They Couldnt Be A Bunch Of Young Guys Fucking Around In The Streets Forever. Yoongi Had Always Known

They couldn’t be a bunch of young guys fucking around in the streets forever. Yoongi had always known somewhere in the back of his mind that the makeshift family they built together would change when they started real ones. He saw it coming.

But something about it makes him feel empty, anyway.

Something about it makes him think of you.

Ana, serious question here but: How is it that you made my heart stop with only one word? Are you a fairy? Or some sort of angel? I think you might be just because of how magical you are, and how you’re able to make me just...feel things whenever you’re around or when I see you post something.

First, and I’m taking a detour and coming off a bit stronger than I usually do with these (probably because I’m a good halfway through my wine right now and my cheeks are feeling flushed but…) this: 

“Blowing up my pager is obnoxious,” he hisses.  “Page and wait.  That’s the least you can do.”....You Mother Fuc-

Honestly, that entire convo with douchebag, dumbass, Dr. Lee made me want to reach through my screen and shake him until he starts to drool. Does he not have any decency??? At all??? I honestly hope that Yoongi comes in during one of this blowups and does more than pick his pockets thats for sure because he needs to be knocked down several peggs if you ask me. 

Whew, okay, now that that’s done, not @ how the mc went sleuthing and found baseball players instead of his name. That honestly made me laugh and I love that as the chapters unfold, you get to see more and more of this mysterious Yoongi piece by piece. I also really enjoyed the beginning when you touched on his earlier days when he practiced piano. It was very soft and I just kept on hearing First Love play over and over again in my mind, so thank you Ana for this heartfelt tidbit. 

Everything that you do amazes me. Truly. I look up to you so much Ana, so anything that you put out is surely going to be kept in my heart and mind forever (I hope that doesn’t add any pressure toward you or anything). Anyways, thank you for this. I’m sending you my heart over and over and over again.💕

P.S. - Also, is this this Yoongi that you imagined at the end??? 

Because if so, you have unlocked another monster ma’am. Okay. Now I’m done. Sending you my love forever and ever, Ana.

greedy | myg x reader | chapter two: church lady tights

summary: being a loner has never bothered yoongi until now.  until you.

pairing: yoongi x reader

genre: mafia AU, pining, eventual smut

rating: 18+

word count: 5.0K

notes:

okay your girl finally got it together to put out chapter two! i am so grateful for the enthusiasm you guys had about chapter one so i really hope this lives up to expectations.  i would love to hear from you guys what you think!

beta read by @hobi-gif​ because, duh.

ALSO my sincerest apologies to the very real KBO League baseball players i reference in this story. may they never someday google their romanized names and realize they’ve been dragged into a bangtan porn. amen.

this fic is a continuation of the Guarded Series but can be read as a standalone piece!

Chapter 01 | 02

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Bak Seolhee was one of those holy roller types.

She wore clunky black shoes and church lady tights that always looked like they were this close to cutting off her circulation.  Her glasses sat right at the tip of her nose, forever in danger of slipping right off her pinched face.

She wasn’t a pleasant woman.

But every week she made the trek – compelled by the love of Jesus – to teach piano at the Shing Ma Boys Home.  And every week, like clockwork, the boys scattered like marbles the moment she arrived.

But not Yoongi.

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There’s a weight to those words that you feel in the pit of your heart. A pull that draws you to him like the reckless tides towards his moon – a gravitational longing to know what truth vibrates beneath. You wonder if he feels it too.

Okay, so I’m like half a glass of wine in and I plan on binging the rest of this series tonight, but my heart is already so so soft?!?! Like….Rain!! I knew that this chapter would be an important plot point because of the length, but this just blew my mind entirely!

Everything that was depicted was so picturesque. From the main character getting ready, to walking through the streets, to even the end when she and Yoongi were skipping rocks and talking, it was just all so beautiful and this chapter will be one that I will forever hold in my mind. 

Jungkook and Seokjin arguing was something that I didn’t expect, but expected at the same time. Seeing them bicker back and forth made me smile, even more so because of the fact that they were doing it in front of a prince and I’m sure if they knew, they would cry. Or just bow a bunch of times similar to Namjoon. Speaking of whom...Namjoon writing to letters to Chun-Ja??!!?! My whole heart went smoosh 🥺 I was clutching my phone at that because that is honestly the purest and sweetest thing ever and….GAHHHH! You know?

