My Lifes Purpose To Let LGBTQIA+ People Know That They Are Loved By God. They Are Not Broken. They Deserve

My life’s purpose to let LGBTQIA+ people know that they are loved by God. They are not broken. They deserve love, safety, good health, and self-compassion. You are not a sinner just for being who you are. You are a Child of God and that will never change.

There are 49 anti-gay verses in the New Testament of the Bible.

49 roads I have traveled

49 battles I’ve won 49 times I have fallen into the arms of Jesus the Son

For we have walked each verse together My loving Saviour and I Each page of Holy Scripture

He has always been by my side

He was with me for every sermon Every threat of judgement above Every verse taken out of its context Every weaponised denial of love

Jesus kept the Bible open Listened to every doubt Whispered love between every chapter Hidden voices let the will of God out

And narratives that had been used To hide who I was in sin Shed the scales from the eyes of their stories And let LGBT people in

When I could see I saw Jesus My uncondemning mother hen Who gathered me under her feathers And released me to freedom again

And as I grew up I found others Who had walked the same journey as me All of them had met the same Saviour Who had shown them the way to be free

A community filled with the Spirit A people of love and the Word A group of spiritual veterans Who have battled with all they have heard

Who train and support other warriors Who patch up the wounded and heal them Who mark the way of the route to the Lord And praise and rejoice and reveal them

So if in your biblical scorecard You hold against me this 49 I hold in return all my years with my Lord I know I am His and He is mine.

Soo since school is beginning again for many of us, I thought I would compile a masterpost of every self care method possible to ease your way back into things! 

Stress and Anxiety Reduction

Declutter your space- Clear out all trash, make your bed, and make your desktop space clear. This will make for a cleaner head. 

Put yourself in a happy place- Do yoga, take a power nap, whatever you need to put yourself in the most positive head space possible 

Put your health first- To state the obvious, drink plenty of water, get enough sleep, and keep up with your personal hygiene. But this also counts for mental health. Put yourself first, your hobbies, your passions, and anything you do to keep yourself sane. Buy yourself nice treats as a reward after completing tough tasks, or reward yourself with anything you like doing. 

Stress Reduction masterpost 

Puppy cam 

Kitten Cam 

Bunny Cam 

Silk Art

Guided Relaxation 

Creative Activities 

Planning 

Make a bullet journal- A bullet journal can really help you plan out your days/weeks/months to a T and help you stay organized. A lot of stress can be caused by a frantic and unknown schedule, and planning can ease a lot of that.

Take a moment out of your day to sit down and schedule everything out- Take time out of your day to write down what your day has in store. What times are you free? What times are you working, studying, eating, ect…? Make a list of everything your doing then translate that into a bullet journal, planner, or anything else you use to plan.  

How to bullet journal 

Printables 

Planning your time

Creating a schedule 

How to schedule your time 

The Pomodoro Method 

Pomodoro Timer 

Apps (x)(x)(x)

Sounds

Brain.fm (specifically engineered sounds for sleep, focus. ect…)

Sing me to sleep

Soundrown

Sound of waves 

Masterpost of study playlists

Coffeeshop noises

Rainymood

Mental Health 

What to do when you’re having an anxiety attack 

How to study when mentally ill 

Suicide Hotline

Mental Health Resources 

What to do on a bad day

Things to do when feeling gross

Coping Skills

Panic and Anxiety Masterpost

A self care guide

Self care checklist 

Emergency compliment 

Studying with Depression 

-Sieanna xo

So, something I've come to realize, is that I'm not actually genderfluid like I thought I was. I'm definitely a trans guy through and through (he/him), and it's been a little hard for me to come to terms with (thank you traditional gender roles and how that applies to life in the church /sarcasm).

I think, for me personally, I was using the term genderfluid as a way to not have to come out completely. If I believed my own gender to be fluid, that means there would be a part of me that was a woman, and I could go about my life pretending that my individual femininity meant I'm a woman in some way shape or form even though I never really felt that way, and that seemed to be what a few members of my family wanted, and I just wanted to please everyone and not rock the boat.

But I've come to realize I can't keep hiding behind terms that simply don't fit me. I can't lie to myself about who I am, and more importantly, I can't lie to God about who I am, either. He already knows every part of me. He knows my heart and soul, even when I try to hide it. But I think that means He also loves every part of me, even this part -- after all, He is the one who made me.

I'm thankful for my journey of self discovery. I feel like so many things have finally started to connect about me when before I felt like nothing about me made sense. I feel closer to my Lord and Saviour than I ever have, probably in my entire life.

I don't know why God made me or any other person trans (weather they be binary or otherwise) or gay or bi or anything else, but I trust that it's a part of His plan for me, and I rejoice in the truth of His everlasting love.

This Pride Month I pray that all of my LGBTQIA+ brothers and sisters and siblings in Christ feel loved and accepted and confident in not only who they are, but also in the love of our God. He made us exactly who we're meant to be, even if our journeys look a little different next to other Christians. I pray everyone stays safe, whether you're out marching in a parade or silently celebrating in your heart.

Happy Pride Month! God bless! 🏳️‍🌈💕

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

~ Romans 8:38-39

(That's probably my favorite Bible verse for when I need the reminder that nothing can make God stop loving me, and I'm sure other LGBTQIA+ Christian's could use the reminder, too ❤)

#Truth!

I got myself a new Bible yesterday and I'm really excited to start using it! It's a standard Bible that I got at Walmart, and to others it's probably nothing special--navy blue imitation leather, King James Version, red letters for the words Jesus spoke and full color maps in the back. It cost around $14 after tax. The print is a comfortable size, and there's a blue ribbon page marker. It's just a nice, standard Bible, not even mildly fancy like my family Bible that's white imitation leather with illustrations throughout and gold trimmed pages that was passed down from my great grandmother, to my mother, and then to me a few years ago.

So why am I so excited about this Bible?

Because it's the first Bible I've gotten since coming out as a trans man.

It feels like a fresh start with my journey of faith. I've honestly strayed away from my other Bibles (a Hands On one that I got when I entered Sunday School; a children's Bible with nice illustrations but small print that was a gift for mt fifth birthday from our then-Pastor's wife; a small pink New Testament Bible that was a gift to my late father from myself when I was in elementary school). They all have my deadname written inside, and it felt too much like those copies weren't really for me. It was more like they were for the little girl and young woman people thought they were gifting them to.

But this new copy of God's word is a new start. It doesn't erase my past with the Church or my previous struggles with faith due to being trans and gay. It doesn't take away the sleepless nights of wondering who I am and why God made me this way, or the angry, tear-filled prayers to a God that, at the time, I wasn't even sure was listening. But it is a starting point for myself to really move forward from that, to let myself let go of some of the baggage I've been carrying in my faith life and start a new journey, this one filled with self love and joy instead of despair and grief for a girl who never even really existed in the first place. Every time I see my correct name in the front, it's a little reminder to myself that I'm the only one who can define who I am and my relationship with the Lord. My faith is my own, and no one else gets to dictate it.

I've been highlighting some favorite verses of mine throughout the day with colored pencils and exploring some of the maps, and I've started reading Genesis, too! I promised myself I would read the Bible this year, and I'm grateful that I can do it with a brand new one that I can use moving forward! 💙