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HMO: Bruce Wayne smoked.
After his parent’s deaths, he snuck cigarettes behind Alfred’s back. Sure he got yelled at a lot because of it but it felt too good to quit. He only smoked when he got his hands on some (which was rare) but then boom. High School. Smoking sessions with Harvey? Oh definitely. After training and becoming Batman, he did it less but still occasionally smoked with Harvey.
However, Dick came around and he cut back out of shame. Anytime he smoked it would be alone and he’d immediately shower and brush his teeth so Dick wouldn’t know. Bruce would’ve quit if it wasn’t for the temptation.
But then, Jason comes along. The first time Bruce smoked when he had Jason, he obviously did his routine but Jason somehow sensed it. Smelt it maybe. He found his cigarettes and smoked them and Bruce wanted to die when he realized that it was either brief release but have his new kid slowly killing himself too or stopping entirely.
He quit, but after Jason’s death it was a total relapse and he began smoking again. When Tim came around he decided to quit then too because he knew that Tim knew. He didn’t want another smoker Robin. He didn’t want to have Tim grow into smoking.
Later on, Dick tells him that he always knew but felt like it wasn’t his business to say anything. It sort of broke Bruce’s heart knowing Dick didn’t feel comfortable enough to say anything. This started the thing where if Bruce does something stupid, Dick HAD to tell him.
Being a big sibling is TERRIFYING
constant intrusive thoughts of "are they okay? so they know they're not alone? have I hurt them? "
you never know if you're really doing things right. are they okay, or are they just hiding all of the same thoughts and hurts that you do? and you know they are
Let's Talk Fanfiction:
I just like found this slightly cryptic and intriguing fanfic, like the plot is good and the vocabulary used is like total C1-C2 English level. But then again there are some weird mistakes considering the level of the vocabulary and stuff, like some basic grammar mistakes, and sentences with words in the wrong order. So I read it anyway and it's confusing af bc it's kinda hard to read. Just wondering how that even exists like usually there are fics with great grammar and a boring plot, the occasional fic with great grammar and great plot and of course fics with an amazing plot but the grammar is so bad that you seriously can't read it.
Sometimes i imagine myself being a locoroco and I’m getting afraid of Mojas.
Like, imagine it: you’re a spherical creature who lives on a happy colourful planet, and suddenly you see a meteorite which infected your once safe world with black monsters with sharp teeth who hunts your kind, eating your friends alive. It becomes dangerous to go out of your house, so the only way to exist is getting bigger and being ready to fight with different Mojas, including terrifying large ones. Then you found out there are two leaders of them, especially the dark gorgeous woman who is a Moja as well. And then she decided to destroy your planet so these flying bunch of teethy hair could live on it.
I think that’s terrifying.
The night sky was exceptionally clear and crisp that even the stars themselves seemed to shine brighter than normal against the dark canvas of the sky.
I think I might be hitting on a low key writers block because this simple sentence took me about five minutes to write. Normally, I get pretty excited and roaring to write but I’m sorta flip flopping and eso no es bueno.
Pet peeve:
What's up with creators/writers setting up their young characters to marrying a very obvious choice?? For instance with Harry Potter and how the main characters got paired up - like, them being married came up to no surprise. The same goes with Naruto - NaruHina or SasSaku. Why couldn't it be someone random or surprising?? That would honestly been a TA-DA moment I would back up.
So this is the epigraph to my Naruto FF and I feel this piece foreshadows what will take place within my story in more ways than one and I LOVE IT. It’s so perfect and just, wow, The Moon and Sun also plays a role or it’s just another way to express the two characters I’ll be focusing on.
"One evening an old Cherokee Indian told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, 'My son, the battle is between two 'wolves' inside us all.One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity,guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.The other is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.'The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: 'Which wolf wins?' The old Cherokee simply replied, 'The one you feed.'"- Two Wolves
When I first started writing, I was happy and in my own little world until I took in a then-popular subject and oh boy.... talk about writing and not enjoying it because I felt I was never enough. Fast forward to the present and I write because I enjoy it. Getting recognized in one form or another is the cherry on the top, but no longer the necessary fuel it once was.
