HEAVEN AND BACK

HEAVEN AND BACK

sum. after a tough breakup, you find comfort in things you never thought you would do.

fem!reader with she/her pronouns

warnings: drug usage, very rushed, angry katsuki but the usual, y/n is a mess lol and kinda a crybaby srry I was pmsing when I wrote this…

inspo: heavily inspired by Heaven and back by chase Atlantic I love that song sm gn

not proof read sorry I’m lazy I’ll edit it later, YOU’VE BEEN WARNED

She was always dealing with the devil

She was always into taking those chances, yeah

“Thank you, have a wonderful day.” You smiled at the customer as they grabbed their cigarettes and left the convenience store you worked at.

It was currently 7:47 PM, and all you wanted to do was be at home with your cat and sleep.

But it’s never sleep when it comes to you. It’s always work, study, work, work, repeat. Living alone was stressful, especially when you didn’t have a support system like you used to.

Your support system..your precious katsuki. Gosh how much you missed him. That night of your breakup was one of the worst things you had ever experienced.

It wasn’t like the time when you lost your pet turtle and it crawled into your father’s work boots, leading to its awful death.

It wasn’t like the time you lost the charm bracelet your best friend had gotten you for your birthday in 7th grade.

No, nothing could ever compare to the way you felt like your heart was yanked out of your chest and tossed aside like a rock.

“Being in a relationship with you is exhausting.” You remembered saying to him as he was ranting about god knows what. You didn’t remember why you two argued, or how you two got in that position.

“Are you fucking serious?” You finally realized what you had said, going up to him to apologize.

But all you remember is him scoffing with tears in his pretty ruby eyes and yanking his jacket off the coat rack, slamming the door harshly. That was the last time you seen him.

“Hi is your lane open?”

You looked up, seeing three girls who were dressed in tight dresses, fur coats with huge smiles on their faces. You caught a whiff of the familiar green plant many would find relief in and their bloodshot eyes as they looked at you in excitement.

“Yes of course. Is this all?” You scanned the bottles of Pedialyte, chuckling as the girls began to ramble.

“You’re really pretty to be working at a place like this?” One girl with brown hair and pink highlights said, holding onto her phone.

“Oh uh thanks?” You blinked at her, looking back down as you scanned the Tylenol.


“We’re going to a party later, you should definitely come! When does your shift end?” You sighed, looking at the clock. These girls didn’t even know you and they wanted to party with you?

“It ends now, but look I don’t really go out at all though so-“

“Even more reason to come! Come on! It’ll be fun!” The shorter girl with curls said as she shoved her pixie stick in her mouth.

“I don’t even know your names.” You tried to explain, shaking your head in disagreement to this idea of theirs.

“I’m Yei, this is Lumi and Honey. We already know your name,” Yei the girl with blue hair pointed to your name tag giggling. “So there’s no other excuse. Please come with us.”

“I think that’s an amazing idea.” You felt a soft shove, looking over to see your coworker Ley looking down at you smiling.

“But I-“

“Go, Y/N. You’ve been working too hard and I know Layla asked for you to cover her shift for tonight but I refuse. As your boss and your friend, go have fun.” You sighed, nodding as you handed Ley your work apron.

Some would say it was pretty weird to have a boss who treated you this way, but you’ve know Ley since middle school. He was basically one of the reasons you still had a job here.

“I don’t even have anything to wear though.” You walked next to the girls as they dragged you along.

Said she met a couple other women

Who were into going late night dancing, yeah

You side glanced at the numerous people that were dancing along with the loud music, smoke overtaking the air as you clenched onto one of the girls’ hand, following them as they led you in further into the party.

You sighed a deep breath, feeling anxious as you watched everyone pushing and grinding on one another.

Gosh you wished you could call Katsuki to be here. Or even to just take you home.

“Hey, have a drink you look stressed.” Lumi laughed as she passes you a red cup. You gulped, smiling as you clenched it in your palm.

“Hey leave her alone, she said she’s not one to party so maybe she’s just not used to this environment.” Honey gave you a side hug and rubbed your shoulders in comfort.

