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i don't see anybody talking about how march 7th has implied npd/is implied to be a narcissist. it's a key part of her character, and yet nobody talks about it.
evidence
1: her voice line after battle
this is an implication of march having npd/being a narcissist because people with npd have an inflated sense of self-importance. in this voice line, march is saying that the other allies on the team couldn't have finished the battle without her, when they could have. it's a key example of inflated self-importance.
2: her behavior after defeating cocolia
this is an implication of march having npd/being a narcissist, because a symptom of npd is having an inability to recognize the needs or feelings of others, due to being too caught up in themselves. this is exactly what march 7th does here. she doesn't seem to recognize that bronya is in distress, and immediately talks to dan heng and the trailblazer.
3: one of her idle voicelines in her swordmaster event
i can't find any proof within transcripts on the wiki, but i remember going afk while playing the event and hearing her say that she does better when she's complimented. then, she urges the trailblazer, yunli, and yanqing to compliment her. this is a huge symptom of people with npd. despite their inflated sense of self-importance, they have a low sense of self-worth and thrive off compliments--or supply, as it's called--to boost their ego and keep them going.
4: the messages we got from her before the luminary wardance event
the line, "i'm amazing, right? where is my praise?" in specifics is a huge implication of march having npd/being a narcissist. as i've said before, narcissists thrive off of compliments--supply--to boost their ego and keep them going. they may actively seek them out as she's doing here, or lay low and do good deeds in hopes that they will be recognized and complimented.
this is making me go insane. why is nobody talking about this? i don't mean this headcanon in specifics, but i genuinely don't see anybody talking about how egotistical she is. it's a key part of her character and makes her so much more interesting, and yet nobody says a word.
It's especially sad to me, how apparently common it is for some people to think autistic/neurodivergent people are lying or trying to manipulate them when they're actually being radically honest— it's just "too" honest for them to identify or accept.
It's sad that their honesty is considered "radical" relative to neurotypical society, when it would in nearly all cases be healthier and better for everyone to be more open and honest with each other.
A world where not needing to earn respect exists would probably be much kinder I think. :0
Like, why do we have to earn respect? Can’t we just default to being kind without knowing people?
And supporting our fellow individuals without personally knowing them can be a gift on its own
I wish more folks saw it this way :(
There's a difference between "disabled" and "legally recognized as disabled," and I just want to give a shout-out to all the other disabled people who don't have formal diagnoses, who don't have access to benefits of any kind, who don't have the ability to use even the shittiest and least-helpful resources, because the process of getting legal recognition for disability sucks ass.
And another shout-out to all the disabled people who purposely avoid getting diagnosed, because official diagnoses can be used against you, and you're unable or unwilling to risk it.
cw: ableism (against narcissists), wolfe having a *very* weird brain. also just…feeling bad? idk. also swearing a bit
so i have this…very weird thing. where i get can narc supply from negative attention, but this kind of supply only lasts a few hours, in which i have to turn it into motivation energy to do shit, before it turns bad and making me feel shitty. i call it transcient supply because it’s like transcient resin in genshin except before disappearing it slowly drains up to 50% of your hp when it expires
anyways. for some godforesaken reason, i decided to go on youtube and see just how ableist people there can get. as expected there is a fuck ton of videos about narcissists.
and for some reason i’m not getting transcient supply? like usually i get a ton of transcient supply from that typa stuff (omg you care enough to make a whole ass video about me!! yay). but today it’s just…oh. okay. people really hate narcs huh. i know bad people exist but can we, good people who are narcissists, not be lumped in with them.
not even feeling sad it’s just. no emotion.
sometimes i really wonder who did what to me to make my brain…like this. i’ve met a lot of shitty people in my life it’s hard to pin it on one specific incident or person.
