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Maybe I need to cry and to feel and to break down in every way before I can feel like a person again. Maybe I need to stop pushing back these bad thoughts and feelings and urges and simply be honest with myself.
If the whole world was watching
I’d still dance with you
I once made duo/trio names for my friend group, and honestly- they aged pretty well LMAO
One of the duos were ‘Twinz Duo’ specifically with a Z to differentiate it from an actual duo name
I keep smelling my parents when they aren’t there lately which is weird and a little distressing but probably not that deep
@fcrmychildren // have this alien
#KRYPTOCUTIE “ this isn’t something that can be -------------------- pushed back & lumped in with simple explanation. is it -- ? “ circle, pace even. proud shoulders, bold tone. power isn’t defined by physical strengths. not so - the person, the heart, the mind. POWER. “ this is something bigger than me -- this isn’t me ... “
Less of a game and more of a short story, "* Despite everything" is an exercise in accepting and forgiving your past self for the things they could not control. It's a twist on the classic "What would you tell yourself five years ago?" through the lens of a queer, neurodivergent adolescence.
Content Warnings: Reflection on past suicidal ideation and depression.
btw these are the original shitty doodle friends, if anyone cares
nobody has any idea how scared i got last night when i noticed the ao3 servers were down until i remembered it was scheduled maintenance
homework is killing me, I'm literally in high school and I have the schedules my mother had in college LOL
Guys Idk what to post :(
I kinda feel stressed about posting my art, so idk if I will be posting regularly :/ I also lack motivation to do so, so if any of you know some tips on how I can get my motivation back ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡
Anyways, stay safe and have a good day
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I got 13 kills in a Apex Legends game yesterday 💪
I even was Kill Leader 👑 |(￣3￣)|
FRUTIGER METRO 🔛🔝
Lyf's : HICCSTRID HEADCANON pt 1
We all know Hiccup is a romantic (just look at rtte and his speeches to Astrid). And as we progress into season six, and httyd 2 we see that he is more and more confident in his relationship with her often making the first move. So I deduce that as confident as Hiccup is, Astrid's direct and easy-going-ness in the relationship also encouraged Hiccup subconsciously, giving him the itty bitty nudge to like get him going and take charge ( if hopefully, you get what I mean).
But what if Hiccup's romantic nature and corniness also rubbed off on Astrid a little bit? Like just imagine:
Hiccup sketching diagrams of his new inventions and calculating the scalars and vectors of respective functions with Astrid next to him swiping the whetstone over her axe in his workroom when she stops and gets bored so she ends up watching him since she's too exhausted from the day's training to move, and just finds focused Hiccup with his tongue stuck out slightly as he fiddles with the charcoal trying to get the proportions right on parchment when he feels his eyes on her. He asks her "what's up" to which she replies a cheesy pick up line, only half focused on his question.
Hiccup blushes hard and fumbles stammering and gaping because he's completely caught off-guard before he turns away chuckling and shakes his head internally cringing at her attempt of corniness since its so-not-Astrid replying to her line in a suave way (which of course fails hard) and they both end up laughing going back to what they were doing before just comfortable of each other's presence next to each other not needing physical contact.
P.S imma write this fanfic in my empty AO3 one day... one day
I don’t know which part makes me more furious.
The fact that multiple people are literally saying it does not matter if it’s the real Jungkook or not and cheering on an impersonator. Because the fake Jungkook has a BLM link and a gender playlist and is doing all the Right Things. So yeah,the part where you say fans don’t listen to their words is projection. You do not even care if it’s their words or not?
Or that some fans are willing to steep so low and call for a fandom cleansing,to call others toxic and disgusting,because they fact-checked and broke their daydream and their fantasy Jungkook. Exactly as Taekookers do.
Also,are there any receipts on these “pathologic transphobes and homophobes” being the same people who harrass Nain because JK is her fan? That she is getting hate is very believable sadly but I’m gonna need receipts on that too. Maybe they are unrelated groups of people? Maybe they are girls younger than 19(which is an adult in korea) and their intention is not to paint JK as “predator” and the angle in this discussion should be a completely different one? Maybe they are the same ones who like those gender playlists? Would get pretty confusing for you lot then,no? I mean,who even are the bad guys who have to be exterminated anymore,then.
Or maybe it’s obvious they suffer from internalized misogyny. But funny how that is not in the tags of the original post. There is no misogyny in 2022/s. Considering this is the same account who called Mijoo a rat because her tattoo shop got attention after the incident,and she apparently benefited from it,does not surprise me.
Also the fucking dumb western thing of some ppl changing JK’s pronouns because someone impersonating him liked a “gender” playlist. That is not woke,that is being brainwashed.
But you know,you’re gonna call me all those things anyway so go ahead. I think it’s homophobic and tone-deaf to say so casually that “JK might be questioning”,as if it would be the same as him getting a new tattoo or a new piercing. “questioning”. You mean,experiencing dysphoria which means he cannot look at his own body or stand to exist in it as it is now? Is this something you’d wish on anyone? Or just considering being the opposite sex because it might be less dangerous and it will give him rights he might not have as a gay man?
This used to a blog which was clear about how difficult life is for gay men in Korea,but you fail to grasp a reality many of us in “conservative fishbowls” as you so graciously describe it,know. That very often gay men transition because they’d just like to not get beaten when they walk down the street holding hands with their boyfriends,or they would like to not get arrested for being “degenerate perverts”. Those who transition do not deserve any hate,and need protection,but it’s not something to cheer on in such a mindless way just so you can show off your wokeness. Miss me with that performative “pro-queer” shit.