‘I want to go home.’ You thought as you started to sip on the drink, making a small face at the sweetness of the alcoholic beverage, but still not putting it down.

“Mina said she was coming over with her friends.” You tensed up as you heard your old friend’s name from Yei who put her phone back in her small clutch, going back to downing the small shot glasses that were scattered around the counter.

“Mina as in-“ before you could finish, you felt warm soft arms grab your hands, squealing in your ear as you turned around to see the familiar pink girl looking at you in excitement.

“Y/N what are you doing here?!?” She asked, grabbing her hands tightly again smiling widely.

“Oh I was just-“ you looked up for a second and took a double take as you saw him.

Katsuki, standing in all his glory. His large arms in full display in that black wife beater tank, the chain that hung on the side of his loose jeans and your favorite gold chain that laid so gorgeously on his neck. You saw that he got an eyebrow piercing along with two more ear piercings and with pretty gold rings that hugged his fingers perfectly.

The fingers that were wrapped around a girl’s waist tightly.

Your breath hitched as you watched the way he smiled smugishly into the heated kiss with the girl who looked like an angel.

She was the complete opposite of you. So perfect.

You stared back at Mina with wide eyes, making her frown as she slightly turned around to see what you were looking at.

Her deep sigh of disappointment was all you needed to know.

You pulled away from Mina, walking to the bathroom as a loud sigh escaped out of your chest.

“Stupid stupid stupid.” You kept repeating to yourself as you started to put cold water on your face to cool down.

A loud knock interrupted your mini crisis. “Hey we need the bathroom!” A girl yelled, twisting the doorknob annoyingly.

“Sorry.” You whispered as you walked out, seeing two girls drag in a boy with blond hair with a lightening streak who was smiling dumbly. You now realized it was Denki who was dragged into the bathroom.

Good for him. You thought with a small smile. You began to make your way out, only to be caught by the wrist.

Looking back, you saw the face you were dreading to see now.

“Let me go, Katsuki.” You spoke sternly, yanking your arm away. You saw a small glance of hurt in his eyes that was quickly overtaken by the look of anger.

“What the hell are you doing here?” He asked, looking over your shoulder and back at you.

“Who are you with?” You rubbed your face in annoyance and frustration. “That’s none of your business.” You heard a small huff from him, seeing the way he licked his lips in irritation.

A habit you used to love because he looked so good doing it.

“It is my business when you-“ you felt another pair of hands grab your shoulder, being shoved back into a rough chest.

“Is this guy bothering you?” You looked up, feeling your breath hitch at the gorgeous man that stood before you.

He had a tight compressed black shirt with gray sweatpants. Pretty green eyes and raven black hair as he looked at Katsuki.

“Uh what?” You asked to yourself, looking back and forth as you soon realized you were in a muscle sandwich.

“Who the fuck are you?!” Katsuki barked, feeling a vein pop out of his forehead.

“Katsuki.” You spoke softly, looking up at him as he laughed softly.

“Whatever, Y/N. Do whatever the fuck you want. I’m sick of worrying about you and your stupid decisions.” He brushed you off, walking back to the girl from earlier as he grabbed her hand and dragged her out of the party.

You felt your heart hurt a bit, gulping at the way he tenderly talked to her as they left, without a second glance.

“What a crappy ex huh?” The guy joked softly, looking back down at you.

“You seem like you need something to get your mind off things.”

Then she fell in love with a pill, that could take away all her pain, yeah

“What is this?” You twirled the pastel rainbow pills in the small shot glass, looking up at the guy whos name was Kyle, in curiosity.

“I like to call them my happy pills. Come on, try it. Let it course through your veins as all your worries leave you.” He sat back in the raggedy couch that was in the basement as he smoked a joint.

You scratched your neck, feeling a bit tense and bothered as you saw the gray sweatpants that hugged his waist as he man-spread.

“I’m not gonna die, right?” You never did anything like this before, and you had no idea why you were even trusting this man with anything he was giving you.

But you were a whore for a man in a tight black shirt that showed all his good..qualities.

Then she fell in love with a whole new drug

That could fill her veins

And then

An hour later, you were laughing hysterically as you drank, looking around the room.

