Tuesday, 13th Of August / Mardi 13 Aot

Tuesday, 13th of August / Mardi 13 août

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Café "Debotte", in Nantes, France.

Sleep / Sommeil : 1am to 11:30am

I'm proud for sleeping before 2am, but I got out of bed late even though I was supposed to wake up at 9:30am.

I was so tired, I guess the day before had made me really tired so I couldn't help but push back my alarm clock 😭.

Health / Santé : Ate alright; not excessively,

(which I can feel proud of, because I do tend to eat too much or snack excessively when I stay at home too much , so I'm fighting against that, and lately it's been nice.)

Today I walked 6500 steps. That's an alright dose of activity (for me).

Study / Études : 20 minutes of revision only. And 20 minutes of reading my book "kilomètre zéro". (It's a French book)

Since I got up at almost 12 today and got out with friends, I had almost no time to work.

And my family always interrupts me so it's hard to study when they're around.

And when I got home after going out, I was tired and my mind could not work, so I forced myself to read two chapters of my book at least.

My day / Ma journée :

Woke up late. Did a few things. Managed to revise for 20 minutes before going out to meet some friends.

For the first time, I got to a café, and it was with 2 bff's on top of that. (It was in my summer to do list so I can cross that) (੭˃ᴗ˂)੭

And we ate some pâtisseries with coffee and hot chocolate.

I ate a "fraisier" with " du chocolat chaud à la chantilly"

The café was empty when we entered so it was just us, and we ate and talked a lot. Since it was just us, we were so comfortable, and the workers were lovely.

Our other friends are traveling so it was just us 3 from the friend group today. (Funny thing, the 2 friends I got out with today both have the same name) ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Then it's already 5pm, we spent an hour talking in the cafe and one of the friend has to go.

So we escorted her and got to the "Fnac" (dunno if y'all know this store, it sells electronic devices and all types of books, it's well-known in France).

We took a tour of the store, just looking around while talking. (Friends really make life experiences a hundred times better ♡♡♡)

Then she also has to go, so I also go, I look around a bookstore that resells books. There was one I'm looking for called "Beach Read", I wanted to buy a used one for cheap but didn't find it. (I could read it in French because I live in France and the book has been translated, but I sometimes like to buy books in English so my English level doesn't decrease. And I'm glad I can buy english books in France, and they also happen to cost less than the french version, which is nice.)

Anyway, I decided to command it in a library, it should be available in less than a week.

Then, I buy some cookies for my hungry brother at home.

And on the way home, I buy myself a bubble tea and a poke bowl.

Wasn't really hungry, so that was my dinner.

When I got home I was just so tired. I wanted to sleep immediately, but it was 8pm, too early.

I preferred to wait until a more adequate sleeping time so I wouldn't wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to go back to sleep for multiple hours. 😔

Anyway, I kept myself busy, read, journaled, right now it's 11:30pm and I will now sleep immediately.

My goal for tomorrow is to wake up at 9am.

(Sleep is my worst flaw right now, and it's the hardest thing for me to improve on, waking up at 9 may seem like nothing for most people, but as ridiculous as it may sound, it's a real challenge for me. And I CAN wake up early if something obligates me, like school or other social reasons. But if it's for myself, it's almost impossible.)

Anyway. I will now sleep and wish for the better.

À plus les chouchous, on se voit demain <3.

By the way, I thought about that only know, but I know right now there are lots of tourists in France because of the Olympic games, and it's even been a few weeks that I hear multiple languages when I go out, like Italian and English, which doesn't happen usually.

Nantes, the city where I live is also part of the 10 most populated cities in France, it's not far from Paris and situated in the West, so it makes sense that people also come to Nantes.

So I was just thinking about that, if some of you are in Nantes right now let me know, I could give out multiple places to visit and lots of things to do. Nantes is an incredible city, there is so much to do.

So let me know. And have an excellent time in France and its beautiful cities. <33

Wednesday, 7th of August / Mercredi 7 août

Pretty normal day.

I managed to use my phone only a little, apart from a few vlogs which were pretty chill.

During the day I also got to the "Action" store with 2 of my sisters.

The store is not far and requires to walk a bit, so I liked having to walk under the sun since I tend to stay at home when I can. The trees and the light breeze made the walk feel peaceful and that's exactly what I look for in my daily life.

It's almost like rediscovering life.