And another thing. I can accept Jungkook liking things I’m not a fan of. Like I used to be a fan of this blog too,even though I disagreed with a lot in it. Well,until it started painting rational armys in such an ugly light and asking they should be removed from the fandom.
But let’s say it was the real Jungkook liking the gender playlist. To him,a Korean gay/bi male artist who breaks gender stereotypes,that might have one meaning,such as freedom of expression and freedom to love whoever he wants.
But to me,a woman living in 2022,that playlist has a different meaning,and it only makes me flinch now. The “fuck gender” sentiment does nothing to change my reality,unsurprisingly. Instead it just turns out to make men really bold with expressing their undiluted hate and dismissing our every concern when women talk about sex-based oppression. I would have liked that playlist in 2018 when I was discovering these things and thought this was the height of progressiveness,but not anymore. These days the gender cult and the trans rights movement in the west and on the internet is mostly a misogynist and anti-lesbian movement. It has stopped being “educational” and stopped being about protecting minorities quite a while ago.
So,I won’t stop liking Jungkook if his real taste in playlists does not match mine,but I won’t be cheering on a hacker who uses someone else’s name to promote their agenda,just out of fear I’d be labeled a bad guy if I don’t.
Love when people bring up things JK said (and sometimes was prompted into saying) about girls when he was barely into puberty as concrete proof that he is straight. My friend group and I are nearing 30... only in the last year have a few of us had breakthroughs about our sexualities and gender identities. I still haven't reached a 'conclusion' about gender and I will probably grapple with it for years to come yet. These things are a spectrum, and they can evolve. My brother was asking out girls at 17, and out as gay at 18 - whereas my best friend, who is in a long-term relationship and only ever thought she could be straight, realised this year she is bisexual. Compared to South Korea, we live in an incredibly liberal society, where we had the luxury of figuring some of this stuff out in the open.
Who are we to hold any of these boys hostage to what they said or thought years ago as if that was the last word on the matter? JK could indeed be as straight as they come. But people trying to prove that shouldn't take his 15-year-old self's word as gospel. It's a piece of the puzzle, sure, but not the whole picture.
Thanks, nice intelligent anon, and I apologize in advance because I am about to hijack your whole post and have a whole ass Come To Jesus Meeting.
I’m so disgusted with ARMY right now. Not you, smart anon, but ARMY in general and the transphobic, queerphobic Y/N fanfiction self-inserters whose homophobia is only overshadowed by their hate for anyone JK looks at sideways.
These people out here deciding that since a playlist was trans positive it cannot have been liked by their idol. But let him say boo to a girl - a teenage girl, not a legal adult yet - and she’s getting hate for existing.
No wonder Jimin avoids most social media. Holding them hostage indeed, anon. We really have done exactly that as a collective and that is so wrong.
As a queer person I’m incredibly offended for Jungkook. What if that Genderfuck playlist had been his? What if it WAS his and we’re just getting the oops narrative? Does a queer idol who is also a lyricist not have a right to explore thoughts and feelings related to gender or identity?
Or is gender only a construct if your idol looks pretty in a skirt and keeps their ideas and feelings and identity to themselves?
And then to add insult to injury they’re gonna paint him as a predator. 25 to 19 isn’t a huge age difference in the West but in Korea it is significant. Especially since 19 is not adulthood there. So let’s just make Koo a cishet EPHEBOPHILE because that’s better than being trans or trans-questioning? OH MY GOD.
I am nauseous. And I’m sorry, anon. Your points are well made and I agree with all of them. It’s only reasonable that a closeted idol living in a conservative fishbowl might find some answers in the lyrics of trans artists, and it wouldn’t be the first time. Kim Petras? “Do Me”? 2019, anyone? Jungkook has been toying with gender for awhile and I am amazed that we seem to have not noticed this or have ignored it for so long.
But nobody thought twice about that new Spotify account UNTIL the Genderfuck playlist showed up. If that was a hacker, good for them. Way to be trans-positive and educational while shining a light on the roaches in this fandom.
Also it’s a great playlist. Whoever this hacker or JK is, they have fantastic musical taste. I said it and I’m not sorry.
But to go straight *cough* from “My Idol Can’t Have Identity Questions Or Support The Trans Community” to “My Idol Clearly Is A Straight Man Who Fucks Minor Girls” is both libelous and horrific.
That is so egregiously problematic that it makes us ALL look gross and rightly so. We have let these segments of the fandom operate without censure or consequences for too long. We’ve said just ignore them, they’ll go away. NO THEY WON’T. My inbox is living proof.
ARMY, we have toxic pathological homophobes and transphobes in our midst. And TKKers don’t get a pass here. Y’all homophobic as fuck because you’re fine with gay as long as it’s between two hot traditionally-masculine men and you get to pick the man. That’s just Y/N fanfiction only you’re getting off to two dicks instead of one.
TKKers are problematic and toxic because they reduce JK’s queerness to something they can control. There is no support for his words, or Taehyung’s. There is only sick conspiracy theory and adherence to the rainbow font red arrow lies of their leader.
Yep, y'all TKKers sent that shit to a minor female who happens to be an ARMY JK stan. JFC kids. If I were Jeon Jungkook I would take my Jimin and my dog and my retirement fund and I would buy an island, move to it, set up weekly grocery delivery and disconnect the internet. Possibly forever.
was gonna post something for stingyu week, but life happened, and I couldn’t do so. I apologize for that. good news is that I have a wip, and have plans to finish it as soon as possible. (I mean, if it’s already past the deadline, might as well go above and beyond ??)
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Guys, let's colour batman
“Living weapon” covers a lot and all of it is hot
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