This Is Sooo Fucking Good!!!!!

This is sooo fucking good!!!!!

Small things, big issues.

⇢ taehyung x vampire!reader

⇢ angst, fluff, smut.

⇢ word count: 11.5k

⇢ summary: who knew a boy who sometimes crochets his own cardigans and has a pout that challenges you everytime it appears would make your slow heart pick up every time he's around? Would make you go out when you feel sick just to protect him from any threats? But who knew that potential threat could be you? even if it was in the name of love. Words get shared and pain occurs because Isn't it crazy how small things can hurt us when it comes from the ones we love? 

⇢ warnings: 18+ the vampires i have created in my head are a bit different than normal ones, blood mentions, cigarettes, the reader smokes once, alcohol is mentioned, taehyung gets sexually harassed and almost assaulted (but it ends really quickly!), which brings us to: violence (y/n kicks ass for good reason!), a bit of tension between y/n and a dancer (txt yeonjun cameo moment), hyunjin of skz is mentioned for like a second lol, i give you the plot to the movie they watch because why not, (it’s not  a real movie so don't worry about spoilers!), slight jealous!taehyung, sub!taehyung, dom!reader, readers spit has a bit of an affect but its not serious, oral(m receiving), handjob, and they're really cute, that's it i think!

Here's a fun little fic I wanted to write and it all started from hearing a song that made me think of a casino and a woman who happens to be a vampire but in a suit walking round only to play a silly game with her friends hehe. I hope you enjoy this! I did enjoy writing it but I admit it may be lacking but nonetheless I hope you enjoy reading it! I'll start writing "human" soon but i just have so many one shot ideas ahh but anywho as always thank you for reading! ♡⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝♡ reblogs and feedback are always greatly appreciated! <3

The smell of the buffet full of seafood fills the place as much as it did when you first arrived. The sounds of racketing levers being pulled as people hope for a win. While the sounds of bells and an occasional whistle from the slot machines ring loudly followed by a curse or cheer. The lights hang high and bright, especially where the majority are playing poker.

The room you're in is private with lights that are a bit dim. The black walls add to the tense atmosphere of the game. Poker is popular but you and your bunch aren't playing that though. You just simply aren't interested but there is a game you've played since childhood that you enjoy. 

It's a card game that doesn't usually deal with betting nor is it a game many play in here. You can't knock them because it's not a serious game but then again they can knock you, especially when you almost always win. You feel all eyes on you as you put down a card. “Ace.” you say and wait for any objections. You know they like the thrill of playing with you but they also hate playing with you because they don't know. They can’t ever figure you out and they can't tell if you're lying.

You see namjoon look at the card you just placed down and back up at you. You quirk an eyebrow and he decides to smirk thinking he got you. Silly boy, namjoon is good but that's only if he plays with others not you guys. “Bullshit.” he says as if it a matter of fact. You smirk, you lean up and flip the card and there it is, the ace card shining just like the fangs that poke out of your mouth. “I win.” you say leaning back and namjoon groans letting his head hit the table with a thud. 

You laugh at all of the groans in the room. “Oh come on don’t be sore losers.” you tease. “Tonight I swore it was gonna be someone else’s night that's why we all put a good bit of money in.” Jungkook whined. You gasp in faux hurt “you were plotting on me or were you just doubting me?” hoseok laughs, shaking his head. “both or maybe neither, maybe we just had hope today.” you nod at his words happy that despite you guys playing this every other Saturday it hasn't gotten boring for any of you.

“Anyways, run me my money hehe.” you say looking at all of them and Jungkook pushes the money down to your end of the table. You grab it and count $400 and then $20. “Now who put in $20?” you say looking at them all. Yoongi shrugs “I could say it's because I'm broke or because I played it smart, which one makes me sound more appealing?” he says, taking a sip of his whiskey. You laugh at that. “neither.” you say as you slip the money in your bra. “So what's joon’s punishment this time?'' Hoseok asks no one in particular as he cleans up the cards.

You think about it but Jimin thinks faster it seems. “Tomorrow in broad daylight he has to run with a bra on and underwear with a sign that says ‘vampie have my babies’.” you are about to ask him where but he reveals it “around Y/ns place.” at that Namjoon lifts his head. 

“No way plus sunlight hurts me. I can't.” he says, shaking his head. “It doesn't work exactly like that plus joon you're not a vampire.” Yoongi says endeared at the younger. Namjoon glares “still, no way.” he repeats. “Why not joonie?” Jimin asks innocently but we all know he's anything but that. Jimin is sly and this is no different than his usual self. Whether it be because he's a vampire or if it is because he is simply just that way.

”You know why.” Namjoon says in disbelief. See the thing is many creatures mix with each other whether that be in relationships, schools, or neighborhoods. Your neighborhood though is a bit homogenous. One it's a bit of a wealthy neighborhood but there's only two humans who live in your neighborhood and those two humans happen to live together. Also it happens to be Namjoon’s ex and her new girlfriend who also happen to live right beside you.

So you get his dilemma but you have to admit the idea is a bit funny. “Is it because of all the vampires in the neighborhood?” Jimin asks, playing dumb. Namjoon groans “no its because my ex literally lives right by Y/n but the vampires happen to just add to it because why does the sign have to say that? what if they try to make me have their babies?!” Namjoon says getting a shiver causing you to laugh at the man. 

“Joonie science has come far and times have changed but um you don't have to worry about getting pregnant love.” you say and he makes a face like he forgot about that. “So you're going to let him give me this punishment?” everyone nods and you see him look at you last “Y/n?” Namjoon looks at you pleadingly and you stand up and walk to the door “don't worry joonie, i have pretty bras.” you say with a giggle. He whines at your answer “that's not the point!” he says standing up and they all follow behind you.

“Should we let tae and jin know we've finished?” Jungkook asks. “No jin texted me earlier that they'll meet us at the club when they're done.” yoongi answers. “They went to the arcade right?” hoseok asks and yoongi hums. You smile at that, it's cute to you. Cute how you're all friends despite the differences between you all. 

They used to come with you guys but Taehyung and Jin said they don’t like violence and this casino happens to have that every now and then. You feel guilty because it feels like it's partially your fault though everyone tells you it's not. It's a mixed species casino but what mostly resides here is vampires and humans. Sometimes there's tension without drinks but often times when people get drunk anger comes out especially during a game or competition.

It happens everywhere but here it's kind of a place where if you fight the security guards will kick you out and tell you to handle that outside, they don't try to break it up. they didn't like that it happens more than it should and decided to their own things on Saturdays. Taehyung and Jin are more reserved and out of all of you you would consider them angels. 

(plus namjoon but he said “violence is bad and i don't like it but being with you guys is fun plus you'll protect me right yoongs?” that day yoongi told him to shut up but you know it made him happy to be needed, to be wanted.)

You guys walk down to the club you usually go to after playing. It's mostly a human club but they dont mind vampires coming in, it's just they don't come here much. You know they probably don't come here because they don't sell any drinks containing any blood. Animal blood or humans, so not many come here. You don't mind that much though that's not why you come here. You could get blood if you wanted to but having a night out and drinking drinks without it won't hurt.

Walking in you see the usual multi color bright lights turned red. You are shocked to see that you, Jimin, and Yoongi aren't the only vampires here. You notice a lot more than you thought. You guess you stand corrected from your earlier thoughts. “Y/n!!” you hear a familiar voice yell and then arms are around you. She shakes you side to side and you smile. “Hi Lisa, how are you?” you ask when she leans back.

“I’m okay tonight is pretty exciting though did you notice it's not just you guys?” she says looking around you follows her eyes still surprised. “Yeah why is that?” you ask. “The club wanted to broaden their drinks along with the crowd they bring in so they announced on their website and on flyers the new drinks they're trying and I guess it worked!” She says seeming happy about the situation. 

You smile that ever since you've been coming here Lisa has been nothing but the sweetest and welcoming person here. There's a reason why she is one of the most popular dancers here. “That's nice I'm glad they did that but I'm gonna go sit now. Remember if you need me to come get me okay?” you remind her. She smiles “okay okay, go have fun! I'll be safe!” you nod and walk to find where your friends are. Jimin tells the waitress to bring a bottle of crown royal’s blender’s mash and 6 glasses. You guys aren't driving tonight, jin is the DD for tonight. 

~.~

Time passes and you have had a couple drinks but you only feel slightly tipsy. Jungkook and Jimin are currently talking up some girl near the bar. Yoongi and Namjoon are talking about something only they can hear on the dance floor. Sharing smiles and laughs that you can’t hear but it still makes you smile. You decide you want something to chew on so you pull out a tooth pick, you haven't smoked in a while but sometimes the itch is there but you told him you would quit even though it literally does not harm you like it does humans. You told him you would try though so you can't back out of that. 

You see someone walking to you from the side and oh, he's pretty. He looks at you shyly and you see him stop about to back out of talking to you. You smile to yourself but you decide you won't push him, you'll let him come to you on his own. He makes it to you and he doesn't say anything at first so you look up at him from where you sit he looks away at your gaze. You let your eyes explore him, he has on the same fit you saw Lisa wearing.

A black strapless one piece, fishnets, a cute bowtie and the main piece, the black bunny ears. You suppose it's because it's the year of the bunny so it's the theme. You like this club because it lets its dancers freely dress in the outfits they want. so if the men want to wear something the women dancers do they can. It's nice and inclusive in your opinion, letting people have fun in whatever they want. 

You notice he is quite tall with nice thighs. You decide you'll speak to him first, he already did his part by approaching you and you can tell that was hard for him. “Hello bunny.” you say a teasing glint to your voice and he looks back at you. “H..hi.” he says shyly. You smile and you notice him glance to your fangs. “Would you like to sit?” you offer the spot next to you. He nods and sits beside you placing his hands in his lap. “What’s your name?” you ask looking at him. “Yeonjun.” you nod and decide to tease him a bit.

“Not curious about mine?” you ask and he panics “no that’s not it i just..i didn't..I-” you laugh and he looks up at the noise. “I'm just teasing don't worry bunny.” you reassure him. “It's y/n though if you are curious.” you tell him and he nods.

“That's a pretty name.” he says confidently. “Well thank you but I know something that's prettier.” he tilts his head not expecting what you're going to say. “What?” he asks genuinely. “You.” his eyes widen and he looks away but you still see the red that flush on his ears. “Why did you approach me?” It's your turn to be curious. “Um i'm a new dancer and lisa told me that i should meet you so i came over plus...” you wait for him to finish his sentence. “You are v..very pretty so i wanted to talk to you.” he admits and you smile.

He’s so cute you could eat him, literally. “Saying all this while looking away from me?” you taunt lightly. Your friends come back to the booth but pay you both no mind besides jimin whistling which you ignore. If only you looked you would see it's not just you guys, two others are here now. “Look at me, bun.” he turns to you slowly. 

“Want to know a random fact?” you ask and he nods. “Bunnies are prey so they should watch out for things that bite.'' He listens closely. “But you want to know another fact?” he nods and you notice he’s closer, no space between you both. You lean down to his ear. “I bite bunny, shouldn't you be more careful?” you whisper. You notice the shiver that goes down his spine.

You lean back and he's looking up at you with flushed cheeks and big eyes. “Or do you like that bunny? Things that bite?” you ask looking down at his lips. He looks at your lips and backs up at you. “Ye- '' just as yeonjun was about to answer someone clears their throat.

 “Can we go already?” you hear a deep voice say and that makes you look to the side to see that jin and taehyung have been here. A part of you feels guilty like you've been caught doing something you shouldn't  but he told you how he felt. So why should you not have fun but even then that's all this is to you, fun. He however is more than that. 

“Yes can we go because i’ve kissed like three people already and two were not a good kissers and one almost threw up on me and the one who almost threw up on me won't stop looking at me!” Jungkook says and Jin just laughs at the younger. You look up from yeonjun fully to see your two friends. It's funny how Jin and taehyung look so out of place. Both in a simple t-shirt and jeans but taehyung has a knitted cardigan to match the weather. “Who won tonight?” Jin asks and you hear Namjoon groan at the mention of the game. 

“Y/n did like usual.” You smile to yeonjun. “Just a second bunny.” you whisper to him but it must have not been quiet enough as hoseok whistled, he needs to stop hanging around jimin you think.  Yoongi watches taehyung and sees the hurt flashing his eyes at you and this dancer half way in your lap. Yoongi just sighs because there's nothing he can do. Taehyung hurt your feelings but he also knows he didn't mean to.

“I won fair and square.” you state and jin claps at your answer. He goes to say something but taehyung’s deep voice cuts him off. “Can we go already? Aren't we all supposed to spend the night at Jin's place tonight alone, you know just us?” he says the end forcefully. Everyone looks at him skeptical because of his tone but then they see where his eyes are. On you yet your eyes aren't on him, it's on the dancer. “Yeah, let's go! I say we watch a horror movie!" Jimin says a bit drunk. 

They all get up and wait for you to as well. You get up telling yeonjun you have to go to which he nods and you help him stand. You notice it's chilly and take off your blazer. You drape it around him with a smile “Have a nice night but most importantly stay safe and warm bunny.” you say the name with a wink and he smiles bashfully “I will.” you nod and hear your name being called. You rush to where they walked off too.

“Told your bunny boy bye?” Jimin mocks you. “Fuck off plus you literally have worn that same outfit before.” Jimin pushes your shoulder and you keep walking, sniggering to yourself. “I call shotgun!” you hear Jungkook say as he gets in the passenger seat. Soon you all get in the suv and head home. You're sitting by Yoongi and Jimin, coincidentally the three vampires in the far back seat where it gets less light. It makes you almost want to make a teasing comment to the others.

