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I’m never gonna shut up about this episode am I? I’m also never gonna stop defending Janine since people clearly don’t like the fact that she’s choosing herself right now. It may be frustrating as a viewer and a shipper because there’s nothing holding them back but there is. She’s holding herself back because she’s doubtful of herself that she’s grown or that she’s ready for a serious relationship and she’s right she’s not. She may have dated Maurice for a bit but she literally dated one man for most of her life and wasn’t happy or received love and affection.

Look at this confession to me it says a lot:

It says “I love you so much that I can’t bear to hurt you and I can’t lose what we have because it’s the most important thing to me. It’s you it’s always been you but because I’m scared and unsure of myself I don’t know if I can do this. If this becomes real I don’t know how I would act, how to be a girlfriend how to respond to affection that I haven’t received. I think I’m a screw up so I might ruin this. There’s so much I need to experience as an adult that I haven’t yet and I want to do that with you as my friend first because I’m not ready for you yet. I want to be ready for you though I want to be your girlfriend I just don’t know how. If I lose this incredible man in front of me it might just break me so please give me time to date myself before you.”

Long paragraph but I’ve had all day to sit on this. I know it’s frustrating you guys but that’s the beauty of a slow burn and this one hasn’t even sizzled yet. I just had to defend and interpret the scene because I love her and I loved this scene