Thoughts from an inadequate fanfiction author
I just read a Reddit post about feelings of inadequacy and jealousy in relation to other’s writing, that clawing in your stomach when you read something that is so gripping, so incredibly paced, or simply so wildly popular (dripping with kudos, comments, what have you) that you just want to quit, because you can’t write like that, you will never be as talented, as popular, etc, etc.
It’s such a ugly emotion that I hate to even admit to it, but I just feel like so many writers need to hear this and need to know they are not alone when they’re overcome with this feeling.
The thing that has really helped me is remembering that I’m the only person on earth who can tell the stories I tell.
Every person has a unique history and background that makes them uniquely capable of creating what they do.
I try to equate it to music. There are indie artists whose music I adore (Bright Eyes is a band that specifically comes to mind). What if your favorite band listened to Mozart or Beyoncé and thought, I will never be as talented at composing as Mozart or as famous as Beyonce, and therefore, I will never write another song.
How sad would you be, how bereft, if the artists you love gave up because they weren’t “the best?”
You are that perfect writer, not to everyone, but to someone.
That means something. It is so difficult to remember, but it all comes back to self-esteem. You are worthwhile and your writing is worthwhile NOT because it’s the best, but because there’s only one person in the world who could write it, and there is someone out there who needs to read it. Maybe you can make someone smile or feel or laugh, and what an incredible gift that is, one you shouldn’t hide.
So I urge you not to dim your shine for any reason. Keep going, find your audience, get better, KEEP AT IT. The worst thing you can do is give up, because that’s the only sure way you will never be that kind of amazing writer you wish to emulate.
If you’re curious, I wrote in college, then took a 10 year break due to feelings of inadequacy after having writer’s block and receiving a lukewarm response to some chapters I posted. I decided 2020 was my year and have written 42 works (some short stories, some long ones) since January. I swore to myself that I wouldn’t let anything stop me from enjoying my hobby again, and that’s why I want to encourage myself and others to feed their passions. 
When writing fanfiction, the biggest rule is this:
Never Compare Your Story or Writing to Someone Else’s, Especially if The Other Person’s Story is Popular Either in Reviews or Attention.
THAT is a buzz killer. Write because you ENJOY it, write because YOU have a story to tell. Do it for YOURSELF.
This has been a self-pep talk 🥰
Well it turns out that as I was writing the beginning and still clueless on what scene to pick, a new scene was born on the spot lmao. Safe to say, this one feels more natural and decided this is the one I'll be writing.
So I have this perfect beginning to a scene and I'm ready to write it BUT I keep switching up what happens afterwards - like the meatier part of the scene/interaction. Like two, maybe three sutuations but I can't decide in either of them?? So I have the option of it being serious or silly and whether it deals directly with the character or with a friend?? UFFFFFFFFFF
I feel like writing drabbles about Sasuke pre-massacre. No main story, just scenarios/slice of life. Leaning more towards a friendships with an OC maybe. Might use a prompt list to better help my inspiration thoug?
It feels kinda "odd" to realize the majority of the cast in AoT are European with the exception of Mikasa who's half-asian. Like, if they were to actually exist in physical form, they'd all be white and probably not speak Japanese. I'm just used to seeing and knowing that most of the anime characters I've seen are Japanese and will look as such. This is kinda fresh.
Just a random musing!
On the process of doing an art commission for Inure, my AOT fanfic, I’ve realized that my OC is a POC. Normally, I’ve alway written white-centric OCs. But with Isadora, I specifically wanted her NOT TO be white. Maybe because most of the cast are white (pre Marley), so I went with an OC who’s of Mexican descendant.
I--I think I'm going to low-key create a love triangle between Eren, Isadora and Reiner for my story Inure
Buuuuut
It's not going to be a typical one because of course I'm going to make it complicated and difficult for everyone involved 🥴
Here's my own headcannon. Major Spoilers Ahead!!
Estella is secretly afraid of fire after the Baroness set her home aflame and sometimes she'll have nightmares/night terrors though she would never admit it to anyone besides maybe Jasper, who will sit with her until she calms down, singing her favourite songs to her.
Fireplaces are fine as long as she is at a safe distance.
The others eventually find out and no one shames her for being scared of something.
I’ve had the same icon since I’ve madethis blog, I wonder if I should change it
Looking up hlavrai art for some reason Also gets you breaking bad art....why?
Invader zim it's so late 90s & Early 2000s Coded And Gravity Falls It's so late 70s and early 80s coded