Sexual Tension Really Do Be More Fun Than The Sex Itself Sometimes. I Said What I Said

Sexual tension really do be more fun than the sex itself sometimes. I said what I said 🫣

Masturbated so hard today that my ears were ringing? Didn't even cum though but like damn wtf

Gotta be honest, I'm pretty pleased with myself.

I hate how teen sexuality is handled, as if saying "teens shouldn't be sexual" will turn off hormones and instincts and sensory + dopamine cravings and everything else that contributes to making people horny

And it leads to danger for these kids. I was one of these kids. My puberty was wild and I was obsessed with sex by the time I was twelve while knowing I shouldn't be, that it was morally bad for me and that I was a bad and gross person for it, especially because I was a little girl and little girls don't get horny. Girls are the objects, we cannot lust. We cannot want or crave.

And this leads to letting people use us and do what they want without knowing what we actually want because we're not ALLOWED to want. And then if things go bad, well, it was our fault for wanting sex at all! And then we end up in our 30s, still stupidly horny because that's just who we are sometimes, with a lot of trauma to unpack surrounding sexuality, learning to communicate about it because talking about sex was bad to do, and maybe HPV and a precancerous cervix from all the secret dangerous experimentation we did as teens. :)

And if we talk about this even from the perspective of "this is about my experience as a teenager who has grown up" you get people accusing you of all sorts of creep behavior. I don't want to be involved with anyone who isn't in their mid 20s thru 70s personally. I just don't think kids should grow up believing that sex is the worst thing they can be interested in so that they have to hide the bad sex they're having with people twice their age and not talk about it ever to anyone. It's fucked up to me. Kids deserve proper sex education that isn't steeped in puritanical values and heteronormativity.

So I went rock climbing a few days ago after months of not doing it, then last night did pushups and an at-home workout. Then, I beat a personal record and masturbated so hard I cummed EIGHT times!!

Now I'm feeling pms symptoms, have sore muscles, and I should be fucking EXHAUSTED from cumming eight times. But I'm just. Still horny.

I think I'm lonely. It's like how people say masturbating is a coping mechanism for being lonely or sad. It kinda gives you that hormone rush. Like the reason I did it eight times and still want more is to fill that emotional need that isn't being met.

It doesn't work. That's the snarling part. It just doesn't fucking work. I'm still missing something. I still feel so alone.

I haven't been able to see my bf or my friends for several weeks now. Luckily I'll be reunited with them soon.

How no nut november went for me last year:

First day: Feel normal

Next few days: Pleasant amounts of desire, kind of fun sexual fantasies and enjoying the experience

November fifth: Pain😭 (I ended up jacking off in the employee restroom at the retail store i worked at during my 15min break💀)

Since then my sex drive has only increased and I've begun jerking off in public restrooms every day. Will my boyfriend and I survive November this year? Certainly not, but I think it would be funny to try.

Same😭

I’m such a slut when I’m sad lmao