…on a lighter note this is why i hate those ‘trump is a narcissist’ videos. i do not want to be associated with that guy in any way lmao
(i. may be mentally bashing the emotions to death with a baseball bat rn. hahahahaha i’m not really fine but give me a few hours for me to go back to silly!wolfe)
As an autistic person, the implications of "if they really cared I wouldn't have to say it" culture are really scary. Because I want to know what hurts your feelings, what crosses your boundaries, where the line between teasing and being mean is at for you, what you need, and how to make you feel loved. And the implication that if my disability makes me unable to figure out these things through intuition alone, then I'm just not worth having around, is genuinely heartbreaking
dear narcissists...
damn you look good
found this today
Please use these terms correctly. Not doing so will deeply harm the people who actually have experienced trauma, gaslighting, triggers, and people who have NPD.
Edit: okay holy hell this blew up overnight. To everyone who is mentioning the censoring - I did not make this graphic, nor did I censor it. I ABSOLUTELY AGREE and it actually kind of ties into my original point. That being said, PLEASE stop reblogging just to say that. I know. Everyone knows. It has been said enough.
I’m sorry for all the times my mental health made me a bad friend
YES YES YES this is what I feel
No matter how many people want me, no one will need me like I need them
It also does not help that I’m crashing rn so hhhhh ig I’m a useless lil thing until someone gives me praise.
then I’m god. bow before me, worm.
I have very high expectations for myself. Too high. Sometimes I think about what my life would have to be like in order to finally feel satisfied. To not feel so incompetent and miserable most of the time. And I couldn't find an answer. I would still feel pathetic on top of the world. Being the smartest, most beautiful, most admired, most skilled person, doing everything perfectly. Being practically an almighty God. And I would still feel incompetent and disgusting. Having NPD turns you into a black hole. You can only desperately gobble and gobble, hoping to feel full at some point, but nothing could fill a bottomless void. Everything that comes in, disappears. Forgotten.
Friendly reminder that people with stigmatized personality disorders like Borderline, Narcissistic, and Antisocial are people, too, and they struggle with their disorders more than anyone else. That's why it's called a "disorder;" it impacts their life in a negative way because of, more often than not, childhood trauma. People typically develop personality disorders because of things they went through in childhood that fundamentally changed the way their brains work, and it takes so much therapy and constant hard work to unlearn the behaviors adopted in childhood. (Not to mention that traumatized people are more likely to be re-traumatized later in life.) Vilifying people with these disorders is extremely harmful to them, others they care about, and those who care about them.
We are people, just like you. Please, be kind.
(imo npd creature by @imnotherelmao)
the npd urge to kill yourself when you fail at something
Please, if you can, take a moment to read and share this because I feel like I'm screaming underwater.
NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) stigma is rampant right now, and seems to be getting progressively worse. Everyone is using it as a buzzword in the worst ways possible, spreading misinformation and hatred against a real disorder.
I could go on a long time about how this happened, why it's factually incorrect (and what the disorder actually IS), why it's harmful, and the changes I'd like to see. But to keep this concise, I'll simply link to a few posts under the cut for further reading.
The point of this post is a plea. Please help stop the spread of stigma. Even in mental health communities, even around others with personality disorders, in neurodivergent "safe" spaces, other communities I thought people would be supportive in (e.g. trans support groups, progressive spaces in general), it keeps coming up. So I'm willing to bet that a lot of people on this site need to see this.
Because it's so hard to exist in this world.
My disorder already makes me feel as if I'm worthless and unlovable, like there's something inherently wrong and damaged about me. And it's so much harder to fight that and heal when my daily life consists of:
Laughing and spending time with my friends, doing my utmost best to connect and stay present and focused on them, trying to let my guards down and be real and believe I'm lovable- when suddenly they throw out the word "narcissist" to describe horrible people or someone they hate, or the conversation turns to how evil "people with narcissistic personality disorder" are. (Seriously, you don't know which of your friends might have NPD and feels like shit when you say those things & now knows that you'd hate them if you knew.)
Trying to look up "mental health positivity for people with npd", "mental health positivity cluster bs", only to find a) none of that, and b) more of the same old vile shit that makes me feel terrible about myself.
