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fml I binged I am a failure, a disappointment, a fat bitch and I disgust myself.

I guess I will just liquid fast until sunday now

12.07.24 🎀

Planned to liquid fast until sunday but was forced to eat dinner with the fam.

Breakfast: black tea (i do not count tea calories since I drink unsweetened tea)

also I woke up with a really bad swelling on my left eye that does not hurt so I cooled that down with the tea bag from earlier (if you have any tips for a swelling please tell me I do not want to go out like that tmrw ;-;)

dinner:

wasa thing (picture below; 191 kcal)

tuna salad (264 kcal :(()

calorie intake: 455 kcal (I am counting without the binge)

actively burned calories: 200 kcal

net: "255 kcal" (trying to get over the binge so I do not feel guilt and binge again because of that)

just realized I won't be able to fast until monday because tmrw I am meeting a friend and we will probably eat (I'll try to avoid it) and sunday is family day (can't wait to move out next year!!)

I feel very stressed right now tbh. I didn't burn off my usual 500 kcal today and I binged last night so even with a documented weight loss I feel too full and disgusting, my stomach feels awkward and since this morning I am in a state of almost vomiting.

I NEED to liquid fast or at least OMAD tomorrow and get my steps + calories burned off so my guilt disappears.

But right now I will sleep because it is important for weight loss🎀

13.07.24 🍀

I lost an additional pound !! I hope I keep losing daily pounds so I can lose 20 lbs until my holiday at the beach in August !!

breakfast:

blackberries (51 kcal), slice if bread (94 kcal), black tea, quark (68 kcal), honey (28 kcal)

lunch :

protein bar raspberry 🎀 (161 kcal), some german pink vitamin water (97 kcal;-;)

dinner: fucking popcorn (410 kcal💀💀💀)

calorie intake: 909 kcal :(((

burned calories: 525 kcal

net: 384 kcal

not my best work tbh I will definetly burn more and take less calories in !!!

starting a 24 hour fast !! anyone who wants to join?

15.07.24

total: 0 kcal (fasting🎀)

burned: 386 kcal

net: -386 kcal

feeling very happy todayyyy :3

almost v0m!ted today after smelling sweet food and the breakfast prepared by my sister (wasn't disgusting dw I just felt disgusted by food), I think that's a good sign especially since I am 20 hours in my fast !!

i really hope to lose the weight I gained while on my period asap :/

17.07.2024

burned: 874 kcal (went for a run two times with 8 - 12 km/h)

net: 360 kcal

i feel so disgusting I cannot shut my fucking mouth and I absolutely need to lose this weight or else I'll km$ I cannot start the new school year in 35 days looking like I always looked

I NEED TO CHANGE

(also I need to see my net intake in negative numbers or else I feel like a worthless b!tch who cannot control herself)

bye i actually want to sob rn.

i asked my mom if we cld have chicken curry nd rice today (whis is like 300-400 cals) nd she said sure, i even went shopping with her so i could see if she bought the right things.

nd when she said that the food is ready she made some fucking bs. literally bs. its so high in calories and i dont want to eat anymore:(

this is the first time in a while i've actually had an appetite for a SPECIFIC thing, and she ruined it completely.

also this is what she made, im sorry if this made anyone feel uncomfortable or anything, but i just wanted to show what she made so anyone could understand:/

I can see more bones crawling up, i can feel them and touch them. But i have to starve more.

For being pretty

For the attention

For the concearn

I binged yesterday, weighted myself this morning and i lost weight! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE??? I MEAN I’M HAPPY BUT HOW????!!

I need a thigh gap so bad

I’ve been like 105-110 pounds for so long since I’ve been basically recovered, but now that I’m back at this I’m so excited to finally break 100 again, imagining a two digit weight is so motivating to me

I have such a habit of giving up on relapses really quickly cuz I just wanna be happy, and like I don’t really blame myself for that, but my life is so awful right now and this is basically the only thing I can control

I’d rather be miserable on my own terms than on anyone else’s

Look how pink. So pretty.

some thinsp0 <3

Having a boyfriend is so motivating!! I have to be perfect for him.

hii! can you guys comment some tips that help you when it comes to restricting? and maybe it can help others too! i just need some extra tips and ideas 🕊️

motivation means nothing if you don't make it happen.

It doesn't matter if you want it so bad if you can't even do what you need to do to achieve it. (self-criticism

hiii my previous account got t-worded and i lost all my moots:(

my user was justprincessstuff and you might have seen some of my post like "i'd rather be skinny and depressed rather than fat and depressed" wether you used to know me or not, please do follow to be moots cus i miss you guys😭

when did food stop being just food?