“How are you and taehyung?” You hear yoongi whisper to you and you look back at him as if he's grown an extra head. Taehyung is in the car and he wants to have this conversation here? “What do you mean how are we, there's no ‘we.’ it seems.” you whisper back to him. Yoongi stares at you. “You know he didn't mean it like that. He was probably just shocked that night.” he tries to reason but you don't want to hear it.

“ I don't know how the words '' I can't see myself with someone like you.” followed by “your love, it's scary.” after you confess to someone indicates he didn't mean it like that.” you say and even you hear the tone in your voice, it's not annoyance, it's hurt. “Well yeah that does sound pretty fucked but you know he wouldn't say something like that purposefully like i said he was probably shocked that night i mean we’ve seen you like that, he hasn't.'' Yoongi says looking back to the front with a complaint about him sitting in the middle. 

You think about what yoongi says and he’s right in a way but that doesn't mean what taehyung said to you didnt feel like a slap in the face. Especially because he's the one person whose opinion you care about the most and so to know he saw you for what most humans do hurt. It hurts the heart that is barely alive yet when you're with him it feels like it's brazen with life.

That night was something you don't think about often because you don't care about the couple who you almost killed. Well if you want to be technical they were vampires so they wouldn't have died from a fight but still they broke a boundary and touched something that wasn't theirs and on the tip of your tongue you want to say what is yours.

~.~

(Two weeks prior)

You weren't feeling well tonight and you knew you should have said that. You've been feeling a bit unwell lately in general this past week has been hell. Luckily even in your dark days there's sunshine  that visited you almost everyday that wouldn't hurt you in this state. Showing up in different berets and cardigans that always makes you smile.

You asked him if he crotchets them himself but he told you he does some of them but not all. Taehyung is an angel through and through, even if his baritone voice often makes people misunderstand him on the phone. Yet when they see a man with fluffy hair and a boxy smile show up they see the angel that he is. 

Today is the only day where you have even a bit of energy and that's only because you found a half full bottle of blood. You drank it this morning and realized you need to go back there. You get your blood from the donor store that humans willingly supply to. You just haven't been in a while. You open your phone and wince at the brightness of it but it's not nearly as bright as the picture of you and taehyung that is your home screen.

That day he asked you to go to the park but you told him you couldn't. He went wide-eyed assuming it's because of the sun and he felt so bad you couldn't help but kiss his forehead and tell him that, that  is in fact not why or true. 

You couldn’t go out in the sun, it's not like the books that he reads at night. You couldn't go out that day because you had to go help one of your friends move to their new apartment. The pout he gave you that day was a challenge because you had to fight the urge to kiss it off of him. “But I can go out with you tonight. Would that be good?” you inquire to which he smiles instantly and tells you he’ll be back later and that you guys will still go to the park.

The memory makes you smile until you groan at the headache you have right now. The guys would have understood if you raincheck but you don't like not being there for many reasons. Like missing out on the fun, not getting to see if any of them have gotten better at lying (they never do) but most importantly not being there to protect him. 

Sure yoongi and jimin are there and your human friends can also defend themselves and him but it's different. It's different because you know you'll be able to protect him no matter what the threat is, you're sure of it. So you don't get too done up simply putting on a black long sleeve and jeans and you usually wear heels but you didn't feel like it and something is telling you that tonight just isn't the night for them. 

You pull up to the casino and walk up to the bartender knowing he'd know where the guys were because yoongi usually stops by here before you all play. Before you even make it there he looks up and smiles. “Room F tonight miss y/n. The usual is being cleaned. A fight broke out in it and you know drinks and food were splattered everywhere. And blood but that's not too much of a problem for you.” he decides to joke with you and you usually would have laughed but you can't find it in you to so you just give a smile and thank him.

You get to the room and you can hear the laughter from even outside of the door, is this usually how loud you all are? You open it and they all look towards you. “Y/n!” Jungkook says happily. They must have been waiting for you before starting. “Hi guys.” you say hanging up your jacket. “You look like shit.” Jin says as you sit down. “I bet because I definitely feel it.” you laugh because of course he would say that.

You all get to playing and to their surprise you lose and yoongi wins. “We need her to feel bad more often so we can win.” hoseok says cleaning up the cards. You just flip him off but they know it's not malicious. You're on your way to the club which is your usual after spot. You guys walk since it's right there but there's like fog in your head. You're here but you're not, it's like a really bad headache. 

“Y/n do you want to go home? It's okay if you don't feel well today, we can always go out another time.” you hear a soft voice say and if anyone notices how he said ‘we’ instead of ‘you’ they don't say anything. “No tae love, I'll be fine.” you look up to see his worried expression and you can't help but smile and walk over to ruffle his hair. “I'll be okay dont worry, besides i had the best doctor this week checking on me.” you say and he giggles before puffing up his chest. “I guess you did huh?” you can't help but feel a warmth in your body at his happiness. 

Walking in the club was torture because you did say you were fine but dammit if the music isnt bothering you. Has it always been this loud? Eventually you all do your own thing. You ordered a fruity drink which is something new but you think you might need that. You have to use the bathroom but you look around to make sure they're all okay before going.

You see taehyung with Namjoon and Jimin and decide that everything will be fine. You were wrong and you figure that out when you walk out of the bathroom and go to walk back to your booth only to see namjoon and yoongi but not taehyung. You would have usually thought that everything was fine but something is telling you that it's not. 

They often say our bodies can tell when something bad is about to happen. You walk out to jimin . “Wheres tae?” he looks back at you and shrugs. “Last place that I knew he went was outside, said he needed some fresh air out back.” you nod and go to look for him. You walk out to the back standing area and you find taehyung but he isn't alone. You know how heat can make fog disappear.

Well the fog in your head instantly disintegrates as your blood boils. There's taehyung pushed in the corner near the brick wall with two people around him. A lady and man both vampires you can tell by the way one has a pair of red eyes. Typical but nonetheless a telling sign. Though you don't give a fuck if they were aliens.

You see taehyung with tears in his eyes as the guy towers over him “shh baby, we aren't the bad vampires or bad guys. You look like you want to have some fun and we just want to have some fun too, you like fun?” he says, grazing his teeth on Taehyung's neck. You see him shake his head and that makes the girl laugh. “Does that mean you're boring? Well see if you are.” she says with a sadistic giggle. You watch frozen something keeping you in place that is until you hear a belt buckle being undone.

You walk over pulling the guy off of taehyung and pushing him to the ground “fuck were you saying?” you ask him your tone venomous. “Oh come on do you see him? he'd look really pretty crying don't you think?” he says with a disgusting laugh. 

Red is a color for anger. Red is also a color people tend to associate with vampires. It's ironic how you actually see red as if the color is telling you that the feeling you are feeling is something dangerous. You grab the guy's head and bash it into the ground. He groans but you can't help but feel egged on by that. By now you see people piling back here and hear people around you. What you don't hear is taehyung yelling your name, what you don't see is the fear in his eyes.

“Come on, wouldn't you look so pretty crying?” you say wickedly fangs shining under the yellow street light. As if you were ready to eat a meal, it's dangerous just as much as the glint in your eyes. You get up and let him get up too. He sways a bit and you see him walk away but you decide you're not done with him yet. One last punch and you're done, you'll stop. “Why are you walking away? don't you like fun?” you say throwing his words back at him with a laugh that doesn't even sound like you.

He turns around and you sock him in the eye. “Fuck!” you hear him yell but right as you're about to walk away you feel someone pull your hair to see it's the girl who tried to take advantage of taehyung, your taehyung.

You push her off of you and she punches you hard enough to cause blood. You spit it out a large amount making a splat noise as it hits the ground. She goes to hit you again but you grab her pinning her to the ground with your body you punch her in the mouth as she did you. “Come on don't be boring? right ? shouldn't we see if you're boring?” you say through a gruff voice. 

Taehyung looks at the blood falling from your mouth and the cut near your eyebrow and feels like crying. He is about to pull you off but yoongi and Jimin grab him. “Don't. When vampires fight, the one person who shouldn't get in between is humans. y/n will be fine.'' Yoongi says as if that's supposed to reassure him. Jimin is staring with a straight face as if he's watching a football game. Taehyung is confused, you've never acted like this, you've never looked like this.

“A lot of things have changed about y/n but two things haven't.” Jimin says to no one in particular but he knows taehyung is listening. “She still can kick ass no matter who or what but most importantly she still fights for those she cares about. Those she loves.'' Jimin finishes as he lights a cigarette. Taehyung watches as he takes a puff, passing it to yoongi in silence. 

Taheyung doesn't know why no one is stopping you, why people are cheering, or why Namjoon and them aren't acting more afraid.

You pick up the girl by her hair and walk towards taehyung. “Apologize.” you tell her close to her ear. She doesn't though and you pull her hair tighter. “Apologize!” you yell. “Sorry! I'm sorry! We wont..i wont.. we'll be better!” she cries and you let her go looking down at her. “Pathetic.” you say going to pick up the earring you lost. As you're walking back you see the only people left out here are your friends but that's not what catches your eye.

You see taehyung looking at you with a look you want to describe as fear, sadness, or maybe even disgust. Before you can say anything he turns away from you walking to where you guys sparked. You look at Jimin who smiles at you. “You still got it huh?” he says with the cig in his mouth. You grab it and take a puff before handing it back to him. You need it, especially right now.  “Let's go.” yoongi says walking to where everyone else is in the car. 

The car is quiet but so tense that it's suffocating. “Y/n how do you fight with your hair down? Aren't you supposed to like put it up or do vampires not care?" Jungkook asks innocently. You can't help but smile at the younger but you don’t reply with humor not when you still see the tears shining on someone's cheeks. 

You all get to jins place and sit down in the living room. He goes to get the med kit. Though your wounds have definitely already healed, vampire advantages. You are about to tell him that when he comes back but you see taehyung grab it from him and sit by you. He doesn't  look you in the eye as he applies a cream to your eyebrow. The room is quiet, the guys mostly on their phones. Very unusual from you guys usual night at jins.

Next taehyung takes a wet washcloth and dabs at the blood on your skin. He goes to the center of your top lip when he decides to speak. “Why did you do that?”  he asks, barely a whisper but in the quiet room it feels loud. “Because they were being horrible people and doing something even worse.” you tell him and taehyung feels himself shake his head. “But why did you do that? You could have called security, you shouldn't have done that.” he says now wiping near the corner of your mouth. 

He sounds angry at you but in the most taehyung way possible. “Because I love you.” you answer and he stops dabbing your mouth. He looks up into your eyes and you can't help but smile at him. He doesn't say anything so you continue. “I like you Taehyung. So much that I consider it love. So when you ask me why, that's my answer, because I love you.” you say and he freezes grabbing a bandaid but then he shakes his head putting it down.

He looks back at you, tears threatening to fall. “I can't see myself with someone like that, like this.” he says as his hands point to the blood patched rag. “your love...if it's like this i don't want it, it's scary.” he says with a voice full of fear as if his words are true. 

You are scary and so is your love. The Love you only ever wanted to be soft in the way his hands are, the love you've only ever wanted to be warm in the way he is. Even though he rejects you he looks so pretty being a heartbreaker and your heart in this moment feels broken. You understand him and his words and respect that. Someone as lovely as taehyung shouldn't be with you. It doesn't make sense and you guess he feels the same.

Yet the words “someone like you” ring in your head as you stare back at him. He sees you just like everyone else does and you think that's what hurts the most. Not the rejection but the way he is scared of you at this moment, the way he doesnt see you as y/n. 

You simply nod and stand up walking to the door. You feel the others' eyes follow you and some stay on taehyung. “Jimin, did you drink tonight?” you ask him as you put on your jacket. “Surprisingly no, why?” he asks, already getting up because he knows what you're about to say.

“Can you take me home?” you ask as you walk out the door not waiting to hear his answer.  You were right about two things. One is that you were correct about how tonight wasn't the night for heels. The second one is that there was in fact a threat but who knew the threat would be you? 

~.~

You hear doors open and it brings you back to where you are now. “You coming out? Or were you thinking about bunny boy?” Jimin says through a laugh and you want to hit him just to shut him up. “I think you're just mad because i was about to fuck a pretty boy that wasn't you.” you bite back and he rolls his eyes at that. “You wish.” he says as he helps you out of the car. “Maybe I do.” you say and Jimin pales and it's your turn to push his shoulder.

“Just kidding, now come on you have to pick the horror movie you were talking about.” you say walking up Jin's driveway. “You can't just say things like that! I didn't know if I wanted to throw up or pop a boner!” The laugh you let out is so hearty that it has everyone smiling. It's Been a while since they heard you let out a laugh that fills up a room.

“Are we taking showers or?” Namjoon asks. “If we all took showers it would be daylight before we watch a movie.” Jin says and Joon thinks on what he said and nods. “You’re right but we could just pair up and shower.” he offers up. “Namjoon shut up please.” Yoongi sighs and Namjoon puts his hands up in defeat. “Hey, just saying.” you shake your head going to put on the pajamas you brought by before you guys went out. Jin said tonight you all are supposed to wear a onesie so that's what you brought. “Jin, I'm going to change in your room!” you yell from down the hall.

You get changed and come out to see that the guys are bickering about something. “How come you are one too?  like is it a vampire thing?” Jimin asks who you assume is yoongi. You walk out and then they look at you and jimin glares but jungkook just laughs. “I guess it is a vampire thing.'' Yoongi says, chuckling at something. Once you see what he's talking about you join him.