So, the short trip was pretty fun, we arrived, I bought the few toys and sweets my sisters wanted, and for myself I found a very cute set of stamps ans ink pads. The best thing is that they're cheap and good at the same. Now I can make journaling more fun by adding fun illustrations.

(I don't know if this store exists outside of France but "Action" is like a store that sells lots of small things for a low price)

Then, during to way home we took a detour to an asian store to buy some noodles, I bought those that are popular, y'know the buldak ones. I recommend them, they're tasty.

I bought 3 that I had never tasted to see how they are, I'll probably review them after.

And then I got home and ate lots of sweets (because my period is messing with me).

Then time passed and I just got to bed.

I didn't have time to revise my exam for the driving licence, I should fix this and make time for it through the day.

So well, it seems that even though I plan to use the summer break month left to improve, I will need to make more serious efforts to accomplish my goals.

Bon, à plus !

I miss you my dear (it's been two weeks)

Monday, 5th of August / Lundi 5 août

I am really proud of myself today because I managed to wake up at 6. (I usually wake up at 12)

It's crazy how sleeping early can make your mind clear; when I sleep late and a lot, I don't feel this good, but when I sleep early and not so much, it's alright and even better than the previous. By that, I mean that I feel more rested and have a clearer mind.

Anyway, I woke up early and worked for a few hours before going back to sleep (since I'm not used to waking up early I needed to sleep more).

So I woke up at 12 from my nap, read, wrote, bathed, did some chores, and then I finally made my famous oreo tiramisu, (if you want the recipe ask me, it's literally so damn easy)

Then I kept on catching up on my diary because I had a lot to write. I also watched half a movie ( called Tenet).

So y'know, it was a normal day, but since usually I just lay around the house, I am pretty proud of myself for being this productive; usually I have a really hard time cooking and doing chores because I am not really action-oriented, but improvement comes slowly.

It's a small but nice win :)

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( I wanna add just one last thing, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one like this, who has such a hard time doing things that requires you to use your physical energy, like chores, even bathing can require so much effort or pressure from me sometimes, like, I can perfectly use my brain all day and be alright, but as soon as I have to move, it feels like it's sooo hard.)

Anyway, c'est tout pour aujourd'hui, je vais aller me coucher tout de suite pour me réveiller tôt demain.

Bonne nuit ♡

Thursday 8th of August / Jeudi 8 août

I will try to describe my day in a more organized manner

Work/Focus: I focused for an hour today, did some sudokus, my focus isn't that bad, and the more I do sudokus, the better I become at it.

Since at the start of summer, I tried to slowly stop my scrolling consumption, I definitely did get better, mentally, physically, cognitively.

I literally feel like I got freed of my addiction to scrolling and short-form content, like I got back my control over myself and what I do and Im definitely happier like that.

Obviously, it's not perfect but the fact that I don't have urge to scroll anymore, the fact that I gained back my clarity of mind, the fact that I can focus half an hour without needing to be distracted or needing a shot of dopamine says a lot about how I improved just by cutting back from this destructive habit.

So I'm happier and proud because I actually did improve on my worst point.

(Because of this addiction I even failed this year's exams for my degree at uni, just so you know bad it was)

Health: ate pretty healthy, (apart from the burger and fries at 11pm), also walked a lot outside before and after that, 5000 steps

Main event: Tried to work on myself by doing actual work as said previously.

Then I visited some cousins with my family, I played Minecraft, it recalled me my childhood, I want to play that game again now.

Then, with my brother and the 2 cousins my age, we got outside at night, it was 11pm and we decided some fast-food would be good.

It was a short fun trip at night (it was so fun, I now have a good memory for life).

So we go out, it's dark, 11pm, we drive to a fast-food, buy burgers and fries and enjoy the meal over some talking. It was delicious.

Then we drove a bit more around the place where they live with loud music in the car.

And when we got home it was late.

My mother was waiting for me and my brother to come back so we could go home, we had to go by foot since we didn't have a car that would fit all my family.

It was a short walk; 15 minutes at most, they don't live far from us, it's one small neighborhood away and it's pretty safe (I live in a nice place in France so it's alright)

So we go home then, my small siblings are singing random things during the whole walk.

There's literally no one else around so we can run around, race, take poses on the road to take picture. We were just enjoying.

When we finally get home, it's 1 am.

It couldn't be more true.

August is always the best month of the year personally, in terms of growth, improvement and getting your life back together.

A month of fun and freedom.

The perfect time to have a fresh start and remember that there is so much to life ♡

there's something about august that makes you want to stop time