It Couldn't Be More True.

It couldn't be more true.

August is always the best month of the year personally, in terms of growth, improvement and getting your life back together.

A month of fun and freedom.

The perfect time to have a fresh start and remember that there is so much to life ♡

there's something about august that makes you want to stop time

I miss you my dear (it's been two weeks)

Do you have a problem you can tell to no one irl because you fear their judgement?

I do.

(And it kinda makes me crazy because I do need advice and emotional support

...but I'm just keeping it to myself for the moment to try and wait it out)

But truly, it IS a lonely feeling.

To be surrounded but to have no one to go to.

But sometimes,

It can also be because of your own sense of insecurity

That you don't talk to them

Or out of shamefulness

Because you know you are the source of the problem.

Saturday, 3rd of August / Samedi 3 août 2024

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I think today is going to be an alright day.

I just need to disconnect from my phone and move myself.

Less than a month left until school starts again, I want to improve myself before that and gain more happy memories and experiences.

Monday, 5th of August / Lundi 5 août

I am really proud of myself today because I managed to wake up at 6. (I usually wake up at 12)

It's crazy how sleeping early can make your mind clear; when I sleep late and a lot, I don't feel this good, but when I sleep early and not so much, it's alright and even better than the previous. By that, I mean that I feel more rested and have a clearer mind.

Anyway, I woke up early and worked for a few hours before going back to sleep (since I'm not used to waking up early I needed to sleep more).

So I woke up at 12 from my nap, read, wrote, bathed, did some chores, and then I finally made my famous oreo tiramisu, (if you want the recipe ask me, it's literally so damn easy)

Then I kept on catching up on my diary because I had a lot to write. I also watched half a movie ( called Tenet).

So y'know, it was a normal day, but since usually I just lay around the house, I am pretty proud of myself for being this productive; usually I have a really hard time cooking and doing chores because I am not really action-oriented, but improvement comes slowly.

It's a small but nice win :)

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( I wanna add just one last thing, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one like this, who has such a hard time doing things that requires you to use your physical energy, like chores, even bathing can require so much effort or pressure from me sometimes, like, I can perfectly use my brain all day and be alright, but as soon as I have to move, it feels like it's sooo hard.)

Anyway, c'est tout pour aujourd'hui, je vais aller me coucher tout de suite pour me réveiller tôt demain.

Bonne nuit ♡

Friday, 16th of August / Vendredi 16 août

Those last few days I have posted nothing and it's normal.

I was just taking some time for myself, trying to disconnect from my phone and taking care of myself.

I just so happened to suddenly relapse in all of my bad habits and was not doing well mentally, but today it's alright.

I still have hope that my efforts weren't wasted by one very bad day. I will keep going and trying my best.

Let's not give up.

(I will take my time and not force myself to post, I just need a break from my phone to focus on the real life things that are important to me. Will probably update soon)

Anyway, stay well y'all. I hope that on your growth journey, you will not let yourself be beat down by one bad day or event.

Keep going, efforts build up, they are never wasted.

And let's have hope in the future.

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