You felt like you were floating, never had you felt so alive before. This was a new sense of happiness you haven’t felt in all your years.

You started to feel addicted to this feeling.

She's high

She lives in the sky

Tonight, she's satisfied

Rolling back her eyes

You put your hand up, turning it as you inspected it in curiosity. Giving a side glance, you saw Kyle talking to his group of friends, smiling over to you.

You fell on the couch face first, groaning as you felt your vision start to blur.

“What?” You asked, seeing blobs looking down at you, shaking for you to stay awake.

“I’m having fun, leave me alone.” You giggle, pushing one of the face’s away, humming a song softly.

“Katsuki, please take her home.” Honey was looking down at you in worry, wiping your sweat off your forehead as she spoke in the phone.

There were incoherent voices in the background that you happily blocked as you sipped on another drink that was passed down to you.

“Get up.” After a good fifteen minutes of pure bliss when honey hung up the phone, you looked up confused to see him staring down at you completely pissed.

You looked around as Lumi helped you stand, seeing the girl who Katsuki was with looking at him annoyed but she was now sitting on Kyle’s lap drinking.

“Huh?” You asked, pushing his face aside when he tried to help you walk.

You limply looked up at him, seeing him even more mad than before had you sober up a tiny bit.

But then she starts to cry

Everything is turning to black

He lead you outside to his car, his keys jingling around while he helped you to sit inside.

You nuzzled up to the familiar texture of his seats that you used to sit in countless times before.

It was silent the whole ride and you began to cry.

Not just a normal sniffle cry. But a gut wrenching wail, the endless tears falling down your cheeks.

“Don’t be mad at me. Please I’m sorry.” You said clearly extremely intoxicated, watching him clench the steering wheel.

“I’m not mad!” He yelled, making you tense up and cry again.

“I-I’m not mad at you…okay? Whatever happened before….i forgave you for it. I’m mad at myself because I fucking left you!” You could hear the way his voice sounded so distraught and upset that it made you scotch closer to the car door a bit more.

“And what the fuck did you take?! How fucking stupid are you to do something like this? Did you even know that fucking guy?? You’re fucking smarter than this, Y/N what were you thinking??”

You felt your cheeks burn from the alcohol, the embarrassment, and the frustration.

“I wasn’t okay? I wasn’t thinking.”

“Fucking clearly. What the fuck happened to you?” You sat up, looking at him completely heartbroken as he spoke those words to you.

“It’s you! It’s all you!” You cried out. Katsuki looked at you, extremely pissed now as he slammed the car breaks which made the car shriek.

“Oh so it’s my fault now?!” Katsuki now turned his whole body to you, pushing the driver seat back so he was more comfortable as he faced you.

You scoffed, trying to open the car door only for him to reach over and slam it shut, along with putting the child locks on.

“You’re not fucking leaving. We’re going to talk. What the hell is going on?”

You looked at him as your head limply fell back, lightly hitting the seat as tears streamed your face.

“I was doing fine. Then these girls picked me up after my shift and then I went to that stupid party! Then I see you there, making out with the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen. I was so upset i ran to the bathroom but then denki and some girls came in so then I left only to bump into you! After that you started being a fucking asshole which made that dude come over! The-then he gave me these pills. They made me feel fucking incredible!!”

Katsuki’s mouth opened like a fish out of water, his eyes wide as you rambled.

“So there! That’s what’s wrong with me!” Reaching over his lap, you unlocked the car and got out.

As soon as you did, the cool fresh air hit you instantly, making you hunch over as you started to throw up everything in your system.

You heaved, throwing up even more as you clenched onto the tree that was on the side of the road.

You heard the door slam and a comforting rub on your back the more you threw up.

“It’s okay. Let it out.” You turned around, feeling your legs get wobbly as you pushed his hands off.

“You said you could care less about me so leave me alone.” You spoke drunkenly, only for your head to roll back and everything going black for you.

Katsuki sighed as you plopped on the dried orange leaves that luckily saved your fall.