How stereotypical can you guys be, the three vampires chose bat onesies. The only differences are that yours is black and red, yoongi’s is black and purple, and jimin is brown. You look around to see namjoon is a monkey, hoseok is a turtle, jin is a panda, jungkook is a hamster, and taehyung is a cat. His is a white onesie that looks soft and the ears are a bit floppy that you would think it's a dog or bunny. 

“Okay so what's the movie you were talking about jimin?” hoseok asks him as he scrolls through the movies.  “Okay so there's two I was thinking of, the conjuring or the ring. Which one do you guys want?” everyone says the ring besides taehyung who votes the conjuring. “What about you y/n?” you see taehyung staring at you.

You know why taehyung didn't vote for the ring. He often told you things like that scare him the most because “what if it's true? Even if it's a movie, what if since I watched it, it happens?” he said to you one time. Such a childlike thing to believe in but so cute that all you could do was tell him that you'd protect him from whatever scares him or tries to hurt him. 

Who knew that doing exactly that is what cost you your closeness to him. you decide you'll answer honestly but not pick one. “We can watch whatever but i haven't watched the ring before.” you say taking some popcorn which results in you getting a slap on the hand form jin. He told you that it's for when the movie starts but you still go for seconds. “The ring it is, sorry taehyung.” hoseok says, clicking the movie.

~.~

In the middle of the movie you got bored and looking around you can tell you're not the only one. Even Jimin, the one who picked the movie, got bored of it but no one is saying anything. “This is boring.” Jungkook whines laying back against the carpet dramatically. You laugh because leave it up to him to be honest. “Thank god someone finally said it.'' Jimin says grabbing the remote to look up something.

“What are you doing?” hoseok asks him. By the smirk on Jimin's lips you know he's up to no good. “There's This new movie that came out, well it's not too new but it's a romance movie with a vampire and human. Loads of love but also loads of sex.” he says and you roll your eyes at that, of course he would want to watch it.

“That's why you want to watch it isn't it?” Jin asks in skepticism. “Maybe but not really I heard the plot was really good and the sex but whatever the part that got me was that it's a female vampire and a male human. I won't tell you much but they dont make alot of movies like that.” jimin says typing the title in.

That piqued your interest because he's right there aren't many women that are vampires in these kinds of movies. Jimin glances at you “knowing y/n she might get too excited at this movie maybe we should pick another.” Jimin says singling you out. If you could fully blush you know it'd show. “Just play the damn movie” you say clearly embarrassed. He laughs in a way that sounds like crackle while pressing play.

~.~

You have to admit the plot is very good like Jimin said. 

It's where the woman has tried to live a good life. She helped those who needed it and killed those who deserved it. She isn't a good guy nor is she a bad guy because life isn't always so black and white. When the village she has lived in all her life one day finds out about her killings they shun her out but felt like that wasn't enough they forced her out of the village with violence and she never fought back.

She left that night without any of her things because why would she take things given to her by the people who are currently wishing her to be gone. Years passed and the good life she tried to live soon fell. She didn't go out of her way to help others but that doesn't mean she went out of her way to be evil to them either. 

The town near her is bigger than the one she lived in when she was younger. She doesn't exactly live in it, she lives around it though. a house hidden by trees but visible enough to know someone lives back there. She gets a call from the royal family of this town which surprises her. She arrived at the castle but did not bow, she knew of the king. Knew of the things he does to those around him, the bruises he put on his wife's skin and the torture he put his kids through.

Speaking of which one of the older sons that were around her age caught her eye but she wasn't here for that, she knew none of these people saw her as a life that mattered. Getting to the good part she was in charge of guarding the son in the daytime. 

The one who caught her eye, they began a friendship and grew to adore one another. They often had sex after becoming romantically involved. which you have to admit the sex scenes were so romantic and good like the one where she comforts him with a kiss that turns into her riding him as he's bound to the bed.

The scene that got all of your attention even jungkook who objected to a love movie. Was the scene where the man lets her feed off of him sucking at his neck causing him to cum just from that. It's a simple thing and quite stereotypical but in truth it is something many vampires like to think about, including you. 

Anyways one day he came to her in the middle of the night when a storm was happening banging on her door crying. When she opened the door she saw him with a bruised eye along with his cheek. He was holding his other arm as if it was in pain. That night he told her of the king's abuse and how he got his son, who was his older brother to fight him along with his older sister. Alone is how the boy said he felt claiming his father thought less of him because he wasn't a man in his eyes.

In other words the woman took matters into her own hands, you can guess how it went. The next day news broke out but no one's eyes lingered on her but his. He looked at her like everyone tends to like a monster and not for her. That night he left her alone like she was before him. Saying mean things to her that made the woman cry but the rain hid her sobs. The woman felt so hurt that she once again left a home that was once a place she desired to reside in but like every home she tends to grow fondness for it abandons her in the same way she has to abandon it. 

~.~

The movie ends and a quiet air hangs over you all. You look around and notice hoseok, jin, and jungkook are crying while namjoon fell asleep. You notice jimin and yoongi have expressions as if they feel for the woman. You though? you feel like the woman, and maybe that's why the sex scenes couldn't even make you that excited. As you notice everyone's expression you see one that surprises you. It's because this one looks in pain and it's looking at you. You want to stare but you can't because you don't know what he's thinking of so you look away. “So much for good sex scenes when the angst outweighs that.” you say accusatory to jimin. 

He looks at you wide eyed “how was i supposed to know? I just heard it was a good plot, not heartbreaking with no happy ending!” he says defensively. You point a finger at him “there better be a part two.” you say standing up. Yoongi is looking at you and you avoid his gaze because you know he knows. This movie hit something within you. A nerve, a heartstring, maybe even a vocal cord with how you're at a loss of words.

“Who's sleeping where?” hoseok asks. “Count on one two three.” Jungkook says turning it into a game. He counts and shouts are heard “i'll sleep with jungkook!” “I'll sleep on the couch!” Jimin groans at Jungkook's answer because now he has to sleep on the couch. 

“the guest room!” hoseok says. “I'll stay here with joon!” yoongi shouts. “Jin's room!” “Jin's room!” “my room! My room?!” Jin says at the end as he looks at you and taehyung who shouted the same thing. You look at him to find him staring at you. “You can take it, I'll sleep with hobi.” you say going to pick up the blanket you brought in here. “No it's okay I'll sleep with hobi.” taehyung replies and you look at him. You want to argue but you know it wont do anything and you know it will make him look at you worse than he may already.

“You sure?” he nods and you do the same. “Goodnight guys!” you yell walking to jins room. “Is no one going to answer me, my room?! Shouldn't I sleep in my room?” you stifle a giggle at his words. 

~.~

Surprisingly you fall asleep quickly, you blame it on the few drinks and exhaustion. You just happen to wake up when you hear the door open. You don't open your eyes, not feeling like it. “What do you want?” you ask your voice groggy and deeper evidence of the sleep you just got woken up from. You feel someone get under the covers, now that confuses you. You turn on the lamp before turning over to see who it is. You see pretty brown eyes looking at you, his hair in his messy as if he'd been tossing and turning.

You don't say anything but you quirk an eyebrow at him. A silent question which he answers shyly. “Got scared from the movie.” you don't ask him which one, just nod. “That doesn't explain why you're here.” you say gently because you are confused but you'd never be anything but gentle with him. He wraps his arms around your neck “because you'll protect me, right?” he says quietly as if he doesn't want anyone but you to hear him.

“Are you mocking me tae love?” his eyes go wide at the accusation but you have to know if you're being made fun of. He shakes his head sincerely. “No, I would never. Just wanted to feel protected and safe.” he says panic in his voice. You stare at him for a second. “And I make you feel that way?” you ask to which he nods. “Always do.” he says, tightening his arms around you. “I like you y/n, so much I think it might be love and I get sad when i see you with people who aren't me especially when people are here.” he says putting his face in your neck.

You realize he's talking about the dancer from the club. “Are you telling me you feel the same?” he nods but you want to hear him say it. “Look at me and tell me you like me.” you say and you feel him about to shake his head but he must decide against it. He leans back slowly and looks you in the eye. “I love you y/n. I think I have ever since we met.” you smile at his honesty. “You've loved me for two years?” you tease and he whines at your words. 

“Maybe not love at first but i've always liked you lots.” you hum, petting his hair back. “Is that why when I give you forehead kisses you would linger as if you wanted more?” you ask a playful grin on your lips to which he hides his face back in your neck. “Stop teasing me.” he whines and you can't help but laugh at his shyness. “You're so cute I might eat you.” you feel him freeze and realize that you might have ruined the mood.

Taehyung confessed but that doesn't mean he doesn’t still find you scary. “Sorry i did-” “maybe i want that, to be eaten by you.” he says in such a quiet whisper you almost wouldn't think he said anything at all but the way his lips move against your neck let you know he in fact said something. “Tae love, don't say things like that.” it's your turn to whine a bit. It's crazy how simple words can make you this excited. “Why not?” he asks, leaning back to look at you through his lashes.

“Because I'm weak to pretty boys that say pretty words.” you admit honestly. “Do you think that way about all pretty boys?” he asks and you shake your head. Holding his chin to look up at you. “Only one pretty boy can make me weak with just a smile, only one pretty boy can make me happy and only one pretty boy can make me feel this breathless.” you say to him and you see his eyes hazing over.

“You know who that pretty boy is? Who my pretty angel is?” you ask, seeing his eyes scanning down to your lips but staying there wanting to hear what you're going to say next. He shakes his head, wanting you to continue. “You, my love.'' Taehyung looks back up at you, cheeks flushed and breath coming out in pants. He's so worked up and you've barely talked or touched him, so cute. “Please.” deep voice pleading with you. “I can't give you what you want without knowing what is baby.” you encourage him.

“Wanna kiss.” he says, getting closer as if he's not as close as he can get. Anymore closer you'll both become one. “You do?” you ask gently. “Mmm.” he hums and you smile, deciding you don't want to tease him more than necessary tonight. You lean in and kiss his lips gently, your slow beating heart picking up at the softness of his lips. At the warmth that comes from him fills your body just from a simple kiss.

These lips hold the pout you always want to kiss off and here you are connecting them with your own. The kiss burns in the way snow can burn your hands if you hold it for too long but this burn is nice. This burn feels addicting like you don't want it to end. You feel taehyung lick your lip and you open your mouth for him letting your tongues dance to a rush in both your veins that only they understand. 

You feel him pull back, taking a breath. “It's true,” he says breathlessly. You tilt your head in confusion. “Vampires spit gets you aroused faster.” he says and you giggle at him. Leave it to your cute nerd to give you a random fact in the middle of kissing. “It is true, yes.” he nods, catching his breath. “Are you aroused?” you ask, licking at his neck up to his ear. “Y..yes.” he says leaning to the side trying to expose more of himself to you. “Is there more you want to do angel?” you whisper in his ear and suck on his lobe.

“Want you to touch me” he says faintly. You let your hand drag down his fluffy onesie until you stop right above where he wants. You know he wants you to touch him there but a sadistic part of you wants to hear him beg for it. You lazily play with material at his stomach while sucking down his neck. “Please y/n, please touch me!” he begs and you smile to yourself. He's so good for you and you didn't even have to ask.

“You want me to touch you here?” you say cupping him through the fluffy material as you grazing your teeth on his neck near his pulse point. Taehyung gasps at the feeling. “Yes please.” he moans a bit loudly and you know you'll have to apologize to the others tomorrow but can’t find it in you to care right now. 

You pull away and take your hands away which earns you the neediest whine you've heard. You feel yourself getting wet simply just from his reactions. “Lay down for me angel, I'm gonna make you feel good, don't you want that baby?” he nods moving to lay down. “Want it s’bad.” he says looking up at you from where he lays. “Can you unzip this for me angel?” you ask him as you flick the zipper of the cat onesie.

He shakes his head “Want you to do it.” instead of telling him to do it you do as he said. Sue you for being weak for his puppy eyes. You unzip it and once it's off you throw it to the side. You look down and have to pause at the view. The glow of the lamp light illuminates his golden skin, his fluffy hair with light curls lay in his face but most importantly the hand he keeps at his mouth as he looks up at you through his lashes makes him look so angelic in contrast to the situation at hand. That is what makes you audibly groan and look away.

You finally understand the anime’s, they aren't exaggerating because if you could get a nose bleed from this you probably would. The sound makes him giggle causing you to look back at him. “You laughing at me?” you say leaning over him but he knows it's all in light fun by the way you smirk down at him. “Yeah who knew you were so obsessed with me?” he says trying to tease you and you smirk. 

“I'm obsessed but who came in here cuddling up to me and is now under me with this..” you say looking down to where his cock strains against his boxers, the light blue having a dark patch on it from where he leaks pre-cum. You hear his breath hitch as you take them off. Sliding them down letting his cock hit his stomach, the sight makes your mouth water. Once they're off, you stare at him in all his glory. “So pretty angel.” you whisper as you stare down at the skin shown.

Taehyung follows your line of sight and feels himself heat up at your eyes being focused there. He tries to put his hands there but you swat them away gently. “Ah ah let me see you baby.” you say sternly. Taehyung hides his face instead. He feels you grab his cock giving it a few strokes which has him biting his lips. “You want my mouth or hand baby?” you ask and he peeks through his hand “want you?” he says. It was meant to sound more like plead but it sounds more like a question which you can't help but laugh at him.