Having a hard time (which is constant at this point) and trying to look up resources for myself, only to again, find the same stigma. And no resources.
Not having any clue how to help myself, because even the mental health field is spitting so much vitriol at people with DISORDERS (who they're supposed to be helping!) that there's no solid research or therapy programs for people like me.
Losing close friends when they find out, despite us having had a good relationship before, and them KNOWING me and knowing that I'm not like the trending image of pwNPD. Because now they only see me through the lens of stigma and misinformation.
Hearing the same stigma come up literally wherever I go. Clubs. Meetings. Any online space. At the bus stop. At the mall. At a restaurant. At work. Buzzword of the year that everyone loooves loudly throwing around with their friends or over the phone. Feels awesome for me, makes my day so much better/s
I could go on for a long time, but I'm scared no one will read/rb this if it gets too much longer.
So please. Stop using the word "narcissist" as a synonym for "abusive".
Stop bringing up people you hate who you believe to have NPD because of a stigmatizing article full of misinformation whenever someone with actual NPD opens their mouth. (Imagine if people did that with any other disorder! "Hey, I'm autistic." "Oh... my old roommate screamed at me whenever I made noise around him, and didn't understand my needs, which seems like sensory overload and difficulty with social cues. He was definitely autistic. But as long as you're self-aware and always restraining your innate desire to be an abusive asshole, you're okay I guess, maybe." ...See how offensive and ignorant that is?)
Stop preventing healthcare for people with a disorder just because it's trendy to use us as a scapegoat.
If you got this far, thank you for reading, and please share this if you can. Further reading is under the cut.
NPD Criteria, re-written by someone who actually has NPD
Stigma in the DSM
Common perception of the DSM criteria vs how someone may actually experience them (Keep in mind that this is the way I personally experience these symptoms, and that presentation can vary a lot between individuals)
"Idk, the stigma is right though, because I've known a lot of people with NPD who are jerks, so I'm going to continue to support the blockage of treatment for this condition."
(All of these were written by me, because I didn't want to link to other folks' posts without permission, but if you want to add your own links in reblogs or replies please feel free <3)
this!!!
If you advocate for mental health awareness, but joke about things like intrusive thoughts and schizophrenia, think it’s disgusting and lazy when people who are depressed can’t do things like showering or cleaning their room, use terms like “narcissistic abuse”, and believe that having ASPD, BPD, or NPD makes someone a bad person, you are not a mental health advocate. You don’t actually care about helping people or de-stigmatizing mental illness, you just want to make yourself feel like you do. You can’t pick and choose what disorders and symptoms are acceptable, and which ones make someone a bad person. Either you support everyone, or you support no one.
and if you’re neurodivergent/mentally ill and you do any of those things, you are part of the problem. there’s no such thing as “good/moral” disorders, or “bad/immoral” disorders. We all need to have each other’s backs.
having autism and npd is weird because what do you mean people hate me for something completely out of my control and there's nothing i can do to fix it??? they must be of inferior intellect because they can't understand my rich internal experience. allistic people are the dumb ones and society doesn't understand that autistic people will always have a much more interesting view of the world than they ever will. they're actually just jealous of my autistic swag.
The whole, "K*lling urself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" bullshit is spouted by the ignorant lucky ones who have only had temporary problems. Some people's problems are permanent so maybe try offering actual help and support to them rather than regurgitating an overused phrase that means nothing to people with real struggles.
Does anyone ever just wants to stop caring and giving a fuck and just letting your personality disorder go free? I know I can't bc it will make me a bad person, but are you never just oh so tired of keeping this muzzle on? Sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating in order for others to be safe.
Being nonbinary but not in a gender neutral way is so hard. People assume nonbinary = neutral gender and they/them.
Like no im genderful. I have so much gender. Im like if a man and a woman had a child. Im like if a gamer bro and a Sanrio girlie were in the same body.
Im nonbinary in a ‘Im a man woman and something else’ way not a ‘I have no gender way’ if you get what im saying