I Have This Headcanon About ModernAU!Grace Where Whe Grew Up Being Pressured By Tatiana To Be Feminine

I have this headcanon about modernAU!Grace where whe grew up being pressured by Tatiana to be feminine and appealing, go on diets, do ballet (wich she is really good at but hates because she’s forced to do it competitively), etc…

So when Jesse takes her one day and moves out with her to get away from their mom, she starts to completely rediscover herself and tries to disconnect from the image she’s been forced to uphold her entire life. And she quickly takes to wearing more comfortable, less “girly” clothing and just spending entire days alone with a pile of books.

Idk for some reason when I think of a modern & free-from-Tatiana Grace she’s this laid back STEM student in oversized sweaters wearing headphones 24/7 who kind of just wants to be left alone and really loves her brother.

Which isn’t to say that she wouldn’t find her own style or reconnect with ballet/other stuff from her past on her own terms, but there’s definitely this period of complete decompression that I just see vividly in my head.

“𝑊𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔,” ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑, 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒. “𝑊𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟.”𝑁𝑜𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑇𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑎 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔, 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒. 𝐴 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒. 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒. 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝑎𝑠 𝑠ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑊𝑖𝑙𝑙, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘, 𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑏𝑟𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒. 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑝𝑢𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑜 𝑜𝑛, 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑦 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝐽𝑒𝑚 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑎𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙

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tsc char aes -> Helen ‘Alessa’ Blackthorn

bro this weekend was like the third time or sth that I slipped up when discussing LGBTQ issues with my dad and accidentally said „we“ and was fucking mortified- but he still hasn‘t said anything so I guess I‘m good lol 👍🏻

I just found a Matthew character study I wrote in like 2016 after Nothing But Shadows was released and like... okay yeah I got some things factually incorrect because I didn't guess his backstory like a prophet. But I got his inner voice, his sense of humor, and his insecurities eerily correct for someone who only had one (1) short story and whatever random information Cassie had released online at that point. I'm reading some of my old stuff (including a very cringey Wessa fic, a first person Tessa short, and some TMI crackfic from like 2014/2015) and the Matthew story might be the one thing that actually has... potential. Maybe I'll spruce it up a lot, update it with the information we have now, and republish it someday

yk i really feel like in twp dru should kiss a girl or two.  maybe even three.  just. as a treat idk i think she deserves it.