“Not tonight angel.” you say charmed by him. “Mouth please.” you smile at his words. “Such a good boy, so polite.” you praise and he feels himself preen at it. He feels you shift down the bed and looks down to see you face to face with his cock. He watches you give it a few kisses, starting at the tip going down to the base. You look up at him as you kiss your way back up to his tip. You maintain eye contact as you take him in your mouth and taehyung whines so loud at the feeling.

It's not as warm as other girls he's been with but it's the fact it's you doing this to him. The fact that you're sucking him off and your mouth is so soft. This feels like a dream, getting to have you like this. 

You take him as far as you can and swallow trying to make him feel good and his reaction tells you you've done just that. Eyebrows furrowed and mouth open letting out sinful noises you've only dreamed of. You speed up your ministrations, going up and down. You bring your hand that's not holding him to cup his balls. You massage them as you continue making him feel nice. taehyung shakes his head, the pleasure being too much yet not enough. pretty moans leaving his lips no matter how much he tries to stop them.

You feel him twitch in your mouth and you want to watch him cum, see him come undone from simply your hand. You lift up with a ‘pop’ and the noise makes taehyung feel embarrassed. “Feeling good angel?” you ask but you know the answer if the way his moans bounce off the walls tell you anything. “Yes, yes! So good!” he says softly bucking up into your hand that's still pumping him . “Yeah? Whose pretty angel are you, baby?” you want to hear him say it, say he's yours.

“Yours! Your pretty angel, only yours.” he moans as you speed up your hand. “That's right angel, all mine. Only mine.” you say darkly. You lean down kissing him and taehyung doesn't know if it's your spit or how dirty it is tasting himself from your lips that's making his mind feel fuzzy. You lean back slightly looking at him and taehyung opens his eyes, staring up into yours. His  eyebrows furrowed and eyes slightly teary. “Gonna cum.” he whispers, a soft moan escaping his throat, proving his words to be true. “Yeah? Gonna make a mess on my hand?” he nods breath picking up. 

“My angel has no shame does he? Being loud letting everyone know what he's doing, you don't care though do you baby? you like when i let everyone know you're mine don't you?” he can't help but mewl at your words. “Y..yes oh y/n.” he says looking down to where you twist your hand on his cock then back up at you. You move down to kiss at his neck, nipping at his pulse point feeling it beating. That seems to be what it does for him. “Gonna cum, gonna cum, yes! y/n!” he says, hips bucking into your hand sloppily making you giggle.

You watch as his cum shoots over your hand. Some landing on his stomach. You pump him through his orgasm till he's whining from overstimulation. You take your hand away and look up at him to find his eyes already on you. You both just stare before taehyung breaks out in a fit of giggles and you find yourself doing the same. You kiss his forehead. “Did so good for me baby, i'll be back.” luckily jin has an en suite bathroom so you walk in and get a rag damping it in warm water quickly. You come back and sit down beside him, wiping him down softly not wanting to be too rough.

Plus you like this, taking care of him, gently treating him in the way you think he deserves soft and attentive. You feel his eyes on you as you do this but you don't look back at him. “Look at me.” he says. His deep voice making you smile after his moans happened to be a bit higher but nothing too out of his range. You do as he says and you see him still having that same warm smile on his lips. “I love you.'' His voice signals that he's telling the truth but what mostly tells it is the look in his eyes as if you're the only person to exist .

As if you're the snow he wishes to fall even on the coldest days. “I love you.” you say back to him and he giggles. “I know i mean look at how you're looking at me.” he says picking up the cover and turning away from you but you pinch his butt before he covers it. “Ow!” he says glaring at you. 

You get up to walk back to where you were sleeping before. Taehyung lifts up the cover for you and you get in. you’re about to turn the lamp off but he makes a noise of protest. “I'll be in here so nothings gonna get you.” you tell him softly but he shakes his head protesting. “I know but I want to see you plus I sleep with a light on at home. you know that or did you forget when you had that guy over at your house?” he says pouting and you're confused. “What guy?” you ask and taehyung realizes what he's just said.

“Nothing, it's nothing.'' He's about to try to turn over but you hold him in place with an arm around his waist. “No no, tell me what you're talking about.” but he just hides in your neck. “Angel, tell me what you're talking about.” you say sternly but so gentle. Gentle, you're so gentle with him that taehyung can't help but tell you. “You know how we didn't talk much since that day of the fight?” you feel yourself freeze at the mention, you don't regret what you did but you regret doing it in front of taehyung. Your gentle boy, your angel. You hum in acknowledgment.

“And you know how you still tried to contact me after that day but i just didn't answer, or how we didn't have the same closeness or the car show and all of  those things that i'm sorry about. Looking back it seems childish of me.” you remember the countless texts left on read or delivered and remember when you all hung out how he only talked to you if you spoke to him and even then it felt distant.

The first sign you knew something was bothering him was when you asked him to go to the park one day and he said that he didn't feel well only to then see on yoongi's story that taehyung was out at the party he told you he didn't want to go to the week before. You told him you wouldn't go either yet there he was and he lied to you.

Then the biggest sign he was upset was when you guys all went to car show because hoseok wanted to go and some girl was hitting on taehyung while being a bit too handsy but instead of going to you to help him, he went to jimin and the look he gave you that day was one you couldn't read well. You felt as if you read it well enough to know that he didn't want you to protect him anymore because you were scary. 

Though apparently you might be wrong as you hear him sigh. “It really is nothing now that i think about it but it hurt me a lot and made me think that you lied to me that night and that you didn't like me, didnt love me.” you sit up at this because what could have made him feel like that? “About four days after that night at the club I went to your apartment because I wanted to talk and most importantly apologize and tell you that I felt the same as you.” you don't respond letting him continue.

“But when i knocked it wasn't you who answered it, it was hyunjin from my art class. i mean i've never talked to him and he probably doesn't know me so i know he doesn't owe anything to me but i felt like you did.” he says sadness lacing his tone. 

He continues. “ He had your shirt on with no pants along with hickies and what looked like a bite mark. I heard you ask him if it's the delivery guy and he asked me if I was and in that moment I felt like I was pushed out of your world or like I was forgotten. It made my heart hurt and my chest burn but what made me leave that day wasn't that question it was what you said to him.” you feel yourself frown at all of this because you didn't even know taehyung came by that day or that he even felt the same, you just hoped he did.

“You said, ‘Come on baby, we need to do this together.’ and for some reason that whole sentence made me feel like i couldn't breathe. Isn't it crazy how small things can hurt us when it comes from the ones we love?” he finishes as if recalling the memory still affects him. silence hangs in the air and taehyung feels himself getting scared that he might have ruined what he had going with you, that maybe he said the wrong thing but suddenly he feels you scoot back down in the bed and hug him.

“You could never be pushed out of my world angel, no matter who or what comes in it.” you lean back and for the first time taehyung sees your eyes glassy. “I hate that you had to feel that way, especially alone. If you would have told me we could have talked about it. Hyunjin is a friend of mine love, nothing more. We did sleep together that day but that's all it was.” taehyung feels himself sink at those words because what if that's all he was? 

“Am I just that?” He asks quietly as if he's scared that if he speaks too loud your answer will be louder and shake his ribs till they break just like his heart would. “Never. Never have and never will be.” you say grabbing his face and taehyung knows it's stupid to cry at this but hearing his worries be washed away with your words that are said so firmly makes him emotional, makes him happy. 

You both lay back and talk for a while before you feel taehyung move to lay his head on your chest. “Oh my god.” you say breaking the silence and taehyung lifts up alarmed. “We basically fucked in Jin’s bed, oh my god.” you say in terror. Taehyung laughs and lays back down. “He'll be fine, it's okay.” he says like it's nothing.

“No it's not he's gonna kill us.” you say with a light guilt but taehyung just giggles at you because why are you so worried. “Were we that loud you think he'd notice?” he asks and you have to stop yourself from reminding him that his moans were in fact very loud so you opt for just a simple yes. You don't get a response and you realize he's fallen asleep. Jin is definitely going to kill you both.

~.~

That next morning you and taehyung wake up with limbs tangled. You help him put on his onesie cause he can't go out naked. You both walk in the kitchen to which you see eyes land on and you close your eyes knowing what's about to come. A whistle breaks through the room and you sigh, you just know it's jimin. “The vampire romance movie must have got you both worked up huh?” he says with a clap. “Fuck off.” you say walking to get some coffee that yoongi is making.

“You did it in a onesie?'' Yoongi asks you as he passes you the sugar. You look down and want to actually crawl in a hole. “I  didn’t even realize.” you say embarrassed and he just pats your back. You're mixing your sugar in when you hear Jin talk. “What do you mean the movie got them worked up?” he asks jimin but when no one answers he looks at you and taehyung. You look normal but taehyung looks a bit rough. His onesie zipper is halfway done and his neck has a few light marks and then it clicks.

“No way!” Jin says in disbelief at what he just figured out. “You two did not have sex on my bed!” Everyone laughs and you have to stop yourself from smiling because you truly didn't even think about where you were at the time, just who was around. “I mean you're right we didn't have sex.” you say taking a sip of your coffee. “But you did something! that's like half way fucking on my bed!” he says and yoongi laughs at the older’s exasperation.

Poor taehyung is hiding his face as he lays his head on the table. you almost want to tease him at how last night he wasn't worried yet here he is embarrassed. “Wait, what vampire romance movie?” Namjoon asks and everyone groans. “what ? am i not allowed to be confused because i am but if taehyung and y/n are happy then that's good but what about me and my curiosity? Doesn't that matter?” Namjoon asks, hand moving to prove his point.

You just walk by and ruffle his hair. “Ask yoongi joonie, he liked the movie a lot.” you wink at yoongi and walk away to the living room. Yoongi’s eyes go wide if they want to tease you, you can tease them especially because yoongi is shy he won't go for it. “Yoongi what movie? Can we watch it together?” you hear namjoon ask. “Absolutely not.”

When can we see the next part of it??? I badly wanna know what happens to y/n. 🥺

"So.." jungkook timidly starts, fire between the two of them the only background noise as he moves around a bit on his camping chair. "How.. is she?" He wonders quietly, and Taehyung shrugs across from him, arms crossed.

"Good." He answers, a lot more confident in both words and delivery of them as the younger singer. "Recently learned how to knit. She's pretty good at it- but she struggles to concentrate on it for long." He chuckles at the last part, Jungkook softly doing the same as he watches the flames.

"I can imagine." He answers. "She's always been easy to distract."

Taehyung nods. "She's really all over the place sometimes." He mumbles, leaning back a bit more.

"Yeah, but.. you know. If you just help her to stop and kind of recollect herself, she's as if she restarted." He jokingly explains. "Sometimes she just gets overwhelmed."

Again, the older singer nods.

"She.. I saw she had a new collar in the picture you'd sent in the group chat." Jungkook mentions. "I didn't know she liked wearing them." He guiltily admits.

"She likes reassurance." Taehyung explains softly. "She likes to have a reminder that she belongs somewhere. It's like holding a hand when the hand isn't in reach. Her words, not mine, by the way." He tells the younger man, who becomes visibly more somber now as he looks at the fire. "She misses home."

At that, Jungkook cracks a little, running his hands over his face as he adjusts his hat.

"As much as I adore her, it's.. pretty obvious." Taehyung continues, biting through the painful view of his best friend struggling a little more to compile himself with every word spoken. "She asks about you. And Bam, too."

"Fuck." Jungkook chokes out, now completely hiding his face as he tries to keep himself together. There's not been a day where he didn't regret what had happened. Not once has he found himself getting over the whole situation, not even a little bit. Everything reminds him of you.

And it's now worse than ever, after realizing that there might be more going on than just missing a pet or a friend even.

"How's he doing?" He asks, and Jungkook picks himself up a little, taking a deep breath with red and glistening eyes before he answers.

"Great. Awesome, even. My dad loves him." He says. "He's honestly thriving. Listens to my mom better than anyone." He rants a little, before he just let's the tears fall. "He's happy."

"That's good." Taehyung nods. "Do you regret it?" He wonders, and Jungkook nods.

"Getting them both? No." He says. "But I regret not realizing what was going on when it was pretty obvious." He admits. "I just.. I think I really did forget that she's not human. Not fully, at least."

"Its easy to make that mistake." The older singer reminds him. "A lot of people make that. Even with full dogs." He shakes his head, laughing a bit to himself. "Hell, even I pamper Tannie a bit too much here and there. Humanize him." He explains. "But you have to always keep in mind that there's limits to what's alright, and what's not. She's partially human, yes, but there's also partially an animal in there that struggles to understand what's happening right now."

"I know." Jungkook says quietly.

"She's confused." Taehyung offers. "She thinks it's her fault. Or tries to spin the story in a way that puts her at fault at least. Because that's easier than admitting that the person you love hurt you."

At the word love, jungkook flinches a little.

Because he feels so undeserving of it right now.

And he doesn't know if he will ever gain back the right to receive it from you. He knows you got it good with Taehyung. He takes good care of you.

Maybe he should leave it at that.

Maybe he should let you go.

Title: Already Mine | ♞ | | ♚ || ♛ | 

Genre: Dad! Seokjin, Mom! Reader, lovers to strangers!, strangers to lovers!, office worker! Seokjin, stay at home mom! reader, established relationship, fluff, angst, and smut

Summary: “I do.” Two simple words that changed her whole world. The man that gave her love that she never had before and a child that looked just like him with her eyes, a story for the ages. It wasn’t until the mornings changed and the warmth he once had turned cold. Nothing made sense but at the same time everything did. All she wanted was him but maybe that's not what he wants...

