I Thought Maybe If I Ranted About It Maybe I'd Stop Freaking Out Over It - Tumblr Posts

I know I will eventually have to address that my father is getting older and that the future is going to be rough in regards to dealing with the effects of aging, but I don’t want to think about it right now- It’s stressing me out so much because I just keep thinking about that time when my grandpa didn’t recognize me because of his early onset alzheimers and dementia and how hard it was seeing him when he was lucid and knew what was happening to him. I don’t want to see my dad depressed and constantly asking me to help him with assisted suicide.

I’m dealing with so much other stuff right now and I know it sounds selfish, but I don’t know if I could handle going through that a 2nd time. I wouldn’t just abandon him, but I just RRRGH- RIGHT NOW I DON’T WANNA DEAL WITH THIS LOOMING OVER OUR HEADS.