All in one night

She just went to heaven and back

You slowly opened your eyes, seeing that you were in the back of his car, laying across the seats with his jacket that used to be your favorite to steal.

You watched him skip through songs, groaning at the annoying stations that played.

“Who was she?” You almost laughed at the way he jumped, turning to see you sitting up now.

“Jesus fuck, you scared the hell out of me.” you could practically hear the way his heart was racing and ponding from the tight grip he had on the steering wheel.

“Answer my question.” Katsuki stayed silent.

“Just…a girl I started talking to.” Humming in response, you leaned your head against the car window.

“That’s why I did it. As pathetic as it sounds, I took those pills to forget about tonight. To get that imagine of you kissing her so lovingly out of my fucking head.” You didn’t realize just how much you started to cry, only seeing your tears landing on your hands that were laying on your lap.

“Y/N-“

“It’s my fault though. I was so stressed with school and making sure I had enough money for the week that I was so mean to you when you tried to talk to me that night. I’m sorry I said you were exhausting. I’m sorry I’ve been a shitty girlfriend to you, I’m sorry for everything.”

Silence.

You wanted to bury yourself in embarrassment at the way you had rambled your apology, overthinking that maybe he didn’t give a shit about you or your relationship anymore.

“I can see you having a fight with yourself, stop it.” Katsuki gave you a deep sigh, thinking for a bit before he gave himself a small nod.

“Don’t…apologize. I was being an asshole too and pushing your limits when you were saying you weren’t in the mood to speak. I should’ve given you your space. I’m sorry I fucking kissed that girl.”

Before you could respond, he parked the car and you finally realized where you were at now. You were parked right outside his apartment.

The door opened and Katsuki sat next to you.

“Look at me,” he grabbed your hand. “I’m sorry. We both were…really shitty with each other and I’m sorry. I want…to work things out. Maybe it isn’t our time yet, but I just want you.” Katsuki looked down at you, wiping your cheeks.

“I love you. So much. But I can’t…not right now. Not when I have so much regret and resentment with myself for letting this shit happen to you.”

You hum, looking down at your hands as you were thinking of what to say.

“It’s crazy how much shit can happen in one night huh…but can I ask a favor from you?” He looked at you, waiting for you to continue.

“Can we stay like this? Just for tonight like old times? Before I lose you again?”

☄︎. *. ⋆ LAST CHRISTMAS •°. *࿐

➵ In which his friend group goes on a Christmas trip and Diluc can’t help but wonder how his old lover feels about him? Maybe he’ll rekindle that romance or, he finally moves onto someone new finally.

➵ warning: ANGST!! toxic!Diluc, MODERN AU

➵ based on “Last Christmas,” by Wham!

➵unedited (what a surprise lol)

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Last Christmas- Wham!

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His fists tighten at the sight before him. Seeing her, with him, destroyed him entirely.

Just last Christmas, he was with her. Happy and content, but this year, he felt betrayed and heartbroken.

He clenched his jaw, walking away as you stood near him and wondering where he was going. You found it weird how he was so excited to spend this Christmas with you, but when his eyes landed on the group ahead, his entire being changed and his aura wasn’t the excited and cheery one that was once there.

But still, you greeted everyone and oddly enough, everyone was extremely friendly with you. Especially the girl who was eyeing your almost boyfriend since you stepped foot in front of the cabin.

You wondered when he would come back after making yourself comfortable in your shared room and unpacking. You even went as far as unpacking his things and ordered some snacks to have once he arrived.

You bit your lip debating on if you should go and check out how he was doing but once you saw how late it was, you knew your answer.

You walked softly out of the room, afraid to disturb anyone who was already asleep when you heard hushed whispering coming from the kitchen.

Peeking your head out, you saw him with her.

“Listen, as much as your letter was absolutely breathtaking, I do not return those feelings anymore. I’m with Thomas now and you’re with your new lover. It isn’t fair for them for you to be so drawn to me like this. It’s been a year, Diluc. Please just get over me.”

Chewing on your nail, you watched curiously as you saw the way he gripped her hands in his. The way his lip quivered and his cheeks a rosy pink.

The back of your throat burned and it was almost too hard to swallow as he gripped her cheek gently to face him.

