The RFA + Saeran Spooning

The RFA + Saeran spooning

I’M going back to work! YAY!! it literally helps my mental health so much to have something to do during the day so I’m so glad i get to go back! plus the paycheck wont hurt either. anyway that does mean i wont have as much time to write. i want to keep doing this though because i really enjoy getting my work out there. 

oh also master list 

Jumin

-        he loves when you hold onto him but he’s not a fan of the little spoon position

-        if you hug onto him like that he absolutely spins to face you

-        he wants to hold you too after all he’s never been one to passively let things happen

-        he wants an active role in the cuddling

-        because of this most of the time you two don’t spoon at all but end up holding each other in mutual cuddles

-        so it is that your big spoon time is regulated to those rare occasions when he is sick and has no energy to put into cuddling you back

-        in these moment you revel in holding him close like that and he enjoys that you never leave his side

-        it helps that when he is sick he lets go of the need to be in control all the time and you really like that he trusts you enough to let you be the person in control during these moments

Yoosung

-        this boy will take all the cuddles he can get

-        big spoon little spoon he doesn’t care he’s just happy to be close to you

-        he will admit though he really likes when you nuzzle your face into his neck from behind

-        and when you run your hand up and down his chest absently while you get comfortable as the big spoon

-        the only problem is that your chest presses against his back and it can be difficult to ignore

-        there are upsides to him being the big spoon too though. It makes him feel very manly, like he’s protecting you

-        also he loves to bury his face in your hair. Its soft and smells so good especially after you’ve just washed it

-        but then he gets really nervous because what if you feel him against you

-        either he feels you against him or you feel him against you there is no escape for this poor embarrassed boy

Saeyoung

-        it’s not that he dislikes being the little spoon per se it’s just the little spoon usually gets trapped under the big spoons arms and he is not a fan of feeling trapped

-        still it’s okay as long as you don’t have a death grip (like he does)

-        but he definitely prefers being the big spoon he likes holding you tight (and once he falls asleep his vice grip holds you there all night there is no way for you to escape)

-        also it’s the perfect position to tease you, a few nips to your neck some saucy whispering in the ear and you turn to putty in his hands

-        the main problem (if you can call it that) is the fact that you can also tease him with a simple grind of your hips.

-        Still many nights’ end with him as the big spoon you using his arm as a pillow while he keeps you locked against him with his other arm

Zen

-        Big spoon all the way no doubt. You aren’t sure if this is because he wants to “protect his princess” or because of one of his (sometimes warped) ideas about masculinity

-        Somehow it always turns into sex, did you grind on you or did you grind on him, the world may never know

-        The arm around you is in your shirt and on your breasts

-        He does it unconsciously if you two sleep like this, legit he isn’t even doing it on purpose and it drives you crazy

-        It just doesn’t work as a sleeping position for y’all okay there’s too much temptation for both of you

-        So what usually happens is you go to bed with every intention of sleeping. You start spooning and spend an inordinate amount of time NOT sleeping. Then you fall asleep with him on his back and your head against his chest instead.

Jaehee

-        She likes being the little spoon. She isn’t used to being held or taken care of so she really enjoys it when it happens

-        She absolutely holds your hand to her face in her sleep. You enjoy her soft even breath against your skin

-        She has a vice grip on your arm so if you want to leave you may have to consider amputation (Judo has this girl STRONG)

-        She won’t admit it but she enjoys the feel of your chest pressed against her back and your legs tangled with hers

-        When she grows out her hair she worries it’ll get in your face and bother you. She wonders aloud if she should cut it again and you rush to assure her its fine.

-        Honestly when you two are cuddled like this you sometimes wonder if you need such a big bed. You two are both pretty small and even sprawled out you have a little extra room but curled around each other like this you only occupy a quarter of the bed

Saeran

-        HOLD 👏 THIS 👏 BOY 👏 Seriously hold him wrap him up in your arms he needs to much love.

-        he likes being the little spoon. But tell anyone and your dead.

-        He hides his face in pillows or blankets but you can see his ears turn pink and feel his pulse rise

-        He calls cuddling stupid but he never fights it and when you go to bed without cuddling him you always wake up to cuddles

-        It isn’t that he hates the big spoon position. He just, he hasn’t been held much in his life so he drinks it in like man parched in the desert.

-        It’s nice that he can wake up from nightmares and be instantly grounded by your arms around him

-        He counts your breath using it to calm him down and holds your hand like a talisman all the while you sleep undisturbed. A calm constant warmth pressed against him. You have no idea how many times you’ve saved him like this

i have feelings about jaehee said rout and will probably write an entire page about it once i get home until then take note that i have crumbled into a loosely contained dust devil of missed emotions

I have thoughts about Jaehee’s route.