Warnings: Fighting, mentions of death, mentions of cheating, sex scenes, angst, fluff and romance

Flowers scattered on the red carpeted floor that led L/N Y/N to her future. The white lace on her skirt made everyone gaze in awe at her beauty and the freshly picked roses in her hands completed the scene. Sadly, no one noticed the blood that was dripping down her hands with each step she took. Her eyes began to water when she saw Kim Seokjin, her soon-to-be husband, crying at the sight of her. The I do’s echoed through the room as God witnessed another ceremony between two lovers but he knew their unfortunate future. Y/N didn’t notice the winds whispering warnings in her ear because the only thing she saw was Jin and their love. Nothing could break them…that’s what she thought a year ago, it’s tragic what time can do. It all started when the plus sign entered their lives.

Seokjin and Y/N had been together for eight years before getting married. Now being together for ten years and married for two, you would think everything was perfect. College sweethearts getting married and having a baby after their honeymoon, the picture perfect family. Everyone saw the smiles but no one saw the cracks, not even Y/N until it was too late.

Y/N woke up and glanced at the bedside next to her, empty. She looked away quickly not wanting to get so emotional early in the morning. She left the cold sheets and took a shower, the warm water can give her what she’s been missing. She stared at the white wall with a blank expression as the paint sent her comforting words. She closed her eyes and let the water drip down her body as her body shakes.

She immediately got dressed in sweats and a shirt (what was the point of dressing up anymore). She didn’t bother looking in the mirror, what was the point of getting disappointed? She walked into Jihan’s room to see that she was still sleeping. She smiled at this, a genuine one before it fell back into a frown. She sat in the white puffy chair and stared out the window. The morning fog wasn’t making her feel any better but then again, was there anything to feel in the first place? 

She glanced down at her wedding ring and the happiness she once felt was now replaced with emptiness. She remembered Jin’s shaky hand placing the ring onto her finger and how they laughed about it at the reception with their family and friends. She slid the ring on and off, debating on taking it off for good. It wasn’t like he would notice and if he did, he would probably be gleeful. She closed her eyes and let out a deep sigh before falling asleep in the chair with her ring falling to the floor. 

A year ago 

“You look beautiful, Y/N.” 

She turned her head and smiled at Jin’s cousin, Jisoo. She glanced at the white lace on her skirt and gave her an unsure look, “Really? I-I just feel overwhelmed, that I don’t know.”

“Nonsense, you're the most beautiful girl here except for me of course.” 

She let out a small laugh and stared at herself in the mirror, “There’s no doubt you're related to Jin.” 

“Sadly, I am. Do you want me to leave so you can have a moment with your step dad?” 

She looked at Jisoo through the glass and nodded her head, “Thank you.” 

“Yeah, of course.” 

She heard the door close and took out the locket that was hidden under the lace. She opened the heart shaped locket and smiled at the picture. It was the last picture she ever took with her step father or rather father. Her biological father left her when she was only two years old and her mother was devastated. It wasn’t until her mother met her step father when she was five that her life felt complete. He raised her like she was his own and she saw him as the missing piece in her life. A year ago, he was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and she hoped there was a chance to heal him but it was too late. 

Jin was there with her at the funeral and she wondered if it was right to still have her wedding. She overheard some of her aunts saying it’s too soon to be dressed in white and that it's an omen. Her mother encouraged her to go forward with the wedding, “Papa would want you to be happy.” 

She tilted her head at the locker and a smile appeared, “I hope you're looking down on me...I hope you're excited to see my future like I am. I’m nervous of course...who wouldn’t be but Jin...Jin is the perfect choice for me. I know how much you loved him and he loved you too papa. I love him so much and...I can’t wait to be his wife. I love you papa.” 

She closed the locket and brought the gold heart to her lips as she placed a kiss on top of the heart. She heard a knock at the door and she turned around to see her mother with a wide smile, “Baby, you look beautiful.” 

“Thank you mom. I was just talking to dad.”

She smiled at this and walked towards her daughter. She wrapped her arm over her shoulders and kissed her cheek, “He would be crying...he loved you in princess gowns. He used to say no matter what, she will always be my little princess. No matter what age.”

“I will always be his princess. Did you see Jin?”

“Yes, I did. I don’t think I’ve seen Jin so nervous before. It’s funny.” 

Y/N let out a small laugh and kissed the top of her mom's head, “Don’t tease him. I’m nervous too.” 

“Yeah but you being nervous is cute. Are you ready?” 

She nodded her head and hand gently flattened out her skirt, “I’m ready...”

That familiar tune played throughout the church, the tune that made everyone stand up and look at the door with anticipation. She stared at the door through her veil and gently smiled. On the other side of the door was her future. The doors opened wide and she closed her eyes to take a deep breath before she started walking. Her white heels touched the rose petals that blended into the red carpet. She looked out to see their friends giving her wide grins and saw some of them having tears going down their faces. She moved her head towards the front and her eyes landed on the love of her life, Jin. 

He was wearing his best black suit but she didn’t care about that because she was too focused on his tears. He looked at his best man, Min Yoongi, who could only laugh at his tears. She had to stop herself from crying (she spent too much money on her face to cry it off). When she made it to the front, she bowed at Jin’s parents who gave her a welcoming smile. Jin bowed at her mother and gently took her hand into his large ones. He looked down at her and gave her the happiest smile that she has ever seen on his face, “You look beautiful, Y/N.”

“And you look handsome, Jin.” 

The priest gave them a smile as they made their way back. He let out a small cough and opened his book, “Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today in the presences of these witnesses to join Seokjin and Y/N in matrimony commended to be honorable among all; and therefore is not to be entered into lightly but reverently, passionately, lovingly and solemnly. They have decided to live out the rest of their lives as one.” 

The whole time, the couple only looked into each other’s eyes. Even though they had friends and families all around them, they didn’t care. In this moment, it was only them and the beautiful stars shining on them. All the moments they shared were all leading up to this moment, the moment that they say I do’s, Where they are each other’s until they take their last breaths.  

“Y/N, did you hear?”

She quickly shook out of her thoughts and turned her head at the priest, “What? I’m sorry.”

The priest let out a small laugh, “You may now kiss the groom.” 

She quickly turned her head and turned to Jin who was already leaning forward. She rolled her eyes at how slow he was going and grabbed his collar bringing him into her faster. Though the kiss was soft and romantic, it was clear that Jin was in control. His tongue sliding against hers as she brought her hands up to his chest. The whole room erupted in cheers and when they pulled away, Jin leaned forward placing a kiss on the tip of her nose, “I love you so much, Mrs. Kim.”

“Ditto, Mr. Kim.” 

They both smiled at each other before turning towards the corwards of people. Jin grabbed her hand and raised both of their hands up in the air, “I JUST GOT MARRIED TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!” 

She let out a laugh and looked at Jin, “I JUST GOT MARRIED TO MY FAVORITE STAR!”  

Her saying that made her remember the moments they spent in college together. All the nights they spent together “studying”. When Jin heard this his face flushed as he remembered their college days under the stars. All their friends let out laughs as they watched the couple go down the aisle with happiness radiating off of them. When the door closed behind them, Jin brought her into another kiss and placed his forehead against hers, “You are the greatest thing that has happened to me, Kim Y/N.”

“It feels so unreal that I’m married to you.” 

He let out a small laugh and kissed the side of her head, “I hope it was worth waiting for.” 

“Great things take time and I would’ve waited forever for you.” 

“No more waiting...let’s go take pictures before your mom yells at me.” 

The couple stood next to a willow tree as they took pictures with their party and parents. Every picture they took, the pure happiness was felt through them. Her best friend and maid of honor, Lee Yujin, made her way towards her with champagne in her hand. They were taking a break from taking pictures and Y/N was sitting on a bench. She looked up and smiled at Yujin, “Hey you.” 

“Hey, how are you doing?”

Y/N raised her eyebrow at this and let out a small laugh, “I got married to the love of my life, I’m doing great.” 

“I was just asking because a couple of days ago you got into a fight with Jin.” 

Y/N sighed and looked around to make sure no one was able to hear them, “Were okay. He texted me yesterday saying sorry.” 

“Why did you guys fight?” 

“We were discussing the house...he wanted to sell before the wedding and I told him there’s no point in doing that when the wedding was coming up fast. He didn’t like that...” 

Yujin nodded her head and took a sip of her champagne, “Why does he want to sell it so fast?” 

“Because we found another house and he already bought it. He wanted to move in after our honeymoon but he didn’t want to think about our old house when we moved. I get it, I do but you can’t rush things.” 

“He probably just wants to start a new life as a married man. With new memories in the new house and forget about the bad memories in the old one. He is probably doing it for his own peace of mind.” 

Y/N glanced towards Jin and nodded her head, “I suppose.” 

“I just want you to be happy.” 

Y/N’s head snapped at her friend and gave her a confused look, “I am happy.” 

“I know. I just want everything to work out, that’s all.” 

That conversation stayed in Y/N’s head. All through the reception, her memories went back to the fight. Every couple fought, it was bound to happen. She's been with Jin for eight years and things happen but what matters is how they fix it. The old house held so many memories, some good and bad but she took everything as a learning process. She understood why Jin wanted to move into the new house so fast, it's the start of a new chapter but you can’t rush writing. You’ll miss details that can make the chapter better. 

The couple was sitting outside looking out to the small pond on a bench. Jin looked at her with a frown and leaned forward to whisper in her ear, “Are you okay baby?” 

She blinked her eyes and turned towards him, “I’m okay. Why wouldn’t I be?” 

He kissed her cheek and shook his head, “I was just wondering if you were okay. Are you ready to go?”

Her smile that he fell in love appeared and she leaned forward giving him a quick kiss on the lips, “I just love to be with you. I don’t care where we go.” 

“Oh? So, you don’t want to go to Japan?” 

“I never said that.” 

He let out a small laugh and kissed under her ear, “We deserve a vacation.” 

“We do, you’ve been working so hard at the office, Jinnie. I’m so proud of you.” 

“Thank you baby. You helped me through everything.” 

“Hey lovebirds! We're going to have a final toast, let’s go!”  

They turned their heads to see Yoongi giving them a small smirk with his hands in his pocket. They looked at each other with small smiles on their faces as Jin leaned down and placed a kiss on her nose, “We’re coming!”

The couple sat in the plane with others but they didn’t notice the loud chatters. They were lucky enough to get these seats in the first place. They were having trouble affording the plane ride but his parents came in and helped with everything. His parents paid for the plane ride and the hotel while Y/N’s parents paid for some of the activities in Japan. The couple didn’t want this but their parents saw them struggling with the wedding itself, they wanted to give them some relief for the new chapter. Also unknowingly to the couple, the parents were taking care of their old house to sell it before they came back. 

Y/N walked into the hotel first with wide eyes. The hotel was the perfect size for them, it wasn’t too big nor was it too small. She rolled her bag in and ran towards the window with Jin looking at her with an amused look. She ripped open the curtains and the city lights shined against her pupils, “Wow!” 

Jin let out a small laugh and placed his bag next to hers. He slowly made his way towards her but with each step he took, he admired the way the lights highlighted her body. He wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her cheek, “It’s beautiful but it doesn’t compare to you.” 

She rolled her eyes at him and smacked his hand gently, “Jin, shut up. So cheesy.” She unwrapped his arms and he watched with a confused face. She turned her body towards him and gave him a small smile before she grabbed his face and kissed him. He smiled through the kiss and wrapped his arms around her waist as they savored the kiss. She kissed the tip of his nose and headed to the bathroom with a teasing smile. He knew what she was doing. He watched her like a predator and he made his way towards her. Before she could go inside, he grabbed her wrist and pinned her against the wall. She blinked her eyes at him and gave him an innocent look, “Jin, are you okay?” 

“You made me crazy today. Just seeing you in your wedding dress...” He brought his hand to her throat and gently squeezed it, making her whine at his rough touch, “Fuck, baby. I’ve been waiting for so long to be your husband.” 

“And I’ve been waiting to be your wife.”

He pulled her in a kiss and slid his tongue into her mouth making her moan. Her hands went into his hair, tugging at the dark threads as he kissed her harder. Jin moved a bit and leaned them against the nightstand. He lifted her up and pushed everything off the table to place her on it. He stood between her legs and she felt his hard cock against her thigh. Her hand slowly slid down to his chest and hips before pulling him closer by his belt loops.

He let out a small moan and stopped kissing her neck when he felt the small friction. His hands slowly moved towards the back of her dress but she grabbed his wrist. She shook her head at him and glanced at the bed, “Were not going to fuck on the nightstand. It’s too uncomfortable.” 

“Whatever my wife wants, she gets.” 

She smiled at this and pushed him away gently. She unzipped her dress slowly and he watched with wondering eyes. As she slid out her dress, he groaned when he saw his favorite lace against her skin, “Baby, fuck.” When the dress hit the floor, he pulled her closer to him and she let out a moan. She felt his cock against her and he pressed harder into her making her moan louder, “You feel that? Only you make me feel this way.” 

“Jinnie, please...” 

“Who?”

“Daddy...please, I need you.” 

He nodded his head and picked her up bridal style before throwing her onto the bed. She let out a small laugh but that laugh quickly turned into a moan. He tugged at her underwear and he began to kiss her thighs very slowly, teasing her. Without warning, he licked over her clit. She grabbed his head out of shock and moaned loudly. He looked up at her and smirked when he saw the bliss out look. He pushed two fingers into her and she threw her head back with her eyes closed. Before she felt herself let go, he pulled away. 