“I was a fool for falling for you, Cindy. But if you kissed me now I know you’d fool me again.”

You gulped, pressing your back to the wall and sighed in sadness as nothing else was discussed between them, but you knew what they were doing.

So you did what you could at that moment. You walked away with tearful eyes and chest full of regret for even believing he was over her.

Sitting out on the porch, you gripped your phone debating if you should call your older brother to come and get you. You saw no point in being here if he was so undecided on who he wanted.

You stopped a loud sob leave your mouth with your hand, clenching your jaw in anger that you were such a fool for trusting him with your heart like this.

You’ve heard the stories of his ex lover from his brother. How destroyed he was because of her, but you never would’ve thought this out of all things would happen. That he could easily fall back in love with her the moment the two of you stepped foot out of his truck.

Was he even ever in love with you? Did he ever stop loving her?

The answers to those questions seemed so clear now that more tears burned your eyes to release.

Wiping your sweaty palms on your jeans, you got up and swung the door open, only to jump back in fright that he was standing in front of you now.

“[Y/N]…you heard everything, didn’t you?” He spoke softly but you ignored the way he looked at you.

“Yeah and it’s clear you guys like each other so I don’t see the point in being here anymore. If you wanted a rebound, you should’ve been honest and tell me instead of stringing me along like an idiot.”

You tried to walk past him, but he quickly grabbed your hands in distraught as he needed to let you know how he truly felt now.

“Just give me one second to explain.”

“There isn’t anything to explain, Diluc. I heard you clearly so I don’t need to hear you say that you don’t need me anymore.” You couldn’t hold back the fat tears that were now rolling down your face and the quivering of your lips as you stared into his beautiful and deadly eyes.

“Listen to me. Yes, what I did was so incredibly wrong and I’m so sorry for doing that to you. It was wrong of me to be so upset seeing her and making it seem like you were a second choice but you’re not. Believe me.”

Seeing the look of despair in his eyes, your heart couldn’t handle leaving him like this so you let him continue.

“It’s been a year since she broke my heart. I gave her my heart and I was such a fool for thinking there was something there still when there isn’t. I gave her my heart but she gave it away. This year, I’m giving it to someone special. To someone I truly love and so incredibly infatuated with.”

Swallowing slowly, he grabbed your form and gave you a tight hug.

“I love you. I’m sorry for breaking your heart, but understand I needed closure to truly get her out of my life forever when you’re the one I truly want and need. I didn’t kiss her..”

Crying into his chest, you held onto him tightly, afraid he would runaway. You couldn’t stay mad at him, because this was the first time he ever told you he loved you.

You would’ve liked it better if it wasn’t due to the fact you were doubting your relationship, but it’ll do for now.

If only you knew the ache in his chest that she was gone, forever now.

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ AMOR MÍO •°. *࿐ pt.1

➵ summary: you’ll always be his. but as years past, are you really?

➵fem!reader with she/her pronouns!

➵warnings: heavy angst, no happy ending (???)

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"IT'S BEAUTIFUL today, hm?"

Turning her head to look at her boyfriend, the girl smiled at how serious he looked as he kept his gaze towards the dark blue cloud sky.

"Thank you, Katsuki. For everything."

He gave a confused look towards the girl as he waited for her to further explain why she was thanking him all of a sudden.

He had no idea why, but at that moment, he could feel his heart beginning to speed up.

He admired the way she looked beneath the sun that hid behind the fluffy dark gray clouds, giving her an ethereal look on her face with the small rays of the sun lighting through.

The way she continued to hold that beautiful smile of hers while being completely vulnerable towards him.

He knew that he could break her. Ruin her even, so the next person that came, would leave her behind from how broken she would be.

But he loved her too much to ever put her through that pain. He couldn't imagine ever leaving his lover like that.

“You’re my pretty diamond, katsuki.” She was always said whenever they cuddled, argued, or simply just existing in the heat of the moment.

He needed her beside him, to love him the way she did, or he would be the most broken diamond among all the others.

A sad and broken diamond that wouldn't be as valuable as it once was.