Sympathy for Jaehee

Look no matter how you look at it Jumin failed to create a healthy and satisfying work environment for Jaehee. He refused to listen to her concerns regarding her ability to do what he was asking and completely overstepped his bounds with requests regarding her appearance and dress. He took her for granted and failed to give her the time off she needed to recover from her works physical and mental demands.

It’s clear Jaehee has low self-esteem and placed much of her self-worth in being employed and independent. She’s used to being told that she is a burden and so she works insanely hard to prove people wrong. She also forgoes asking for help to avoid seeming greedy or useless. All of this makes her very difficult for many people to read. She hides behind this mask of professional formality to avoid anyone seeing how hard things are for her. The problem with this is that she is very likely to bottle up her emotions until she does something rash (as we see in her route). She needs someone empathetic and perceptive enough to notice when she’s struggling BEFORE she makes those irrational decisions.

I understand where she’s coming from. She’s just found something she’s passionate about and wants to throw herself into it with everything she has because she’s never had something this important to her. She’s tired and frustrated in her job and she feels creatively stifled by Jumin’s strict policies. All of this culminates into a steadfast stubbornness mixed with the desire to set herself apart from the image she’s hidden behind for so long.

Had Jumin simply accepted her interest and allowed her the freedom to do the coffee project however she saw fit I believe much of the drama could have been avoided. Had he put himself in her shoes he would have been able to understand that a little encouragement and freedom goes a long way but empathy is not his strong suit so he didn’t.  

 Sympathy for Jumin

What Jaehee did WAS insubordination. Plain and simple and that is technically a fire-able offense, though I agree he over-reacted. He told her to prioritize the cat hotel over the coffee shop and even if she didn’t agree no one can say she gave the cat project her all when she used slides mad by someone else and had a social lunch rather than look over edit and prepare for the presentation. It was also very clear that Jumin wanted Elizabeth as the mascot, she had to have Known that the second he brought up the cat hotel (he also mentions it directly to MC but I’m not sure if it’s in a phone call or a chatroom so I won’t count that). So by including an alternate and unapproved logo she was absolutely out of line.

Jumin struggles with empathy and emotional expressiveness because of his cold and analytical upbringing. He’s used to people trying to use, manipulate and cheat him so he constantly has his guard up never letting people in. the problem is when you build these walls from a young age you never learn how to see the world from someone else’s point of view. This leads to people not understanding what his actions mean as well as him not understanding other people’s actions. He also learned very early to suppress and deny his emotions for the sake of professionalism and because he learned it so early he finds it difficult to understand that other people cannot do this.

I understand why he is so frustrated, he feels ganged up on by zen, seven, and Jaehee. Three of his five closest friends (and let us not overlook the fact that of the remaining two 1 is growing increasingly isolated for unknown reasons meaning that he only has Yoosung left on his side). he expresses this feeling in one of his calls asking MC if Zen and Seven are messing with him, in this moment not believing that Jaehee will go along with them. As much as he denies it Jaehee has been a constant in his life for 2 years and he trusts her loyalty and perfectionism so when she goes along with his plan it must have felt like quite the betrayal.

 Conclusion

NO-ONE is blameless in this situation. Jumin neglected Jaehee’s physical and emotional wellbeing, and Jaehee reacted rashly by rebelling against one of Jumins passion projects.

Now don’t get me wrong, I am not suggesting that Jaehee stay in her assistant position to avoid stepping on Jumin’s toes. Jaehee deserves to be happy and chase her passion. Unless Jumin exhibits REAL change and emotional growth I could never in good conscious recommend she stay at that job. That being said I think she handled her exit from the company poorly. I believe that Jumin should have accepted the coffee shop project Jaehee worked so hard on and praised her for her obvious dedication and excellence. This would have eased much of the tension on Jaehee as Mark Twain put it “I can live two months on a good compliment”. On the other side she should have done the cat hotel presentation as Jumin requested and then subsequently turned in her two weeks’ notice. This would feel much less like betrayal and manipulation to Jumin and she would have a better chance of keeping the valuable connections she made while working at C&R.

I just think the entire situation could have been handled so much better.

i cant pass up the chance to win a piece of art from you! and even if i don’t win maybe someone will see my re-blog and enter themselves and win. Good luck everyone!!!

1500+ Follower Raffle: entry deadline — June 16th

Thank you all so much! This tiny little blog has grown so fast since last August 2019. I’ve been meaning to do a raffle for a while and the watercolor polaroids are very fun to do! So, here are the rules:

1 reblog = 1 entry

Must be following (I will check). New followers welcome.

