History-of-art-scholar - A Girl Fond Of Art

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If the compass breaks,

then follow your heart

And I hope it leads you

right back into my arms

on childhood friendship: (1) / (2) / (3, 4) night in the woods (2017) / (5) / (6) / (7)  p.s. i still love you, jenny han

still thinking about how donna tartt executed the concept of having no moral binary in her characters so well. when you first read the secret history your desire is to place henry, francis, and camillia in the right. and that would work, except that henry is so obessed with the aesthetic of perfection and of the intellectual that he has lost his moral compass altogether. francis is so attached to his wealthy, comfortable lifestyle that he'd rather sacrifice his own well-being and desire in order to maintain it. camilla knows the implications of the wrongdoing that she and the others have committed, but she doesn't change her behavior or try to solve the situation, because that would disrupt the order she is trying her hardest to maintain. ultimately, they are all iredeemable, both for their own faults and for their participation in bunny's murder, and that's exactly what makes the novel as thematically nuanced as it is.

I am 23, I feel the same. I’m starting to feel like it’s a normal feeling in your twenties. Everyone is going through a different path and we often compare ourselves, thinking the other ones have picked the right choice or path. Or even we think that that other thing we thought about once might have been better than what we are currently doing.

The thing is, you are finding your path now.

You might feel confused or like a failure but that is because more often than not you are thinking about all that you have not accomplished or have yet to accomplish. You are looking at an objective far away in your life. Maybe about your degree, maybe about the job you want to have with that, or maybe something else entirely different, but still far away.

Just try to switch your focus, think about what you have done today. How wonderful is that. This is not about toxic positivity and how you should always be happy and shit. It’s about treating yourself and your acts with more kindness.

If someone else was doing what you are doing right now would you criticise them the same way to do with yourself? I don’t think so.

I think it’s the alcohol speaking but sometimes I feel like I’ve failed at life even though I’m only like 20. I feel like I should’ve picked Stanford which my family would’ve felt more inclined to send me off to or idk I should’ve stayed in France or something. I don’t know I’m not really excited to start my school even thought it’s objectively a good school most people study really hard to get into. I just feel like I’m wasting my life

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