Also, the conversation between the main character and Yoongi was really heartwarming. I think that this is one of the first times when you begin to see her let down her guard just a little more than usual. Speaking from her heart more, rather than her mind. 

“I’d rather believe that there are some things in the world simply out of our control. But that we can still hope for those things to shift, to change for the better if we never give up.”

This line was intricate and emotional, and for a moment it almost felt like I was invading their conversation because of how raw it felt. 

Thank you so much for this Rain. You continuously amaze me with your writing and words. I’ll forever adore you. I’m sending you my heart 💕

Edit: I’m coming back seconds after you responded to my gush toward you and saying that I’m letting my willpower explode and run free for the rest of the night! I’ll see you again soon Rain😘

Edit of the edit: I also got a 92 on my lab final😉

october 1865.

you never thought you would smile like this again, but here you are. and here he is, by your side.

pairing: joseon king!yoongi x reader genre: fluffy fluff words: 5k 😳 contains: historical au, chuseok date!, eunuch kim!, so much cuteness, guest appearances hehe

moonlit throne index. this is drabble 13. start from the beginning?

“How do I look, mom?”

Standing before the mirror, you nervously smooth the delicate sash of the pink hanbok for the hundredth time, careful not to lean down too much and dislocate the floral ornament carefully pinned in your hair. There have been doves fluttering in your stomach the entire afternoon; you don’t know if you tied this correctly or if your hair is braided right, and you can’t ask any of your nearby neighbours for fear of discovery that your plans are different than theirs tonight. Mother would know exactly what to do and what to say to make you feel at ease. But want you want most is for her to see you all grown up like this. Finally able to properly wear the outfit you coveted for so long, and hold your head high in it too. You think she’d be proud.

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You hold him. You hold him until the tremors beneath your palms melt into tired breaths, the reluctant rise and fall of one who does not wish to leave this warmth just yet.

Wow….wow.

This one hurt. Alot more than what I thought actually. And I think it hurts a bit more because I read back and realized that the queen passed almost and a half later. I do have to say that I’m a bit curious to see and unpack more of the reasons why Yoongi has this bitterness toward his father and the fact that he thinks that he’s only here for one purpose. It’s an interesting dynamic to see, especially because I don’t think I’ve seen this Yoongi hold these strong feelings toward anyone before. But, I would also like to add that maybe what other people have said are true in this case: you can only be mad at someone if you love them. Maybe Yoongi does love him in a way, but maybe not. Hm….

Thank you my loveliest Rain. I’m always infatuated with you and your beautiful mind. You’re so special to me and I honestly can’t wait to read more of this series. ILY!!!! Sending you lots and lots of love💕

january 1867.

the crown is far heavier than the weight of its gold.

pairing: joseon king!yoongi x reader genre: angst words: 900 contains: historical au, minor character death, a lot of feelings, … it’s complicated (but isn’t it always?)

moonlit throne index. this is drabble 16. start from the beginning?

“He died.”

The mortar in your hands plummets to the floor. Fine, sand-colored powder spills uselessly over the wood but you barely flinch, limbs numb with shock. Before you, Yoongi’s expression is unfathomably blank, the hands by his side unmoving.

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“Has it been really lonely?” you ask, compassion leaking through the crack in your voice.

The pause is answer enough. And you expected it. What you didn’t expect, though, was his reply, “I have you now.”

Debs!!! Hello again you amazing and gorgeous human being. Honestly, I’m so glad to have taken the time to read this chapter because it’s been a while and school has left little to no free time for me. So the second I got an inch of freedom, I took it, and now I’m here.

First, I would like to say that I really missed this world as well as your own writing. It feels so light and free, and I feel comforted every time I read one of your works, so thank you for being here and continuing to share your own creations. I don’t deserve you, but I’m grateful for you.

I really loved the set up of this chapter. I mean, from the beginning you can see how the main character is trying to keep things in equilibrium on shaky ground, but once she found her footing, things just kind of took off and left little control. The repetition that was weaved throughout, all of the "You're over it" “You will not break. You’re over him.” You're over Namjoon", to show her increasing desperation to not let underlying feelings overtake her was really something beautiful. And you know that if those emotions do take over, it could mean possibly reopening the wound of what broke them apart the first time, so it’s more like a defense mechanism. A mantra to protect her and her heart. And it seemed to be working fine until this part:

“I mean, I imagined being undressed in your bed again, but I definitely didn’t think it would be like this.”

