Mintsugarmy Here.. I've Been Shadowbanned For Like 5 Days Straight And It Sucks!! It's So Frustrating!

mintsugarmy here.. I've been shadowbanned for like 5 days straight and it sucks!! it's so frustrating! AAARGHHH

Oh no! I can get how that’d be frustrating

𝓢𝓵𝓮𝓮𝓹𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓶𝔂 𝓶.𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽

Chapter one

It’s been a while…..

Jhope - on the street

Jhope - arson

Lady Gaga - Alejandro

Tân yn Llŷn

We didn’t start the fire (avengers)

BTS - permission to dance

Loving caliber - I am falling for you

Mondays - Be with you

Rihanna - We found love

Elley Duhé - middle of the night

Tagging @mintsugarmy @sweetwolfcupcake @ratherbefangirling

tysm for the tag, @bluemingdream! ♡

i got roasted in the group chat recently because i never, ever put my liked songs on shuffle and almost exclusively listen to playlists or albums Only, so this was fun.

rules: put all of your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that pop up!

seventeen - change up

will joseph cook - habit

jeon soyeon - psycho

namasenda - on my mind

abba - mamma mia

monsta x - autobahn

iyo matsumoto - バージニア・ラプソディ

100 gecs - fuck teeth

salt cathedral - always there when i need you

one direction - everything about you

tagging: @hot-soop / @the-boy-meets-evil / @gimmethatagustd / @jihopesjoint / @eoieopda — no pressure ofc and feel free to ignore igf you've already been tagged!

Shades of cool

In honour of the amazing @archivedkookie who always makes me smile.

Lana Del Rey song = shades of cool

warnings - drug and alcohol addictions, toxic relationships, reader slaps Yoongi, implied cheating

“Maybe you should keep quiet,” Yoongi says from his place hovering above you. The position you were forced into being more than uncomfortable. You were both squished together in the back of his car, his car that he loves so much, an old Malibu chevrolet. Yoongi had a deep connection with this car, it was one of the only presents his father ever gave him. And here the both of you were, trying to keep quiet while Yonngi brought his tongue down your neck to your collarbone. His humming against your skin drives you crazy.

“Maybe we should stop,” You suggest coming out of your lust-fueled haze, only for a second before his hot tongue against your skin sends you back into the haze that had trapped your mind previously. Not needing to check the time to know he was going to be late for his performance.

“Nobody will be able to hear us if you keep quiet.” he growls, not amused by your insistence to stop.

“C’mon baby, let's do it here while the fangirls wait for the show to start” You bolt up, only to be pushed back down by your lover. “Stay where you're told, the fans can wait”

“I am not sure they can.” you say, making a note of the growing squeals and excitement that could be heard from the private garage of the arena your boyfriend would be performing at.

Yoongi grits his teeth at your snide remark, “Do you want me to go and fuck one of them instead? I am sure a lot of them would be more than up for it if you're not going to be.”

Ahh, not this again, he always says things like this when he gets upset. Even after all this time, the stinging in your chest reminds you that you were replaceable to him.

“No! I am, it's just that I think you should wait until after the show, we don't have enough time” you tried to explain. The hurt on your features surely showing. Not that he cared though.

“Damn,” he cussed, glancing at his rolex. “Well we would’ve” he hissed “If you had taken me seriously.” he huffed before angrily buttoning up his shirt and lifting himself off of you.

“Yoongi-” You can't finish your sentence as the car door slams with the furious strength of Min Yoongi.

You sit there for a small while, considering whether you should go backstage and cheer on your boyfriend or wait for him to come back to drive you back to the high end hotel his latest album had paid for.

A chill crawls at your skin as a thought crosses your mind, if you didn't go to support your boyfriend, would he find someone else like he said he would.

You hoped you knew him enough to call his bluff. But you didn't. This thought brought you to your feet and made you scurry to the concerts backstage area. The flashing lights illuminating your boyfriend's face as he performed one of his top hits.

Gathering the attention of all his fans, you noticed a glimpse in his eye, a sparkle. Something he'd never shown you, not for a long time anyway.

—----

Loud music blasts from your living room, the cause was of course your boyfriend celebrating his latest music success. The publishing of his new album. An album that was so greatly received by the public that Yoongi felt the need to celebrate. But he could always find something to celebrate if it meant getting his fix.

From your place in your shared bedroom you heard the voices that could only be your boyfriend, his slurring evidence enough that the white powder he spent so much of his hard earned money on.

You never liked that he did that to himself, but every time you brought it up with him he would always tell you that you were a bad girlfriend because he needed to relieve his stress somehow and your whining only ever made him more so.

So you let him, hiding in your shared bedroom whenever his drugged up friends came over. Always hoping your boyfriend was careful. You didn't want to lose him.

He came to bed high that night, just like every night after a successful comeback. His eyes glistening with a hazy joy as he mumbles to himself.

When he lowered his head onto the pillow, he made eye contact with you. “You should really join us sometime, get that stick out of your arse.” and with that, before you could respond Yoongi fell into a deep sleep.

But you weren't done.

Scorned by his words, you found yourself unable to control your own hand as it hit the sleeping man's cheek.

“Get out.” you didn't need to say anything else

He slept in the guest room that night.

____

“I really love you.” Yoongi hums as he lays kisses into your neck.

His hands lazily traced the skin of your arms.

“When will you be back today?” You ask shyly. Trying to clasp his hands in yours.

“Probably 10 or 11.”

“Really,” You aks excitedly, that would be very early for your boyfriend to get home from one of his little congratulatory parties.

“Promise,” Yoongi kisses your head tenderly and then he leaves.

So you waited, and waited but he didn’t come home until you were fast asleep.

_______

This was the last straw for you. You were tired, so, so tired. You were so naive when Min Yoongi had stolen your heart. But his love? His poisonous idea of love showed you what he was really like and it only proved you wrong.

He didn't love you more than his drink or drugs or even his old chevy.

At the end of the day you were just a loser who tried to change the man you loved but failed.

Min Yoongi, the love of your life was unfixable.

So you had to leave.

You packed a bag and left the next time you knew he'd be out, surrounded by other women. Women who were not you and would never be you.

The love of your life has been living so far away this whole time but you loved him so much you became blind to the facts.

Min Yoongi always lived in the shades of cool.

But he lived there without you.

blogging about him isn’t enough i need to put a picture of him in a heart-shaped locket