Winner will be picked randomly and announced on June 17th

Will draw:

Mystic Messenger

OCs

Light gore

Won’t draw:

NSFW

Intense gore

(I reserve the right to refuse a subject)

The winner’s art will be sent via Tumblr DMs and posted on the JMH blog. If the winner would like to receive the physical polaroid in the mail, there will be a small shipping fee of $3 (one ko-fi). Examples of watercolor polaroid pieces may be found in the #watercolor and #polaroid series tags!

If I have missed information or you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask! Again, thank you all so much for your support. After the raffle is over, I plan to officially open commissions too!

I’ve never participated in pride month before but ...

I found a thing on google and decided to use it

so first a link to where i found it 

then a blank one to make your own! (its not perfect but ya know)

and mine with little stars for where i fall 

my good mysme route includes

so I have FEELINGS and rather than deal with them like an adult, I’m going to write about what my perfect MYSME route looks like. Major spoilers so it’ll all be under the cut. I really just want everyone happy and healthy.

this was really really fun to write and I’d love to hear other peoples thoughts on the perfect MYSME route since it’ll be different for everyone depending on what they want their MC doing. 

my MC is a caretaker/mom friend TM (like me) she likes to work but gets bored if she has to do the same thing everyday plus Jumin is my favorite so i chose to have her marry Jumin and use all the free time she has because she doesn't need to work a job to take care of the RFA. 

1: Jaehee and zen becoming best friends Jaehee helps him take care of himself as well as using her connection at C and he encourages her to chase her dreams.

2: Jumin promoting Jaehee to a delegation position where she hires and trains several assistants to do her job rather than get drowned in busy work

3: Seven and Saeran living happily together with a therapy service dog to help with Saerans medicine, panic attacks, and both the boys self care.

4: seven owns a toy store while saeran tends to a garden and play area in the back for kids who do not wish to go home right away (no matter what the reason is)

5: yoosung seeks grief counseling and begins his journey of moving on after rika

6: rika gets arrested and sent to a mental health rehabilitation center where she receives INTENSIVE therapy for and extended period of time

7: v realizes his codependent nature and also receives at least some therapy before he even considers getting into another serious relationship. his councilor advises him to avoid rika and he listens. meanwhile he reunites with the RFA and begins to rebuild the broken trust there.

the end result is that jumin learns to express himself and empathize with jaehee. he marries the love of his life. yoosung learns to motivate and live independently so he is not so swayed by outside influence or so reliant on others to motivate him. he want to improve himself, for himself. saeyoung gets his brother back as well as very tolerant and gentle pet trained to help calm them both down. he is out of the agency and doing what he actually loves, building and creating things that make people happy. zen becomes good friends with jaehee who reminds him how much his acting affects his fans not simply because of his looks but because of his skill as well. she actively cares about his health and happiness motivating and empowering him to follow his dream. jaehee learns to delegate and manage people to get consistent results without being overworked. she hires multiple assistants for jumin and every one has received glowing reviews thanks to her meticulous training. consequently she has far more free time and is planning to open her own cafe after training her own replacement. because she leaves Jumin amicably C&R readily invests in her Cafe and she does very well. V is learning his own self worth as well as becoming okay with the fact that he cannot control everything, and by extension if he is not in control he is neither to be praised or blamed for some things (such as rika’s actions) he is very slowly rebuilding trust with saeyoung, jumin and yoosung as well as the rest of the RFA though he will not be taking the leadership role back. he gets his eye surgery and opens a painting studio. his paintings and photographs are still regularly auctioned off at RFA parties. he learns to be more open and honest so that secrets are a thing of the past.  Saeran tends to a garden and playground behind saeyoungs toy store where many kids play and enjoy a safe environment. he has a therapy service animal that helps him remember his medicine and can help calm him down in the event of a panic attack. the dog also helps him sleep (waking him up if he has a nightmare) and reminds him to take a daily walk since exercise and sunlight are integral to his recovery.  Rika his arrested but thanks to jumin pulling some strings is given the extremely relaxed sentence of 30 years in a maximum security mental health rehabilitation facility. jumin arranges for her to be sent to the best possible facility in the world which happens to be in england far from V, her family, and the RFA. she gets the treatment she needs while the RFA heal from what she’s done. mc often visits each member to deliver snacks, lunches, dinners, or anything else that she’s made in her free time from hand knitted scarves to pottery she is constantly dabbling in knew crafts personalized for each member. she often brings huge amounts of cookies to sevens shop to hand out to kids and leave any left overs for the twins. she becomes the mom of the RFA checking on every member daily and making sure everyone has everything they need to be happy. once things have settled down and the members don’t need her as much she feels a little lost, until she talks Jumin into fostering kittens. her and jumin will have kids eventually but they aren’t in a hurry.

EVERYONE is getting better