Record scratch. Freeze frame. Sir!!!! I honestly had to take a minute and pull away from my phone because I definitely was not expecting that at all. But it would be a lie if I said that it wasn’t welcomed.

It’d occurred to you once that the fates had a sense of humor, and now you’re quickly realizing that tormenting you is their favorite brand of humor.

Once I read this I was like “Alright SAMEEE!!!” It’s okay mc, we’re in this together babe.  

Also, the part that details Namjoon’s loneliness really made my heart reach out for him. Maybe it’s because during the first few chapters we see everything from the main character’s point of view and seeing her hang out with her friends and family, and we’re not really taking into account how Namjoon feels. But just reading that part made my heart yearn for him, and so did the main character’s because slowly you begin to see her submit to her inner feelings. Begin to see that she might not be as over him as she may have believed. (Okay, but pulling the 'Joonie' card and the hand on the thigh was low so I'm lowkey side-eying Yeri for now).

And then this jaw-dropper:

You’re definitely not over him.

Even though a part of me knew that this is what it would come to, it still surprised me to see it and actually have it set in stone. Now I’m curious as to how everything else will unfold between her and Namjoon and Yeri because I’m guessing she’s catching feelings for him too.

I was actually going to send my thoughts last night but my body was just so fatigued and I was mentally drained, but now that I've had some time to sleep and spend more time thinking about it, I'm just like WOW!! You really wrote this Debs! And I can’t believe that it’s taken me such a long time to get to it because it’s so beautiful. 

Thank you so much Debs! You continually amaze me each and every time you write and I’m so proud to know you and read your works. I adore you and I’m sending in my love.💕💕💕

sincerely, but no longer yours | chapter 4

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sincerely, but no longer yours | ex!kim namjoon x reader

genre | angst, exes au

summary | It started as a coping mechanism as getting the words out provided a form of catharsis. But now you can’t stop writing these love letters, even with the knowledge that they’ll never get sent. After all, who writes love letters to their ex?

word count | 4.2k

chapter rating | PG-13

warnings | none

a/n | IM SO SORRY this is late 😔😔 skldjflkj i was trying to get this out for namjoon’s bday butttt i failed HAHAH sighz life just threw consecutive curveballs my way ok but here we go!!!! part foouuuurrrr

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Uncertainties are inevitable in life, but seasons arrive with consistency that humans could never achieve. Because seasons have no emotions - the winter doesn’t feel remorse, and spring isn’t overflowing with hopes of a new beginning.

Cha, I really wasn’t expecting this. Especially not during the morning when my brain is still slightly incompatible with my body. But even then, I cannot fathom how much beauty and soul you put into this drabble when the list of words that I sent in were small and fleeting and definitely do not deserve this amount of depth. 

This piece is so pure and it reminds me of light and the freedom that comes with it, but there’s still that tinge of darkness that’s there and it just….my heart. And the juxtapositions between spring and winter were unfathomable. And this part:

I….I just don’t know at this point because wow...wow. This really brightened my morning and I’m so glad that I woke up to this. You have really made my heart melt Cha and I’ll always come back to this poetic piece. I adore it, and you. Thank you so so so so sooo much for this. I’m sending you my heart, my love.💕

Seasons have no emotions. Rather… hope lies in the gentle flapping of a butterfly’s wings, the slow bloom of the first cherry blossom, the light that lingers long after evening has come, and in the heart of each person who has made it through winter. Hope is what Namjoon unknowingly gives to you as he smiles gently at the creature that has cautiously landed on his large palm. 

