6.08 - Tumblr Posts

This was so sweet. But also broke my heart a little bit more.

Happy Birthday

Love,

Kojo

Let me gush over that last scene for a bit because there was something magical in the way it was filmed and acted… The cinematography… with Kojo sitting behind the door waiting for Lucy, pretty much the same way he did after he destroyed her apartment and she came home - which, incidentally, was also the first time Tim set foot in her place… With the nod to the history these two share in this hallway : Tim's moment of clarity after their practice kiss, the time where they almost crossed that line after Vegas, that breakup scene (that technically wasn't a breakup but felt like one)… Only now, they are further apart than they have ever been, not even standing in the same hallway, not even facing one another. Separated by walls - literally and metaphorically… And yet, the song in the background gives a more hopeful tone to this… "All this trouble's only gonna last for a while".

And the emotions… The way Lucy lit up when she saw Kojo was so heartwarming… Before it slowly became heartbreaking when her tears feel down… It was painful in an almost cathartic way. If I'm not mistaken, we haven't seen her really cry since that fateful night. And Tim's face… It was like he finally let himself feel all those emotions he has tried to contain and pretend weren't there ever since. There have been some glimpses here and there but I could truly see beyond his wall here. There was pain, there was regret… and I'd like to think that he was starting to comprehend what he has done. Which would be a fitting parallel to his epiphany after that kiss if this is indeed what happened. And then, there's the gift… It was perfect because it came from him. Up until his conversion with Aaron, he wasn't planning on doing anything to mark Lucy's birthday, aware of how this could make things worse and hurt her… But deep down, he knew he couldn't not do anything either. He couldn't let her think he didn't even care, not after all the hurt he has already caused her. So in the end, sending Kojo was perfect. To me, what made this so special was how symbolic this was. This felt like a subtle reminder of their past, of their bond… of what made them them, while respecting her boundaries. This gift wasn't about him or trying to win her back or anything of the sort. This was all about Lucy and letting her know that she is loved.