I Wasnt Always This Bad. I Was Made This Way By Everyone Whose Ever Entered My Life And Ruined It. Destroyed

I wasn’t always this bad. I was made this way by everyone whose ever entered my life and ruined it. Destroyed me before abandoning me. I was nicer then, at least to others. At worst not the biggest fan of myself but nice and caring and supportive to those I loved and cared about. But it was never enough. My caring was called a toxic trait. Me complaining about the abuse made me an asshole. I was treated like a monster and I couldn’t do anything about it. So I became the monster they said I was. Became the toxic asshole they wanted me to be. If being nice and caring about someone is going to get such a negative response, then I may as well at least give them a valid reason for treating me like shit. Become the villain they wanted me to be. All of them, they ruined me. It’s their fault I’m like this now...

Tell them I was the warmest place you knew and you turned me cold.

Well my last ex replaced me with someone irl. My current best friend is replacing me with a potential new relationship. And a ton of other stories that all end the same way. So yeah, being connected with people online only isn’t doing me any good and I wish I had at least one person irl to talk to and be with. All the cool people I know are online and you can’t compete with the lucky people that know them for real.

Have you ever met someone on the internet that you liked so much that you sometimes sit there and think “Oh man there are people who are lucky enough to see this person IN THE FLESH ON A REGULAR BASIS and I wonder if they realize how LUCKY they are”

And I’m the easiest one to forget and abandon...

After a while, people forget you. They forget whatever you were to them at one point in time.

I can actually add something to this. A little while back I did the glitch to get through the gate outside Iosefka’s clinic early using the very first wolf that’s supposed to kill you. It lets you enter the forbidden woods early and sequence break but I also used it to explore. See real Iosefka behind the door. And I also went to the other side of the big door before killing Vicar Amelia. There were no NPC’s back there and no one to “talk” to. No interaction points. I forget but I don’t think you could even get the madman’s knowledge and the already dead flavor text from the skeleton. I want to try the glitch again soon and make a backup of that point to mess around with because it was hard to pull off. Maybe I’ll record a few things and post it here.

So ur in cathedral ward and u find a gate. U knock on it n the voice is "the paaassword..." U tell n when it opens skeleton's flavor text say "already ded". THEN WHO WAS GATE?

I don’t.

i deserve a kiss

Impossible.

imagine someone actually wanting you as much as you want them