She frowned at this but to ignore her from the sudden disappointment, she watched him take off his clothes. When his boxers hit the floor, she watched him pleased himself a bit. She bit her lip and shook her head at this, “Jin, you should know...that’s my job.” 

She sat up and leaned forward, replacing his hand with hers. She looked at his closed eyes and smirked to herself. She spit on his tip and continued to stroke him at a slow pace. She pulled him in a kiss as she continued to stroke him. When her thumb slid over his tip, Jin couldn’t help but moan into her mouth. 

He broke the kiss and gently pushed back onto the bed, “Fuck, baby.” He pushed her hand away and slid himself up and down her pussy, wetting himself and teasing her, “Please daddy.” 

He let out a small chuckle and nodded his head, “Whatever my baby wants.” They locked eyes and within the stare, she felt all the love from him and the safety that she once lost was restored with his touch. After years of being with him, she was not truly his. He smiled at her and leaned forward to place a quick kiss on her forehead. Her chest warmed at his silent affection and he pushed himself into her. He began slowly as he leaned forward and placed gentle kisses on her face. She turned her head and they shared a passionate kiss that could make anyone blush. His thrusts were becoming hard and deep now, something she was used to. She dug her nails into his arms and he let out a moan. He leaned forward placing a kiss on her neck, collar bones and then to the tops of her breast. He pushed down her bra and bit one of her nipples, making her fingers go to his hair, “You feel so fucking good.” 

“D-Daddy, you feel s-so good!” 

“Cum for me baby.”

His hand went down to her clit, rubbing it without any mercy making her moan loudly. Within no time, she came over his dick and her legs shook violently. He came right after her and everything stood still. He wanted to curse at himself at what he just did. He didn’t mean to cum into her but she felt so good that he couldn’t pull away. Y/N was on birth control and there’s always plan b waiting to be bought in the store, it’s fine. He placed a kiss on her neck and she pushed some hair from his wet forehead, “Mrs. Kim, was I too rough?”

“No, Mr. Kim. You were perfect. Always perfect.” 

The bliss of her honeymoon can be seen on her face and the small bruises that were hidden away. She stared outside of the airport’s window as the memories hit her once more. Walking around Japan and eating the cuisine was on Jin’s bucket list since forever. She was happy that she was able to do that for him. He brought her to the sea and the two watched the waves crash into each other like a painting. Her mind drifted back to the hot spring incident...

She felt his nails in her skin as he held her by her thighs. Her back was pressed against a rock in the private hotspring. The sound of water was splashing with every movement from them and she felt bad but it quickly disappeared when she felt his cock. His lips moved to her breast and he began to suck while her wet fingers went into his hair, “My wife.” 

“My husband...” her soft pants echoed in the room and their eyes met. They looked into their eyes and saw each other's souls as the stars above them hid away with red faces. Even though they were in the water, he could feel just how wet she was. He brought up one of his hands and gently placed it on her cheek. He gave her a soft smile before leaning forward pressing his lips against hers. Both of their tongues danced with each other as she brought his body closer to hers. His chest was pressed against hers and her legs wrapped tightly around his waist. Small breaths escaped from between them as he continued his attack on her lips, “I love you so much, Y/N.” 

“J-Jin~.” 

She softly moaned before his lips attached to hers again, wanting to savor her moan. The thrust that was steady was now becoming sloppy. Jin felt himself coming and it was more intense then the night before. He broke away from the kiss and he watched as her orgasm took over her, he always loved watching her cum. The warm sensation from his cum was slowly dripping out of her as she tried her best to catch her breath. He leaned  forward and placed his forehead against her shoulder as he let out a small laugh, “I-I wasn’t expecting to fuck here.” 

“M-Me neither.” 

“Y/N, did you hear me?” 

She quickly snapped out of her thoughts and looked at Jin with a confused look, “Huh?” 

He let out a laugh and shook his head. He gently hit the top of her head with the tickets as she pouted at him, “I said, there's a surprise when we get home.” 

“A surprise?”

“Yeah...our parents love to conspire together.”

She let out a small sigh and nodded her head, “Especially our mothers...I hope they don’t do anything crazy.”  

“Y/N, it's our mothers. They probably did something crazy.” 

“H-Have some faith!” 

His eyes widened and then reached into his pocket. She watched with curious eyes but decided not to say anything. He pulled out a cherry blossom charm and gave her a wide smile, “I thought of you when I saw this...I know we couldn’t afford a lot of souvenirs but I wanted you to have this.” 

Eyes looked at the charm and she felt her heartbeat quicken. She felt her eyes creating tears and she gently grabbed the charm, “J-Jin...I love it.” 

He smiled at her and sat next to her. He placed his hand on her knee and kissed her cheek, “I wish I could give you more...”

“No, this is everything to me. I love it so much, Jinnie.” 

“One day, you’ll be covered with diamonds.” 

She shook her head and kissed the tip of his nose, “I don’t care about that. As long as we're together then we’ll be okay.” 

“Even if you married a poor office worker?” 

“I don’t care about that. I love you for you, forever.” 

Before he could say anything to her, the voice on the loudspeaker caught his attention, “Flight 347 is boarding now.” 

“Baby, we need to go.”

“Okay.” 

They walked towards their plane and what they didn’t know was going back home was going to change their relationship forever. 

Five months later 

Silence. It wasn’t comforting, especially during the night. It just made things worse. Jin was overworking because of a project that was recently given to him. Y/N was actually looking for a job during their period of being in their new home. When they got home from the honeymoon, their parents surprised them with a sold sign on their old house. They were so happy that Jin started crying. He felt secured with the extra amount of money that they got but that security quickly slipped away. There were some things in the house that needed to be redone.  

The bathroom downstairs needed a lot of repairs. The toilet wasn’t working and the shower was having issues with plumbing. The master bedroom, the wooden floor was cracking and the walls had cracks in them. They had no idea what happened in the months of the house being prepared for them but whatever happened made everything worse. Jin made it clear that he didn’t want any help from his parents or from hers. He wanted this to be done with themselves, no help but Y/N was worried. It was a lot of stress to put on themselves but it was going to work out, it always does. 

Tonight, Y/N was actually feeling really sick. Two weeks in a row that Y/N was feeling extremely weak and kept throwing up, no matter what she did. She told Jin it was just a stomach flu and it wasn’t that serious but today it felt different. She called Yujin over and she put everything down to come see her. Y/N was very appreciative. 

Yujin walked in the bedroom with a worried look and dropped her purse to the floor to sit next to her on the bed, “Y/N, we should take you to the hospital.” 

“No...Jin would get more worried and stressed, I can’t do that to him.”

“Jin can fuck off right now because your super sick. You need to look after yourself right now.” 

She sighed and glanced at the clock. She saw it was only two and looked back at her friend. She nodded her head and slowly sat up, “I think I should go.” 

“You should listen to me more.” 

“Shut up.”

Remember that thought about silence, it was happening again. The silence in the hospital room made Yujin walk out when she saw the blank expression on Jin’s face. Yujin clapped her hands in excitement and even Y/N looked excited but it all changed when Jin’s silence creeped up on them. The excitement disappeared and what was left was fear. Jin ran his hand through his hair as Y/N glanced down at her pants, she hated silence. 

“J-Jin...everything is going-”

“No, it’s not.” 

She glanced up at him with a shocked face and she saw the anger on his face. She shook her head gently and looked at him with confusion, “Why are you so angry? This was bound to happen...”

“I didn’t think it was going to happen so quickly.”

She scoffed at him and looked at the white walls praying it would give her comfort, “What are you saying?” 

“Y/N, we just bought a house. Shit, it wasn’t even us who bought it. All our lives we had our parents helping us but now we are going to have a baby. You think we can do that.”

She whipped her head at him and gave him a stern look, “Yes I do. I think we can do it because no matter what troubles-”

“Stop with the bullcrap.” 

She scoffed again and looked at the monitor next to her with anger on her face, “This isn’t bullcrap...this is our child we're talking about, Jin.” 

“Well excuse me for not being ready. Financially it's going to be hard, do you have any idea how hard it's going to be!?” 

She looked at him and her glare hardened, “Yes I do know how hard it's going to be. That’s why I was looking for a job.”

“Apparently you didn't look hard enough.” 

“Excuse me!” 

He scoffed at her anger and stood up from his chair to point at her, “You told me don’t worry, I'm going to help you. You think getting pregnant is helping me!?” 

“You're the one that got me pregnant! News flash, that's biology.” 

“I can’t do this right now.”

He gathered his things in a hurry and Y/N slowly jumped down from the bed with her arms crossed, “You're running away? You can’t just run away from this Jin.” 

“Don’t tell me what to do. I need to be away from you.”

“Same here.” 

She watched him walk out and she hugged herself to have some comfort. She wanted to cry but nothing was coming out. She heard the door open and she saw Yujin with a concerned look, “Y/N...”

She let out a small laugh and covered her face, “He wasn’t happy...”

Yujin rushed to her side and wrapped her arms around her waist as Y/N started crying in her chest, “Y/N, it's going to be okay...”

“How can he just leave me like that? I’m his pregnant wife.” 

“Don’t think about it for now. Let’s go back to my place and relax.” 

“Okay, that sounds fun.” 

“Yeah see, fun.”

Yujin collected her bag and Y/N’s coat that was thrown on a chair. She didn’t even realize she tossed it to the side, at least she understands the feeling. They slowly walked out of the building as Y/N looked out into the opening with a blank expression. She was so excited to hear that she was pregnant and it made sense with her fairy tale that she wrote in her head with Jin. She knew they were having money trouble but things will pass, you just have to be patient. 

Jin drove to the one place that he felt that he was welcomed at this moment. He knocked on the door and Taehyung raised his eyebrow at his older brother, “Dude what are you doing here?”

“I needed a break…”

“Trouble in paradise.” Taehyung let out a small laugh but he stopped when he saw the depressed look on his face. “Oh…damn. Come in. The guys are here.”

Great. He let out a deep sigh and walked into the house to see all his friends sitting on the couch with beers in their hands. He took off his shoes and rubbed the back of his neck roughly. Taehyung saw this and frowned at him, “What happened?” 

“Let’s sit down before I say anything. Can I have a beer?” 

“Aren't you driving back?” 

Jin shook his head and headed towards the living room. The first person that saw him was Namjoon, “Jin? What are you doing here?” 

“Before I say anything, I need some alcohol in my body.” 

Jimin handed him a beer with a raised eyebrow, “That means something bad happened.”

Jin grabbed the beer and took a large gulp, making the others watch with wide eyes. He placed the drink on the table and let out a loud sigh, “Y/N’s pregnant.” 

Yoongi smiled at this and put his beer up in the air, “Congratulations.” 

Jin scoffed and leaned back on the couch, “It's not a good thing.” 

Jungkook looked at everyone with a confused look and then back at Jin, “Isn’t that a good thing though?” 

“It's not a good thing. We can barely afford the house we have now and fixing it up is making us lose more money.” 

Hoseok took a drink and nodded his head, “Why don’t you talk to your dad then?”

“No. I don’t need help.”

Taehyung rolled his eyes and took a chip from the bowl, “Why don’t you take the CEO position that dad wants you to take? It would help you out.” 

“I want to do things by myself now. I’m married, I need to support Y/N, myself.” 

Yoongi scoffed at this and shook his head, “So you left Y/N to support her?” 

“Shut up...” 

“Does Y/N know about the CEO position?” 

Jin glanced at Namjoon and shook his head, “No...I never told her.” 

“I think you should rethink that choice, hyung. It could help you guys...think about it.”

“Fine, I'll think about it.” 

The next morning, Y/N entered the house to see Jin sitting in the living room drinking his tea. She sucked in a breath and closed the door quietly, hoping he didn’t hear anything. She slowly put her purse on the table and was slowly going upstairs but his soft voice stopped her halfway, “Y/N...”

She turned her head and glanced at him with a frown, “What?” 

“We need to talk.” 

She scoffed at this and crossed her arms over her chest, “Now you want to talk? You ran away from me.” 

“Y/N, please don’t make this hard.” 

She rolled her eyes and went back down stairs with an annoyed look. She sat on the loveseat next to Jin with her arms crossed, “Talk.” 

He took a deep sigh and placed his tea on the coffee table. He rubbed his hands together, clearly showing he was nervous to talk to her, “I’m sorry for how I acted...I’m just stressed with everything. We can barely afford this house and just thinking about a child on top of everything...it will make everything harder. I honestly thought we would have a kid in a year or two, it feels too early but I can’t do anything to change this. We’ll get through this together.” 

“Your making it sound like having a child is the worst thing, Jin.”

He shook his head and looked at her with a blank expression, “It's not the worst thing...it’s just inconvenient. I’ll get more hours to get us more money to provide for them.” 

“Jin, you should also spend time with them. You're their father.”

“Y/N, I’ll be home at night...even if I’m not at home all that much, I'll make time for them.” 

“Jin, promise me.” 

“I promise.” 

Present day

Sometimes promises are meant to be broken and even if it hurts, there was nothing she could do about it. She opened her eyes and cracked her neck, she didn't even know how long she was asleep. She glanced outside to see the fog was gone and was replaced with the bright sun. She quickly jumped out of the chair and went to the crib to see Jihan gone, her heart dropped. She quickly looked around for any hints of where she was but nothing. She made her way downstairs and saw Jin feeding Jihan but he wasn’t talking to her. He was just feeding her. She didn’t even hear the front door open. She let out a sigh of relief and headed into the kitchen making Jihan eyes widen at her. Jihan made grabby hands towards her and she smiled at her. She walked past Jin and quickly picked up Jihan from the high chair, “Hello my baby.” 

