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things i am thinking of recently:
entropy: how the universe creates and is meant to descend into chaos and how silly we as living things are to raise our fists to the sky and demand order or sense out of its disarray.
pomegranates: there is something tender in the way our fingers claw through the flesh of this fruit, the way we tear through it as it bleeds and weeps for us. this might be what desire feels like.
cups and cans: i collect and compile countless cups and cans around the corners of my room when my brain or my life gets busy. only to at some point in the distant future, realize how many things i have cast off and simply thrown to the side. realization hits me in the quiet. on my hands and knees, i pick up the cups and cans till i am empty again.
eudaimonia: the sense of virtue. the good life. i let out quiet giggles when i first understood the word. a good place. it is the way we have to struggle to be good in every choice and word and action. to struggle to be virtuous because our nature is not kind. struggle to be.
being stuck in the maze: the concept of non-attachment scares me. being loathe to let go of the things you desire and crave. willing to lose everything. one cannot eliminate suffering. but the only path forward is to be completely vulnerable. the only path is love.
✨The cat-titude✨
She somehow broke the stick of the toy, idk how.
please be curly forever…
ｄａｔｉｎｇ ｍｅｒ!ｊｏｎｇｉｎ
Hello V:) Not sure if you’d want to try, but maybe an exo!mermaid?merman! headcanon? 🧜🏼♂️ (you dating, or just them and their life?) Thank you!
♡whenever he surfaces he slicks his hair back
♡really likes your legs
♡he always touches them
♡kisses them
♡wraps them around his waist when he swims with you
♡after seeing people walk their dogs on the beach he ‘adopted’ three sea lions
♡he heard from the mer people that have been on land that sea lions are the dogs of the sea
♡he’s given them all a name
♡he loves them vvvv much
♡he does try and bring them to meet you
♡but sometimes they lose him because he gets to your meeting spot so quickly
♡meets you in caves where he can sit with you and still have his tail in the water
♡his tail is golden and sparkly
♡it reflects the light so well
♡when you meet with him on a night it reflects the moonlight so it lights up the caves you meet in
♡when your telepathy bond first started he got scared
♡he’d only calm down when another mer person told him that it happens
♡he’d talk to you all the time
♡he can tell you he loves you whenever he wants
♡he won’t stop
♡during the full moon he’ll get his legs
♡the night would be spent slow dancing
♡would give up his life in the water to spend it with you in a heartbeat if you’d let him
had a revelation about rowlet-shaped xiaoven, haikaveh, & ratiorine
[ID: digital drawing of xiao and venti, alhaitham and kaveh, and aventurine and Dr. Ratio as shiny & normal rowlets in costume respectively. Ventilet is showing off his lyre to xiaolet. Kavehlet is yapping his head off while haithamlet is reading his book. Rowventurine is showing off his gambling luck while ratiolet is tired of his antics.]
Wulf: He’s named Thorfinn, son of-
Canute:
It's like she sees me
And you just click y'know?
Meanwhile me:
Burnout is honestly such a mild word for what people use it to mean. I'm not experiencing "burnout", which sounds so casual and routine that some face masks and a little rest is going to fix it.
My body and mind and even nervous system are stretched to the point that it's going to take a lot more than just a "break" or a few self care tips to recover, and even then, my recovery is just so that I can reenter the spaces that contributed to me being this way in the first place. I'm a little bit more than just burnt out by this.
Workplaces and educational institutions aggressively overwork us, expose us to all kinds of discrimination, which they overlook and gaslight us out of acknowledging, and then constantly ask us to ignore our mental, emotional, and physical needs so that we don't inconvenience them.
We're not burnt out. We're borderline traumatized. Burnout is always talked about like something transient and mild that a little rest and relaxation will fix.
But we're exhausted. We need deep rest and healing. We need new systems. We need new ways of being. The language around burnout just seems like a way of upholding these current violent systems and downplaying their impacts.
Someone should make a xingqiu and chongyun snowman- sia animatic I would but I dunno how.
THAT'S SO RUDE OF THEM IT'S SO HOT AKDKWJS WHO ALLOWED THEM WHO!??! THIS ISN'T SAFE FOR MY HEALTH
bts for wsj magazines
