I Have Always Been Rather Disconnected

i have always been rather disconnected

from the world

from you

i either don't feel

or feel too much

i don't know which is better.

i feel strange breathing

i feel ethereal

i feel like a shooting star

bright, but not for long.

and so, so far away

i feel distant from you

from myself

i have difficulty pumping blood in my veins

my heart pains every time it beats

it hurts.

i can't feel it anymore.

my lungs are full of debris

it pains to breathe

i might just stop.

but it doesn't hurt as much as it used to,

is it because of you?

i like to think so.

and i know you like to think so too.

you think i am disconnected now

I have always been

i have just stopped pretending now.

you were never meant to be alone.

my love, my promise to you

i was the hero

i was the god

i was supposed to die.

why am i left alone?

why did you leave me?

now you roam the roads of the underworld

my name on your lips.

are you watching me now, my love?

are you watching how i grieve you?

are you watching how i was to become a god, avenging your loss?

are you watching?

i was the sun

but you gave me light

i was the river

but you gave me the current

what is existence, if you cease to exist?

- hy, 2021

SHAH RUKH KHAN + text posts part two (part one)

Think of all the people who wronged you. Think of them. The people who left you standing on the sidewalk, the people who made you cry. The people who stood by and let you cry alone. Think of them

Now set them on fire.

karan johar with alia bhatt on kwk is like james corden with harry styles

this is such a mood