Jihan let out a small giggle and she glanced at Jin who was looking at her with a blank expression. The smile that was on her face was replaced with a frown. She bowed her head at him in an awkward manner, “G-Good morning.” 

“You fell asleep in her room?” 

She wanted to scoff at him but she looked down at Jihan with a smile. She didn’t say anything to him and walked into the living room, ignoring his stare. She sat Jihan on the floor with her toys and smiled when she saw her playing with her blocks. Y/N turned on the television and let the Ads echoed through the silent room. 

She took her phone out and saw that Yujin sent her text. She immediately clicked it but her eyes quickly widened at the image on her screen. It was a picture of Jin with a woman at an office, an office that she didn’t recognize. She was beautiful. She had healthy black hair that reached mid back and enough make-up to highlight her beauty, not cover it. Everything made sense. The long nights of being alone and the mornings where she had conversations with the fog was finally making sense. Jin didn’t love her anymore. She glanced down at her hand and saw that her ring was gone but she didn’t bother getting up to look for it. What was the point? 

She felt a presence next to her and she glanced to see Jin drinking his coffee. She wanted to slap him, after everything they’ve been through. He cheated on her. She shouldn’t be so shocked. The love that was there was now dying and on its last breath. She realized that they were both tired...so tired of trying, that’s why conversations between the two of them were nonexistent. He never looked at her like he used to, she should’ve seen this coming but even the fools have hope and dreams. She felt like throwing up but she ignored this. 

Jin glanced at her and placed his mug on the table, “On Saturday, we're having a party. We're making an announcement and I was wondering if you would like to come with me?” 

She scoffed mentally and looked at Jihan, “Who’s watching Jihan?” 

“Hoseok and Jimin.” 

“I guess I’ll go...”

Jin nodded his head and sighed to himself. He knew he’s been a horrible husband but he was busy with so much that he always took it out on Y/N. He saw how tired she was with taking care of Jihan by herself basically and he hated that. Jihan barely recognized him and it hurt him. Even though he wasn’t the most excited at having a baby, seeing Jihan changed his life. She was the perfect mixture of them but it was clear she had Y/N’s personality. Jin picked up his mug and glanced down at her hand. His heart dropped a bit but he couldn’t blame her. He didn’t treat her like his wife, why would she wear the ring?

She glanced at herself in the mirror and the forest green silk dress looked beautiful on her skin. It was one of the few dresses that fit her still from having Jihan. She glanced down at her empty hand and sighed. She glanced at her wedding ring on her table and she heard the mockery. Putting on the ring used to be the greatest feeling but now it just felt so much work. She picked up the ring and frowned at the silver band, it was a pity because the ring was beautiful with beautiful memories attached to it. Too bad those memories only hurt her. She placed the ring back on the table and stood up to put her heels on. 

The bathroom door opened and it revealed Jin wearing a pristine black suit. He was fixing his cuffs and even though her feelings were mixed towards him, he looked handsome. He didn’t even have to try to look so handsome. She quickly looked away when he lifted his head, not wanting to make eye contact right now. 

“I always loved that dress on you.” 

She nodded her head but continued to buckle her heels, “Thank you...” 

It was awkward between the two. It was so awkward that even Jihan could pick it up and she wasn’t even one yet. Jin looked at her and a smile painted on his face. That green dress held memories, it was the dress that he proposed to her in. He remembers that day like it was yesterday... 

“Jin, why do you keep wiping your hands on your pants? Are you okay?” 

How was he going to answer that? The reason why he kept doing that was because he was so nervous. He was nervous because he was finally going to pop that question, will you marry me? He’s been saving up his money for this ring and he was excited but also extremely nervous. He knew he wanted to marry her after the third date but what if she didn’t feel the same. He let out a small cough and took a sip of tea, “It’s hot.” 

She looked around the cafe with a raised eyebrow, “Jin, it's winter.” 

“The heater is high, that’s why.” 

“Do you want me to ask to turn it down?” 

He shook his head and let out a small laugh, “No, baby. I’m fine...but I do have a question to ask.”

She tilted her head at him with a curious look, “Go on.” 

He sighed to himself and put his hand in his coat pocket, making sure he had the box ready. He glanced at her and smiled, “You're the greatest thing that has happened to me. You made the nights easier with just a simple touch...Every day the confusion I had towards life disappears and I see clarity whenever I see you. In a world full of darkness, you always made sure there was light...my favorite star, will you marry me?” 

He took out the ring and Y/N glanced down at the ring with wide eyes. Tears were forming as she was speechless for the first time in her life. A single tear dropped and she glanced at him with a smile, “J-Jin...of course. I will marry you!” 

They sat in the car with the radio being the conversation between them. She glanced at the window and watched the city lights paint the night sky as Jin drove the car. She missed his touches during every car ride they would share. The way he placed his hand on her knee that sent shivers down her spine was now replaced with shivers out of sadness. She missed him so much and it hurt even more because he was next to her. That’s when her mind decided to take control of her mouth, when her thoughts became too much, “Let’s get a divorce.” 

Jin’s eyes widened at this and stopped the car roughly at the stop light. He glanced at her to see her staring out the window still, “Y/N what?” 

“I said...let’s get a divorce. After this party, we should discuss a divorce.” 

“Y/N, no. We don’t need to discuss that...”

“Why do you want to keep suffering? I already know you have someone else in your life...it would be easier to let me go and I do the same before the hurt gets worse.” 

He looked at her with confusion and shook his head, “I only have you in my life, Kim Y/N.” 

“If you say so...I still want to talk about a divorce.” 

“Y/N-” He was cut off with a horn behind him and cursed underneath his breath. He drove the car forward but it was hard when he was stopping the tears from trailing down. Y/N is his everything, the love of his life...he can’t picture his life without her. The past few months have been hard but divorce...he couldn’t let that happen. He shook his head and turned the car to the side and parked it. 

“What are-”

“I don’t want a divorce.” 

Y/N turned her head to glance at him and her eyes widened when she saw tears falling down his face. She wanted to reach out to wipe them away but she thought that would be inappropriate to do that. She stood there frozen as she watched him cry, “Jin...”

“I-I know it's been hard...I’ve been working so hard to transform into a CEO for us...to give us a better life.” 

She looked at him with a confused look and furrowed her eyebrows, “CEO?”

He nodded his head and wiped his tears away, “This whole time I’ve been working for the new CEO position that I’m taking. That was the big announcement...I wanted to surprise you but I knew that it wouldn’t fix anything between us I-I-I...”

“Jin take a deep breath.” 

He did what he was told and leaned forward grabbing her hands, “Y/N, I-I can’t lose you. I’ll never stop loving you no matter what. If we fight through this, we’ll be stronger together. I already have you but I-I want to know you again. I can’t control you or what your heart will decide but just know I will never stop loving you. No matter what.” 

She stared at him with a frown and her heart felt the jump that she hasn’t felt in a long time. She glanced down at the dress skirt and let a tear drop, “Give me time to think...”

He bit his lip and nodded his head as he let more tears come down, “O-Okay...” 

The car drive was filled with silent tears that gave the rain against the window competition. Y/N glance at the dark sky with her face covered with tears, thank god she didn’t wear make up tonight. Jin wasn’t better but he was better at hiding his tears that she didn’t even know if he was crying. When the car stopped, they both took a deep breath and got out of it. Everything was slow motion. When she got out of the car her eyes immediately went to Jin who was already looking at her. She quickly looked away from his gaze and grabbed her coat. They made their way into the great hall and Jin kept glancing down at her hand with pure sadness, “Is that why you took off your ring?”

She looked at him with wide eyes and hid her hand under her coat, “You noticed?” 

“I notice everything about you...even the things you think I wouldn't.”

“Mr. Kim.”

She glanced to see the woman from the picture smiling at the two of them. She glared at the woman but Jin didn’t notice. He bowed his head and gave her a smile, “Y/N, this is Min Sejeong, my assistant for my new CEO position.” 

Sejeong turned towards Y/N and bowed her head at her, “Good evening, Mrs. Kim.” 

Y/N forced a smile on her face and bowed her head at her, “Good evening, Mrs. Min.” 

Sejeong glanced at Jin and smiled, “We need to go to the stage and get ready for the announcement, sir.” 

“A-Ah of course. Neh, Y/N..sit in the front. It's reserved for you.” 

She didn’t say anything and she didn’t even nod her head at him. She just walked towards the table ignoring their stares. Sejeong looked at him and sighed, “Still trouble?” 

“It’s going to be fixed, don’t worry.” 

Y/N went towards the table and her eyebrow furrowed when she saw Yoongi sitting there drinking his whiskey. She quickly made her way towards him and sat there with shock, “Yoon?” 

He turned his head at her and smiled, “Ah, Y/N. It feels like it's been forever since I saw you.” 

“You know where I live...”

He rolled his eyes and set his glass on the table, “Don’t be a smartass.” 

“What are you doing here?” 

“My wife is introducing Jin as the new CEO.”

“WIFE!?” 

Yoongi winced at her yell and nodded his head, “Yes my wife...” 

She smacked his shoulder and glared at him, “When did you get married? Why wasn’t I invited to the wedding?” 

“I got married last year and it was at the courthouse. Jin didn’t even know I was married until last month.” 

She shook her head and looked down at the table with shock, “S-So...Jin’s not cheating on me?” 

“Jin? Cheating on you? Never, he loves you too much to do that.” 

“You must know the hard time we're going through right now...”

Yoongi shrugged his shoulders and took a sip of his whiskey, “I know but I know Jin would never cheat on you. He’s been cold to everyone because he's been busy with his CEO shit. Don’t worry, I already yelled at him for that.” She let out a small laugh and took a sip of her water as Yoongi smiled at her, “Every couple has their rough patches...it's how you fix or change things to make the relationship better. I know Jin loves you, he loves you so much that he swallowed his pride and asked his father for the CEO position.” 

Her eyes widened and looked at Yoongi, “H-He did that?” 

“Yeah, I’m not saying this to forgive him. I’m saying it because it's the truth, it doesn’t excuse his actions though. He wants to give you everything in this world, Y/N...that man loves you so much it's disgusting.” 

“Really?”

“Really.” 

After the announcement, Y/N grabbed Jin’s hand and headed out to the balcony and they didn’t care that it was raining. She looked at him with tears going down, “I-I don’t want to lose you Jin.”

“Y-Y/N.”

“Let me talk...” He nodded his head at her and she grabbed his hands gently, “I already have you but I feel like things got in the way. I feel like I don’t know you anymore. I miss you even though you were so close to me, at one point you were next to me and I still missed you. I-I wanna know you again...I want to restart with you...Jin, I-I-I...I love you. We have to restart for Jihan and us.” 

He leaned forward and placed his forehead against hers and nodded his head, “I’ll do anything for us...our family means everything to me. I-I’m sorry that I’ve been a horrible husband and father...you guys don’t deserve that.” 

“That’s the past...let’s focus on the future. We’ll get through this and win.”

“Y/N, do you want to be my wife?”

She smiled and her hot breath was against his cold wet lips, “Yes.”

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Yoongi gets extra clingy and too handsy while you’re whippin’ in the kitchen. And to Jungkook and Jimin’s dismay.

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Sun rays through the rain.

⇢ jimin x reader

⇢ angst.

⇢ word count: 3.1k

⇢ warnings: jimin says some mean stuff, jimin's mom is hinted at being verbally abusive but its not talked about much, this is all in jimin's pov, it's a bit poetic and i hope that isn't annoying :(, but besides that there's not much warnings.

⇢ summary: sunlight is something we all tend to love especially when we’re cold and want something natural to warm us. Sunlight can warm our skin but it can also warm our hearts and that is what you did for Jimin. You were his sunlight but too bad Jimin is a storm. Though he is a storm jimin never thought he was the very thing you said, he never thought he was mean. 

This is a quick little angst fic I wrote because I was feeling sad but wanted to write something with a bit of beauty in the words. I wanted to write something where we see the pov of one of the boys going through a bit of pain and inner turmoil. I was thinking if this should be a two shot but hmm idk! But as always thank you for reading! ^~^ reblogs and feedback are always greatly appreciated! <3

One thing Jimin hates about you is that when you enter a room you grab everyone's attention, even his. If it's not your looks it's your aura and if it's not because of your aura it's because of your smell. Wine soaked cherries a perfume you made at a perfume making class. It's something he didn't even know existed but you told him about the whole experience one night.

He likes the scent and so do others. It's a scent so sweet with an edge that makes people want to explore more. It's unique for you to be in this setting, you don't come out with them too much but then again you probably come out like a normal person does. Jimin is the one who goes out any chance he can get.  

He hasn't seen you or talked to you in about two months yet he thinks about you everyday. Even in class you asked the professor if you could change seats. Which he granted you without asking you why because you were such a good student he assumed jimin was the problem which he wasn't wrong.

Now a girl named Sana sits by him and though she is cute, she isn't you. She doesn't make the class tolerable like you did and though she does give him the answers she doesn't do it like you did, with a bit of teasing that resulted in him having a laugh.

The reason for this all though is his fault and he knows that he knows he's an idiot he knows that he doesn't often think before doing and that his image is seen as many things. Some are true, some aren't. See everyone knows jimin sleeps around often and he admits he does. Everyone also knows that Jimin doesn't do commitment if he sees you more than once you're not supposed to feel special because you aren't.

