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Food Log: Sep. 11, 2024
Breakfast:
Lemon water (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Two pepperoni hot pockets (638cals)
Total: 638cal
Dinner:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Snack:
Celsius energy drink (7cals)
Total: 7cals
Exercise:
3,267 steps (94cal)
Total burned: 94cals
Todays total: 551 cals
Notes:
I didn’t go to school this day bc I was severely sleep deprived but I got some laundry in so that’s nice. I’m really glad I can count my steps again. I made an entire daily necessities and routine for a balance of school n overall daily routine. I’m excited for the restart week :)
Food Log: Sep. 12, 2024
Breakfast:
Celsius energy drink (10cal)
Total: 10cal
Lunch:
Chicken & bacon salad (357cal)
Total: 357cals
Dinner:
Asada quesadilla (393cal)
Total: 393cals
Snack:
Celsius energy drink (7cal)
Green tea mochi (100cal)
Total: 107cals
Exercise:
3,551 steps (117cal)
Total burned: 117cal
Todays total: 750 cals
Note:
I love Celsius so much it’s the only energy drink that doesn’t give me anxiety while still giving me good energy n it’s low in cal. This is A NEEEEED if ur a full time college student with anxiety n sleeping problems, I highly recommend.Today was nice I love spending time with my friend (literally only have one college friend) and I found a nice spot to study at if I want to study in nature 🥳
School motivation 📚
Food Log: Sep. 16, 2024
Breakfast:
Celsius energy drink (10cal)
Total: 10cals
Lunch:
Ground turkey/broccoli pasta, a cup (379cal)
Total: 379cals
Dinner:
None (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Exercise:
3,108 steps (103cal)
Total burned: 103cal
Todays total: 286 cals
Notes:
I was going to do a liquid fast but I got way too weak and decided to eat. Ate really low tho thankfully.
Food Log:
Breakfast:
Lemon water (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Celsius energy drink (7cal)
Total: 7cal
Dinner:
Ham and cheese hot pocket (269cal)
Cornish hen (220cal)
2 tbsp, ketchup (40cal)
Total: 529cals
Todays total: 536 cals
Notes:
I forgot to take a pic of the lemon water. I’m gonna stop drinking Celsius bc apparently I thought it was the only energy drink that doesn’t give me anxiety but it’s the only energy drink that’s 200mg of fucking caffeine. I also had a rlly bad dpr episode today during school so I’ll stop drinking energy drinks n go back to coffee n tea juST IN CASEEE it may be influencing my dpr episodes (enhancing it) a whole ass mini chicken is lower in cals compared to a goddamn cup of noodles hell yeah
People treat you so much more differently when you’re perfect. Girls like me don’t get that shit, pudgy and masculine features. I don’t fit any Eurocentric beauty standards, I don’t even fit my own culture’s beauty standards. I’ve got a pig nose, a fat fucking face, fat arms, a belly, I’m built like a fucking gorilla. I lose control over food and pig out.
No matter what I wear not matter how I do my hair no matter how much makeup I put on it’s not enough. It’s lipstick on a fucking pig. I wanna recover so I can eat but I’d end up going to the gym and only feel good about myself as long as I’m going to the gym. I wanna be perfect.