I Get The Impression You Shouldn't Exist

I get the impression you shouldn't exist

Trans MMR

maybe someday ill be a diamond trans or smth like that lul

I'm in the middle. Jirai shouldn't be about embracing or celebrating self destruction. But that doesn't mean we should shun or neglect people that possess such darkness.

Jirai is about realising the beauty in darkness and learning to love yourself in spite of your flaws.

Don't explore an aesthetic and movement oriented around instability and false smiles pretending it's supposed to be happy and sweet and at all times.

Should I leave? I’m pro recovery and I don’t care or mind fashion onlys but don’t try to twist and turn the meaning to fit how you want it. While pushing away the originators of it into a corner.

I get so goddamn sick and tired of this. This is the one subculture where I get to fully express my emotions without being shamed as being “a downer” and “ruining the fashion”. If the meaning and story of jirai bother you so much, don’t claim it. Just be fucking dark girly.

Who transed my gender?

(young me versus adult me)

The doxxing and death threats we get in gaming are gonna be wild when AGI drop

I think this all just highlights a bigger issue within our community. For all our "love" and "inclusivity," we exclude men and hate, or rather, have a bias against masculinity.

At least in the online queer space, it feels like fem presenting individuals are the only one's that receive credit for just being themselves. Even I'm guilty of being slightly disappointed when a guy (trans or not) happens to be especially masculine— but that's because I find feminity pretty and enjoyable.

Men have done terrible things; but, Women and NBs have done terrible things. When we actively supress or discourage masculine self expression, or push guys away (because they're not trying to be your pretty pink boyprincess) , we contradict the supposed inclusive nature of this community.

We can't, as a community, say that we love everyone and want inclusivity, while he disregard our own problems and exclude people that don't express themselves how WE want them to.

Trans men didn't sign up for exclusion when they transitioned. They signed for being themselves. Or, now that it suits you, is being trans suddenly a choice? That would make this shitty take a lot better for you, wouldn't it?

If the LGBTQIA+ community can't treat masculine identifying individuals with the same care and consideration we afford fem identifying people, it needs to drop the whole "gender roles" and "gender stereotypes bad" thing, because it starts to sound contradictory.

I hate that we're supposed to be a community that celebrates individuality but we've normalised condeming straight white cis guys. We place femininity and androgyny on a pedestal while expressing indifference or outright distaste for masculinity.

I hate that we're such a mess because one day a TURF or far right figure head with more than 2 brain cells will find an audience, and when they do, they're going to point at these real problems— none of the manufactured bullshit. This "community" will fall apart in seconds.

You know why tomboys have an easy time in right leaning places? Misogyny. They're aligning closer with masculinity and are thus less womanly. Why do femboys have an easy time in our community? It seems like misandry. We're just a reflection of what we supposedly despise.

tried to vent in a trans space about how, as a trans man who’s been on T for a long time (over 7 years now), i have noticed that the more i pass as a man, the less welcomed i am in queer spaces unless i go out of my way to feminize myself. and how that sucks! and it’s isolating!!! and it feels horrible to see ppl who used to like you and be close to you drift further and further the more masculine (& therefore more comfortable in urself) u become…

only to get ppl replying to me and saying “well if you dressed more fem then ppl wouldn’t be intimidated by you. you signed up for this”

i’m sorry but i didnt sign up for social isolation when i transitioned, i signed up for gender euphoria and comfort in myself and my life. and i had hoped that the ppl in my life would be able to see how much joy that brings me and continue to love me.