Jimin is honest with the people he sleeps with, telling them flat out that they aren't anything to him but a person he sleeps with. He likes to say it's because he's a good guy and is honest but there's a difference between being honest and being rude. What Jimin flat out told you was rude and not honest at all. 

If people think jimin is honest they would be correct but only slightly. There's many things people think about him but ever since he met you you didn't think anything about him. Saying things like “yeah i've heard about you but that doesn't mean i know you so why would i assume things about you?”

You and Jimin began talking because you both had biology together, a class that was mandatory for you both. Jimin hates it but when he got seated next to you he thought the class was a bit more bearable simply because you smelled nice. At first jimin wasn't interested in you, you were too shy and to jimin you were boring.

You didn't seem like you did anything fun or well what he considered fun. You told him you mostly just hang out with your friends and do friend dates, you told him that you treasure your friendships and love being around them. You told him about how you like to spend time alone and do things like cuddling up in bed and doing little hobbies. Jimin thought it was lame but didn't say it just nodded along. 

It's cute in a way how you do those things but he didn't find them interesting.When he thought that he knew a part of him was lying about what you do for fun because in general it seems fun in its own way and seems peaceful. Also it’s not that you were boring he guess it's just to jimin you just weren't the type of person he would hang around too often because he liked the funner things.

Like going out often to places that weren't cafes and parks, he liked being around his friends though so you guys had that in common. He couldn't help but ask if you ever hook up with people or get in relationships but you timidly shook your head at that. “It's a bit embarrassing, I guess to like someone and confess. So if i ever like someone i don't confess it's just a bit too scary and pointless because i often am scared i'm unlikable you know?” you admitted shyly.

Jimin reassured you that that's a normal worry and that you'll do it someday he even reassured you in a teasing manner that you aren't entirely unlikable which made you giggle. Though you guys have that in common you have one thing that you listed that he can't get behind. He didn't like being alone it's something he hates. He told you that once and you asked him why that is but he didn't answer you.

Too personal and too serious because what if he did tell you? What if he told you he hated being alone because he isn't the company who he wants to be with? That being alone makes him think too much to where it feels like even in his quiet apartment there are so many things taunting him and being said. 

so he just said because he likes people. Which isn't a lie but it isn't the truth either. To jimin's surprise you guys had mutual friends so you can guess how surprised he was to see you at a party talking to hoseok who was laughing at something you said. He walked over and said that he didn't know you knew hoseok to which you teased that there's a lot of things he doesn't know about you.

That day is what started a friendship between the two of you. Jimin happened to see you more often around campus, with his friends, or even out in public. He tells himself it's just a coincidence and it's not that he happens to seek you out sometimes if he thinks you'll be around. 

He came to figure out that you have such a nice personality, it's bright and reminds him of sunlight. Not the sun itself because that would hurt people if they got too close and you wouldn't do that. You are sunlight because you warm those close to you and even those who aren't. You bring comfort to those around you and everyone would agree with him if he said that outloud.

Jimin liked spending time with you, he thinks you are the only person he can be himself around completely. Though in the end even sunlight must dim when a storm appears. 

Jimin knows he is the storm and wishes he was nothing but a bit of rain but he is the kind of storm that shakes the house with thunder or at least that is how he feels. People assume things and things spread quickly so when it started being spread that jimin must like you because of how he stays around you and treated you, that angered him. You breaking what he had built up around himself, to others, and around his heart angered him. That night he wrote in his journal about it and to his surprise the very thing he wrote about happened. 

When you told jimin you liked him he was proud of you for telling him because you wouldn't of  done that before and have told him you don't confess when you like someone so he feels happy that you did with him but he also wishes you wouldn't have because maybe than he wouldn't have to come face to face with the very things he's scared of. Commitment, love, and hurting you.

When you told jimin you liked him the first thing he did was laugh and even now the look on your face at the sound makes his heart break. The very memories of that day hurt him so he knows how you must feel. If this hurts then you must feel shattered. First, Jimin simply told you he didn't like you back but Jimin just couldn't close his mouth. Jimin couldn't understand when it's time to be the face he upholds vs when it's time to be himself to be jimin, your jimin.

Jimin could have left it at that, that he didn't like you back but he was scared and angry that this was even happening. It's as if the universe read what he wrote in his journal last night and decided to throw it in his face. 

“You think anyone would like you like that? Romantically? I mean come one y/n especially someone like me? You are so fucking boring its almost insufferable.” Jimin knew you hated being called boring and that you hated being seen as someone who people don't enjoy being around but he can't seem to shut up only thinking of things that can cause venom because he doesn't know if his heart is beating out of love for you or hatred.

He doesn't register the venom he is spitting as he is only thinking through his anger but he believes it's not to you, it's to himself. 

“The people I usually go for aren't people like you. You may be nice but is that enough for someone to like you? Love and like isn't just about chance, you have to be likable to be liked whether that be in looks or personality and to put it kindly you just aren't likable.” he said at you incredulously as if he can't believe you even thought of confessing to someone like him.

“Think before you just do what you want to next time, okay?” He says with a laugh that feels so degrading even to himself. Once he finished what he said it didn't even register that the words he spewed were all words you shared with him. Were all worries you shared about yourself, insecurities you trusted him with. Yet even after all of what he said the only thing you did was nod and go to walk away with a look he's never seen you sport.

A look as if the sun didn't have the moon to help it shine, a look as if the sun didn't want to be itself anymore. That look haunts jimin but what haunts him more is the words you said to him 

“I may not be likable Jimin and I may be insufferable but at least I'm myself, at least I'm not mean.” 

Mean, you called jimin mean. Such a small word that many people don't think of using to others because some see it as childish but he thinks that's the worst thing you could have called him. Sure you could have called him rude, a dick, an asshole but mean? Jimin didn't think he was mean and he never wanted to be mean to people, especially not you. Especially not his sunshine. 

After that day Jimin didn't see you around and he didn't see you in class for at least a week. The thing though is Jimin didn't text you or call you, he didn't try to apologize. He thought that if he called you it would be more damaging. He didn't want to cause anymore pain and because he was scared. Jimin isn't what people crack him up to be, he's more fragile than people think and you knew that.

You knew Jimin was fragile and you treated him with a gentleness that he's never felt. You were attentive to things he didn't even know about himself. You cared about him and Jimin hasn't felt that in a long time and that's what scared him, what scares him. 

Jimin likes you and he know that. He likes you so much he almost wants to say it's love with how much it hurts, with how much it scares him. He's not the only one who knows he likes you, his friends know and he hasn't even said anything to them it just shows. it shows in the way he held your hand when you tried to wear large heeled heels down that stairs for the first time.

Which he notices you wearing tonight as you talk to some guy who is definitely flirting with you but you don't even seem to notice and if you do that seems to make his chest ache.

It showed in the way he let you come to his house with coloring books and matching pajamas in the middle of the night because he was bored and it was totally not because he wanted to spend time with you and it comforted him knowing you were safe and near him after you told him about your new neighbor who seems to be an angry guy.

Sue him for being a protective person, but it mostly showed in the way Jimin smiled around you, in the way he laughed and shined as himself as jimin. When his friends told him this and these things he denied it claiming you guys were simply just friends that he didn't like you like that and couldn't see himself doing so but even saying such a lie made him feel as if he was deceiving you. 

Jimin finds himself in his apartment alone tonight, the very thing he used to talk to you about, about how much he hated it and you would come over. If you couldn't come over you would call him and talk, jimin appreciated that he appreciated you. He liked seeing you tonight even if you didnt talk to each other, even if he wasn't in your world there because you were still in his.

So as he sees the journal he passes by everyday and hasn't picked up in two months thinking it was a book of magic. He would consider it a curse, a bully for doing the very thing he feared. Tonight though he doesn't ignore it he opens it to see the last thing he wrote. The last thing he thought before he was evil before he was mean. 

“She's the sun and though I seek warmth I'm scared to get burnt. I don't want to get burnt as I am someone with skin that doesn't heal well on its own and that is what I am, on my own. I am alone in this field yet when the sun comes out I no longer feel that. The sunshine that helps me find my way as if it were the moon, the sunlight that acts as my compass, the sunlight that gives him energy to be."

"She is a tiny nail that can break glass yet she is also the glue to the glass that's broken. I'm scared of the sun and I am scared of her. I don't like such things as love and I don't like such things as relationships or so I say. I know that it is what I crave. I know it is what I want but I have to be brave to have such things and I am not brave.” 

Jimin feels himself tear up at that. He isn't brave, he isn't someone who can be themselves freely, talk to others freely and as himself. Jimin’s honest but only in things that have no meaning. Like sex with strangers, like with his favorite color to those he hooks up with, or like to his mom when she asked him if he thought he was a mistake.

Jimin had told her no because he wanted to appear indifferent to her words but Jimin thinks that holds no meaning because even if he told his mom he did believe he was a mistake she would have still been unsatisfied with his answer. 

“I have to be brave to love someone as bright as the sun yet I am tarnished in oil that would damage it and darken it. I want the sun's love. I want the sun's light but am I worthy of such warmth? Am i worthy of calling such a beautiful thing mine? In the end the only questions I have for myself daily is why am I so broken? why cant i love but most importantly why aren't i worthy?” 

Jimin thinks he's worthy of some things. Such as seeing a pretty flower when he walks the street or having a dog wag its tail at him to show his excitement but jimin is also not worthy of many things. Like being praised for his strength when he is weak, like being told he is kind hearted when he questions that every day now and he is definitely not worthy of you and your love. 

“If i had one wish it would be to always be the person i am when i am with her because  that person is someone i am proud of, someone i can say isn't a mistake. If I had two wishes I'd wish to be the very person she would confess too but if I had a third wish I’d wish for her to never feel the same and for a confession to never happen. As I am now out of wishes I can not wish for the very thing that could solve this all."

"It's not to know how to love as I can learn, it's not to learn how to be myself as I can try. It is simple yet not simple at all. The very last thing I wish to wish for is to be lovable but as I have no more wishes I can't say those words and only fear and anger lay in its place.”

Jimin loves you he's sure of it but Jimin thinks he is many things but the main thing he can't seem to shake even as the words that were ingrained in him were long ago and by someone long gone, Jimin is not lovable and thinks he might never be. Now Jimin knows he also is another thing, Jimin is mean and he thinks that's the one thing he wished you never said. Though he can't be angry at your words because like everything else it's his fault. 

Though it seems your light still has some effect because as he reads this he feels something like a want in him and that want is to grow. He wants to grow into a flower that can shine under the sun. a flower the sun can be proud of. Seeing you tonight is bittersweet, you were there yet he has no right to talk to you. One day though, Jimin will be better and have the prettiest petals you've seen. Jimin will grow and he hopes you'll still be there shining when he does.

okay u can’t do this to my poor heart please give us a pt3 i’m in my knees begging you.

You all wanted angst you get angst 🤧

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He's yet again sitting on the corner of his bed, head in his hands. There's a cardboard box filled with all of your stuff- and it's not even halfway full. Why did he never notice how little stuff you have? How come you seem to have fewer toys and possessions apart from clothes than his dog?

You're currently staying with the girls- and he wonders how you do. It's hard on him because this - the home without you and just filled with the tapping of claws of bam who's occasionally roaming around - is way more calm to him than if you were here. It hurts because it just seems to show him that you really do not fit his life any longer.

And it gets worse when he clicks through videos and pictures on his laptop.

A video backstage, back when you were still a little spooked by fireworks. He's holding down your ears for you, your back pressed against his front as you watch the colorful sparks in the sky with him. They reflect in your eyes, and he watches his past self grin down at you, remembers how glad he was to be able to bring you along.

A set of pictures taken on a train. They're very old - still from the first weeks you'd stayed with him. You're asleep next to your and his bags on the seats across from him, worn out from your first big trip with him. There's still the piercing yellow from your anxiety collar around your neck. You've not worn it for a long time- It's now in the cardboard box, together with the other two collars you own.

Another video. It's the old practice room - you're holding onto his hands as he pulls you around the floor, your laughter filling the room as well as some staff's as well. Every time he stops, you just stare up at him, tail wagging wildly, and you're breathing quickly from the excitement. In another video, he can see you lazily play with the straps of his bag, while he's busy picking something out of the fluff of your curly tail. He doesn't remember what it was. Assumes it was a twig, maybe.

A video of you running in a huge open field, chasing after some wild ducks that fly away from you, as you laugh happily. At the call of your name, you turn around, morning fog hiding you a little - but you quickly become clearer as you run full speed back to him. You're again wearing the neon-colored anxiety collar - one that he can see his hand adjust while he holds the phone to record you. "We should get you a new one." His past self tells you. "You're not scared anymore, right?" The younger Jungkook chuckles, and you proudly nod before attacking him with a hug.

Videos become less and shorter the more time passes. The last photo he's got on this laptop is of you watching something on your tablet with your cheeks all puffy from the marshmallows you're snacking on. It's a hotel room, he notices. He doesn't remember taking that picture, though.

He feels terrible.

He could blame it on being busy. On life just changing, on growing up maybe - but the fact that there's an increase in images and videos of Bam as soon as yours stop forces him to realize that his priorities changed, simply put.

He's begun to take you for granted. He got too comfortable in thinking you'd always be there. His interest may even have faded.

He feels terrible.

He doesn't want to give either up. Neither you, nor his new pet- but he's also aware that it really can't go on like this. He has to make a decision as hard as it might be for him.

He gets up to get his dog's leash, the puppy happily jumping at him at the prospect of a walk.

And he feels terrible.