I Really Relate To This, I'm Aromantic Asexual, But Sometimes I Feel Like I'm Not Asexual Enough To Call

I really relate to this, I'm aromantic asexual, but sometimes I feel like I'm not asexual enough to call myself asexual, and very often the aroace community is treated like a minor part of the lgbtq community to the point where a lot of the people I know don't even know what it means.

how do I explain my feeling of being a bit disconnected from the aro/ace and rest of lgbt community?

I’m Aegoromantic/sexual which means I enjoy seeing others in relationships. I see so many other aroaces saying ‘why are all things love?’ I agree, id prefer some people to just be friends. But then it’s things like ‘Why’s this song about love?’ I know why. ‘What does this mean?’ I know what it means. It just feels disconnecting, I guess. I know I’m still apart of the community, but it just seems so tough. I’ve also never met another Aroace in real life, so I don’t have a real person to talk with this about. It’s just tough. Then, the lgbt community, it’s still toxic often, even if it tries to be accepting. That’s how the world works, even sometimes oppressed oppress others. I guess I feel romantically detached. I’m trans, but only few know that. Romance is just a tough thing, people don’t care as much about gender as they use too, but everyone has always cared about romance. I like romance, even if I don’t want it for myself. I mean, I don’t know.