't been the best at this and I apologise for that.

As it is reader-inserted stories, I will try my best to reduce (and find other words to convey the same meaning) the use of the attributes and add appropriate warnings/genres either way as I continue to write what's best for me. There are actions that I dearly love to write about so please let me indulge in this. I would like to apologise if anyone has been made uncomfortable, that was never my intention.

I ask for your understanding as I keep improving and learning with my creative writing, especially with my reader-inserted stories!

Thank you for bringing these subjects to my attention, reading my stories and for your support!!

(post is based on this ask)

look i am very appreciative that you write vrry realistic topics but at the same time did you know it could be received very badly

you writing about realistic in real life things and dont seperate from in real life topics and using idols feeds the parasocial relationship that a lot of fans have and that's rly rly rly bad influence you know that right? as long as you know

i'll still read your works but i hope you know and maybe seperate irl to fics to make everyone more comfortable. not hating but something to think about lmaooooooooo

when i decided to start writing again but posting on a different platform that is, in my opinion, more interactive, i didn't expect to be getting something like this. with how tumblr works, it's quite hard to find posts that you didn't for example, link to your pinned post/masterlist/navigation but thankfully, i think i have addressed something similar to this here.

when i decided to pick up writing again after longer than two years of not writing anymore, in a site where everything is more interactive etc. i was mentally prepared to be criticised and/or judged with the quality of my writing: "you're not good at writing, stop writing"; "you're not using proper structuring"; "your plot makes zero sense"

but i must say that, i wasn't prepared to be faced with an ask like this (or the one that was linked) at all. and i just want to be transparent because i will still be true to myself and those who have decided to read my stories that it took me around a month to be able to answer the previous ask. i was beyond shaken up; i thought about quitting.

but this ask, in my opinion, is more serious.

i asked advice on how i should answer this ask and what i should do in general. i received support (even a template answer) on how i should respond to this ask and if my friends read this, i just want to say thank you for helping me out. i decided to approach this ask in my own way, taking your advice on board as well.

anon, i am very appreciative that you took the time to read my works. because of that, you decided to send in this ask. when i read this the first time, i was more apologetic over any other emotion that my writing has caused you to feel this way but after slow thinking and reflecting, i think the only thing that i can apologise for is that you found my page. i'm sorry that the algorithm led you here and that as i'm reading your ask, there is implication that you continued to read more than one of my stories. however, please understand that this is my art and i will not be changing my art for anyone else. i would like to further defend myself by saying that writing is an escape for me to reflect on my daily life. yes, i have made mistakes with the lack of warnings in the past but that is something i will continue to work on and be mindful of. if you're asking me to stop writing about realistic topics, then please understand that you're indirectly asking me to quit writing in general. i'm very sorry that i cannot give you this. if you feel like my writing is influencing you badly, please feel free to block me and tell anyone that you know that might be uncomfortable about my writing. i hope you'll be able to find stories that will suit you. warmest and kind regards, izzy

Hi everyone!

Until I feel more confident, I will be turning off my messages and my ask box. I thought about just switching off the anonymous option but I think it's best to just turn it off for now.

I want to thank those who have been sending me supportive messages but unfortunately, the not so supportive messages have taken an impact on me to the point that I have severe fear of posting anything. Until I feel better, I have decided to turn it off.

If you want to reach me, those who have my Discord can reach me there. Those who have Discord have other ways to reach me too.

For readers who want to reach me, become mutuals etc., commenting and reblogging is the way to go!!

Looking forward to the day I turn my ask box back open!!

Hey guys!!

I had a think about what I should do for my wips and just my writing in general. I feel like despite me wanting to write more in-depth and longer stories, I think I am limited in a way that I feel some sort of need to update regularly. For instance, I wrote on my pinned post that I would update once a month and to be honest, a month may be enough to write an in-depth, longer story if my life outside of writing wasn't so hectic. I did write those words before the second year started and well...they really weren't lying when the second year is nothing like the first year.

So this is my decision: I will now try my best to write the longer wips that have been rotting for a very long time. I have 3 scheduled posts already, set for one month each time and I have another yet 99.9% finished. That should give me a 'leeway' to keep the 'once a month posts' that I said at the beginning of the year.

I do hope to write longer fics now because after writing cupid's mistake, the sense of achievement and happiness that I felt was like no other!

Either way, thank you and stay tuned!!

...who said this blog is only for writing? 🤭 or unless i open another blog for it? not sure yet

(well...let's hope everything goes well with the preparations first-)