My Lid's A Bit Special

My lid's a bit special

I had a dream last night that I was about to die and my only regret was that I wasn't going to be able to finish posting on Ao3.

What I told my dad when he asked: It was a rehash of 2016, but with really bad Joker imitations instead of the killer crucis clowns everyone was scared of

Don't apologize for being true to yourself. Don't you ever apologize to assholes.

Those feelings aren't for you, and that's fine. Those feelings, believe it or not, aren't for a lot of people. It may seem morally imperative to be a horny freak, but it's not. It's a social construct based on what the majority favors and approves.

It's honestly heartbreaking that we have to pick sides. As you said, we (the LQBTQIA+ Community) are all on the same side. We should be banding together to fight puritan assholes. We should be working together for our rights. If any one of our identities gets squandered, so do the others. We're supposed to be on a team, even if we don't follow social conformities. Especially because we don't. No expression for one leads to no expression for any.

I hate that the pressure is killing you. I hate that it's even being thrust upon you and myself and everyone like us. I will die on the hill that says we're supposed to be a team. I will shove it in the face of anyone who disagrees.

You, my dear, have done enough. You are doing enough. If people can't see that- If people are trying to force you into being something you're not, then they aren't deserving of your company. Call a duck a duck. Call a mold a mold. Being a "horny freak" is still a socially conforming mold that everyone feels the need to force everyone else into.

You aren't a bad queer person for being yourself. Neither am I, and neither is anyone else.

I know you probably didn't put this out here as an invitation for a conversation, but I couldn't go buy without at least [trying to] reassuring you. Being yourself is all anyone should ever ask of you.

And, hey, if people give you shit for it, I'm on your side. We may not have the exact same views on everything, but we're still a part of the same team. This is my olive branch.

(Plus, I've been told I'm a scary person. I'm not a dog person, but I can extend the Scary Dog Privileges to you??)

Look, I'm sorry, okay?

I'm sorry I don't make NSFW content of any kind. I know it's a moral imperative to be a horny freak, and I've tried, but I'm incapable of it. The feelings everyone else has aren't there for me.

I don't think porn should be banned, I'm not some "think of the children"-ass puritan, honestly those people usually hate asexuals too. We're on the same side. We're both a threat to the status quo. We're both doing anything other than settling down and being traditionally married with kids. If your expressions of identity get censored, so do mine.

So believe me when I say that it's fucking killing me to not be able to fight beside you. Believe me when I say that I wish I was anything else besides what I am so I could fill the internet with smut in defiance of everyone who wants to sanitize it. But I can't. I can't. It just isn't in my nature.

I'm sorry. I know I'm a bad queer person. I'm sorry.

My favorite of the Batfam

1. Jason

2. Alfred/Dick

3. Dick/Alfred

While we're on the topic, I am female through and through, but Jason is gender goals. Dick is also gender goals. Alfred is just goals.

My favorite Batman character:

Red Hood

Am I biased? Probably. Do I care? Not in the slightest. #JusticeforJason

Sometimes I gotta remind myself that I opened myself up to criticism from strangers when I decided to post on the internet.

I think a lot of people need this reminder, too

Me: Jokingly complains about dad getting more food than me

Mom: "I could throw up mine and you could eat that."

Me: "No thanks, that's disgusting." *puts plate of food I was rather looking forward to in fridge* "Lost my appetite, I'll eat later."

Why am I suddenly in the wrong in this situation?

I've reacted like this before to hearing people chew or slurp and shit.

Why am I the bad guy???

Genuinely confused and hungry, but I'm not hungry enough to eat. Looks like it's soggy burger for a midnight snack, bois