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I don’t want anything else but you ....

Oh God, if you cannot give me her love then please give me her pain.

Every moment my heart tells me that you are all he desires.

I have no life without her.

“oh, why’d you have to be so cute? it’s impossible to ignore you. why must you make me laugh so much? it’s bad enough we get along so well — just say goodnight and go.”

— the most relatable lyrics i’ve ever heard (goodnight n go, ariana grande)

If anyone had any advice I would appreciate it. So I started liking this boy when I was a junior in high school in 2013. In 2017 i believe I started talking to him, but it was obvious he either didn’t like me back or was a really bad texter; but I knew it was the former. I kept texting him though about whatever I could think of and my feelings for him became a way to cope with my depression and anxiety, even though he didn’t always respond and his replies were short. Eventually I was straight up with my feelings, and he didn’t respond. I asked for a response so I knew he could see it and I could move on and he responded with “okay”. And I shattered because I thought I at least deserved a real answer. I would have rather he said he hated me or something. But I felt guilty after that whole thing because of how annoying I was and I decided to apologize in late 2020 and he was really kind and even apologized for if he made things worse for me. And now 2021 my feelings are back and I don’t know if it’s because I’m stressed even though my depression is at it’s best, or if I like him again. But I haven’t messaged him even though it’s all I want to do. He doesn’t like me and I don’t want to be that annoying girl again. But all I want is to see his face and hear his voice. And I know I need to let him go but I don’t feel ready yet. Please help me. I wish I could explain it to him and maybe it would go away but I don’t even know what I’d say.

Dear crush,

It’s not fair to either of us that I like you still after 8 years. After you made it clear you didn’t like me back. I just want to see you again in person. To hear your voice. Maybe give you a hug. I don’t think it will happen. But I think that if I can see you one last time, and say what I need to say, then maybe I could finally get over you. It would be better for both of us. You won’t have to worry about my feelings anymore or me being annoying and I will finally get over you and be able to find someone else.

Dear crush,

I am feeling closer to being ready to finally letting you go. I still want to meet up with you and tell you some things in person first. I want to say that I am grateful to have known you, but I don’t deserve to be hurting over someone who doesn’t think about me. I don’t know if I will actually meet up with you though. I know it’s not the best idea but I feel like I’ll regret it more if I don’t do it than if I do. Someone said to me that if I am planning on letting you go, then won’t it just hurt me more to see you one last time since it hurts to see you on social media? And I don’t know how to feel. I just want to say goodbye and put all my feelings out there. To know that I did everything possible to help myself let go.

Dear crush,

I think at some point you became a safe place from my mind for me. When things became too overwhelming I would text you. That was years ago. But recently I’ve been wanting to see you again and talk to you but I can’t because these feelings aren’t fair to either of us. But you have become my distraction from the pain of life. When I’m sad I look for your face or try to hear your voice. I turned my feelings for you into a way to cope with my emotions. I do still have feelings for you. But it turned into something that isn’t good for me. And you never liked me back so my feelings are just a problem at this point.

Dear crush,

I felt so sure yesterday that I could let you go and be ok. Now today the thought of it scares me and it rips my heart out. I know you don’t even think about me but I can’t stop thinking about you. And it’s not fair to me or you. I HAVE to let you go. I don’t deserve this pain. Especially over someone who doesn’t care about me.

Dear crush,

Three of these in one day. I don’t know if that’s good or bad lol. I’m going to do it tomorrow I think. And honestly I feel sick to my stomach. That might be because of my health problems though haha. But my anxiety is also high and I am not even going to see you in person. I decided I shouldn’t hurt myself by seeing you. I deserve better (phrase of my life for now). If I feel like I’m going to puke thinking about sending you a message can you imagine how I’d feel trying to see you? I feel ok about it though. I’m sad and I’ll probably cry because it’s me but it will all end up ok. 💛

Dear crush,

I can’t sleep. All I can think about is if you’ll even read the letter Im going to send. I think it would be pretty crappy if you didn’t. You don’t owe me anything but idk I feel like I at least deserve that. I would like a response but if you have nothing to say that’s ok. After tomorrow I will not see you on Instagram, the only place I’ve seen you in years honestly. Last time I saw you in person was at a homecoming football game like four years ago. I don’t think you even noticed I was there. Honestly though I looked cute that night so your loss haha. Last time I talked to you in person was when I brought candy and a poster done by the kids at work because you guys made it to state and I was so proud and wanted to do something small for you all. All I know is that you said “Hi (my name)” and I don’t even remember it. I saw that in a text. I don’t know why I’m reminiscing. I’m not really sad just anxious. Maybe I’ll be sad later. I’m ready to get over this crush but I don’t know if I’m ready to lose the one distraction from the mess that is my life.

Dear crush,

I did it. I blocked you. I sent you the letter first and you didn’t give me a response. That’s ok. I’m a little sad but no tears yet. I feel good that I did it. I know it’s for the best. I just feel like there’s a hole now, that was where you filled my heart and became my safe place. But it’ll heal. I deserve good things.

Dear crush,

It hit me hard once it hit. The realization that I can’t just go look at your profile when I’m hurting or lonely. And the fact that I have no way of knowing if you read all of the letter since you didn’t respond. I didn’t expect a response but I guess I was hoping that at one point in the eight years I’ve known you that you cared enough about me to say something. Anything. Even okay would have been ok. Do you really not care that you might never see me again? Did I mean that little to you? Why is it whenever I try to help myself I just get hurt more and everyone else is fine?

I wish I could have just hugged you once before it ended.

I wish I meant something to you

My friend and I were talking about how we could use a good hug. The kind where they squeeze you just tight enough and you feel safe. The kind where the world disappears and you feel at home. I bet that’s what hugging you would have felt like.

I keep going back and forth between why wasn’t I good enough and you don’t deserve me anyways.

Last time I liked you, you said “okay” and it crushed me. This time you didn’t even give me “okay”. And I felt like I was nothing. Why wasn’t I ever enough?

I know it hasn’t even been a week since I blocked you but why are you still the main thing on my mind? Why can’t I be mad at you or hate you or something? Why can I only think about how you probably never cared about me even just as a person? Why do I still hope you’ll decide to message me or something? I know where you stand so why can’t I accept it and move on? I just wanna scream.