Cha! Hi cha! I'm so glad that I caught this before I went to bed 😂. My five words are: color, butterfly/butterflies, heart, light, and hello with Namjoon. Okay. ILY!😘🥰💕💕💕

for kharli 💜 

title: seasons have no emotions

WC: 366

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Seasons have no emotions. Yet, spring brings with it many things. A new calendar, warm weather, days that grow longer, and hope that clings to the new buds sprouting in the sun. No matter how harsh the winter, how cold the air, or how dark the days, spring always follows right behind - gradual, but indomitably persistent. The snow - white and pristine - covers everything like a shroud, while the wind bites into flesh with an icy indifference. Until warmer days arrive, and bits of color make their way from under the cold blanket, slowly revealing what was hidden below. Though winter may seem daunting, the promise of spring will never be broken. Uncertainties are inevitable in life, but seasons arrive with consistency that humans could never achieve. Because seasons have no emotions - the winter doesn’t feel remorse, and spring isn’t overflowing with hopes of a new beginning.

“Hello.” Your attention is brought back towards Namjoon, who has been gazing intently at a yellow butterfly for almost 15 minutes now. His tall frame looks endearingly tiny as he squats down beside the shrubs. There is a slight hesitancy evident in his being as he leans towards the butterfly. “Don’t be scared. I won’t hurt you. I just want to look at the pattern on your wings.”

Seasons have no emotions. Rather… hope lies in the gentle flapping of a butterfly’s wings, the slow bloom of the first cherry blossom, the light that lingers long after evening has come, and in the heart of each person who has made it through winter. Hope is what Namjoon unknowingly gives to you as he smiles gently at the creature that has cautiously landed on his large palm. The dimples grow deeper as he turns towards you, beckoning you with his gaze, to come and share this moment with him. The moment which is small, fleeting, and filled with the soft glow of what can be. Rather than what could have been.

Winter was here, so how could spring be far behind…

xxx

a/n: not sure what this was but i don’t hate it. and as always, i can never talk about spring without that somehow bringing up ode to the west wind 🙈which probably explains the end of the drabble lol. 

@propinqxity hope you liked it!

“It’s not every day a man comes home to see the woman he’s been missing like crazy for months only to find out that she’s carrying his baby,” 

Hi Dia! It’s been a while, but I hope that you’ve been doing well. I’m actually really glad that I took a few minutes for myself and read this beautiful piece because...wow. I didn’t realize how much I missed this universe until I was a few paragraphs in and all of the feelings surrounding this series came rushing back. It was so beautiful to go back in time for a bit and see another moment of their relationship and their life surrounding this pregnancy, even more so when you learn that Namjoon doesn’t want the main character to do this alone and that he’ll be with her along the way.

We. He said ‘we’. Insinuating that he is in this with you. Thinking about it makes you feel warm in the chest. Perhaps if you haven’t been crying all night, you would feel it burning in your eyes too, but the hope blooming within you is stopping you from shedding more tears.

This part made my heart melt. I was excited with her even though I already know what’s going to happen later on, but it was a blissful moment and one that should be treasured. But then when you added:

Hope blooms together with relief after hearing what he just said to you. After knowing that he truly cares. But once again, you refuse to let it bloom into something else. You refuse to let yourself dream to have more.

Because dreams are the things that hurt you the most.

It felt like my heart shattered into a million pieces on the floor beneath me. I felt that deeply, and as I continued to read on and see her thoughts, it was a bittersweet moment that you depicted so wonderfully. 

Thank you Dia for making my very long day. This is exactly what I needed and I’m so grateful for you. I’m sending you my love💕💕💕

The Stand-In | #002.1 - Delicate Blooms

➬ Title | #002.1 - Delicate Blooms

➬ Summary | The secret is out, but how would he react to it? Keeping this secret for months has been hard enough for you to do. You had never thought that confessing to your baby’s daddy would be even harder.

↳ Pairings | Namjoon x reader

↳ Genre | Friends to Lovers!au, Failed Marriage!au, Post Divorce!au, Expecting Parents!au

↳ Ratings | PG-13

↳ Word count | 4k words

↳ Fic Index | The Stand-In

Author’s Note | Written as a commission for @saving_gracie who had requested for a specific scene that we passed on during the reveal of our OC’s pregnancy. This scene takes place after drabble #002 with a part of drabble #003, after the surprise homecoming Namjoon had set up to reunite with his little Peach.

The house has never felt so quiet.

It had never felt this way on those nights you had spent time here while Namjoon was away. Even if you had been here with no other companion but silence, at least it had felt more comforting than it is now.

The quiet between you feels deafening. All of a sudden, the house feels cold. He feels cold.

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