"I don't know, I just, I have a feeling is all. I want to always thank you for saving me, especially from myself and all the crazy sh!t I've been through. You're amazing, Bakugo. Thank you for being my person."

"Stop saying that you dumbass. We both know how incredible you are. Don't you dare ever leave me, you here me?!"

He tickled her sides, making her laugh that cute laugh he loved so much. Even when she sounded like a dying cow, he couldn't help but smile even more at how precious she was.

"Okay! Okay! I promise!"

MARCH 15TH 2021

The rain pattered down, hitting the blond's face repeatedly as he stared up to the dark clouds.

He couldn't tell the difference between his tears and the raindrops that landed on his cheeks, but the loud of sobbing that could almost be unheard of over the harsh winds and thunder was all the proof he needed to know that he was suffering tremendously.

The dark rainy sky wasn't as homey as it was before when she was here.

It was and never will be the same.

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author’s note: probably one of my favorite series I’ve ever worked on. I published this back in 2020 on wattpad but I don’t use that app anymore so here I am bringing it on here. I hope you enjoyed!

MOSQUITO ~ series’ masterlist

SUM. food and nutrition is your favorite class to attend, what happens when you're assigned partners with a dude you've known for years yet never had a decent conversation with and from two completely different groups of friends. To make things worse, he's cousins with the dude who played you the summer before.

fem! reader with she/her pronouns

warnings: language, short chapters, slow burn

CHAPTERS:

0: profiles

I: new partner who this?

II: Tifa let me be yours?

III: you don’t want some grapes?

more coming soon…

INSPO: literally an incident that happened to me freshman year... except this is more magical lol.

“This fucking sucks.” Looking at tifa, you frown as you both scanned the paper that was taped to the white board in front of class.

The two of you always were paired with one another. You two were the power duo when it came to cooking and exams during food and nutrition.

So why the heck were you guys changing partners in the middle of the semester?

The both of you were clearly upset, so used to being with another, going to each other’s houses for assignments, just overall having a great time.

Then Mr. Hewley just had to ruin it all. Maybe it was because you two would be the ones always answering questions, finishing quickly, etc. but why did you feel like being good students was becoming a punishment now.

“We all are comfortable with our partners, so why not mix it up to see how challenging this can be for everyone,” he waved his hand in the air slightly as he walked around slowly.

“We need to be uncomfortable in order to succeed. So, I have advised a new approach to this class. Being partnered up with a completely different person, different social groups, and different personalities.”

‘Who tf will I be paired with. I know everyone in this class, not by choice but still.’ You glanced around the room, frowning.

“The group to make the best Confit de Canard at the end of this semester ; one of the most difficult dishes to make, will not be needing to do finals.” Some of you ooh’d as Mr. Hewley’s finals were one of the most difficult to pass.

“Now then, all of you know your new partners so go and sit with one another.” Looking back at the sheet of paper, you were confused on who the heck is a cloud? Is this a real person? Was this a joke?

You felt tifa shift next to you, frowning as she waved you goodbye as she walked over to Yuffie.

You looked around again, seeing a tall figure huddled into themselves. The person had blonde spiked hair, piercings on the eyebrow and ears, along with dark clothes.

‘Is this him?’ You slowly walked over, tapping his shoulder. He hummed, looking up and you saw bright turquoise eyes you’ve seen before.

Wait a second…

“You’re Zack’s cousin aren’t you?”

“I have a name. But yes i am. Cloud strife.”

Oh fuck me.

omg can i pls request a part 2 to your gojo fic (temporary) where the reader gets with the guy and gojo gets jealous or smth?? (taste of his own medicine tbh 😤) ty!! have a great day <3

he really does though! his ego is his downfall 😭 but yes of course, I’m half way through the next chapter so he’s definitely not gonna come back easily 🫣 ILYSM!! Also, thank you so much to everyone for loving pt1 sm I will definitely tag the ppl who asked!!🥰

I hate how im so motivated to do a series and then I start to overthink it and feel like it’s super cringe which makes me want to just discontinue it all together 🙄🗿🗿🗿 (talking abt ‘temporary)