Ayaisokay - The Girl That Doesn't Exist

If only readers knew how absurd and expansive some of our worlds are. Sometimes I have to remind myself 99% of what I'm making notes about will never be directly mentioned in the stories I'm planning.

The devastating difference between how much time it takes to write something vs how fast people read it lol

Trans MMR

maybe someday ill be a diamond trans or smth like that lul

TF you mean accidentally? How does that happen 😭

Shit uh, accidentally ended up coming out to my mom 👍

Things are going well

I'm having PTSD flashbacks of Grindr. All the cute people my age are between 80 and 270 km away. In the meanwhile, there's a 38 year old 1 km away that wants to touch me 😭

I think this all just highlights a bigger issue within our community. For all our "love" and "inclusivity," we exclude men and hate, or rather, have a bias against masculinity.

At least in the online queer space, it feels like fem presenting individuals are the only one's that receive credit for just being themselves. Even I'm guilty of being slightly disappointed when a guy (trans or not) happens to be especially masculine— but that's because I find feminity pretty and enjoyable.

Men have done terrible things; but, Women and NBs have done terrible things. When we actively supress or discourage masculine self expression, or push guys away (because they're not trying to be your pretty pink boyprincess) , we contradict the supposed inclusive nature of this community.

We can't, as a community, say that we love everyone and want inclusivity, while he disregard our own problems and exclude people that don't express themselves how WE want them to.

Trans men didn't sign up for exclusion when they transitioned. They signed for being themselves. Or, now that it suits you, is being trans suddenly a choice? That would make this shitty take a lot better for you, wouldn't it?

If the LGBTQIA+ community can't treat masculine identifying individuals with the same care and consideration we afford fem identifying people, it needs to drop the whole "gender roles" and "gender stereotypes bad" thing, because it starts to sound contradictory.

I hate that we're supposed to be a community that celebrates individuality but we've normalised condeming straight white cis guys. We place femininity and androgyny on a pedestal while expressing indifference or outright distaste for masculinity.

I hate that we're such a mess because one day a TURF or far right figure head with more than 2 brain cells will find an audience, and when they do, they're going to point at these real problems— none of the manufactured bullshit. This "community" will fall apart in seconds.

You know why tomboys have an easy time in right leaning places? Misogyny. They're aligning closer with masculinity and are thus less womanly. Why do femboys have an easy time in our community? It seems like misandry. We're just a reflection of what we supposedly despise.

tried to vent in a trans space about how, as a trans man who’s been on T for a long time (over 7 years now), i have noticed that the more i pass as a man, the less welcomed i am in queer spaces unless i go out of my way to feminize myself. and how that sucks! and it’s isolating!!! and it feels horrible to see ppl who used to like you and be close to you drift further and further the more masculine (& therefore more comfortable in urself) u become…

only to get ppl replying to me and saying “well if you dressed more fem then ppl wouldn’t be intimidated by you. you signed up for this”

i’m sorry but i didnt sign up for social isolation when i transitioned, i signed up for gender euphoria and comfort in myself and my life. and i had hoped that the ppl in my life would be able to see how much joy that brings me and continue to love me.