I try to do art and talk with people. am bad at it. mostly mdzs fandom. certified villain lover
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so oooo many people in so many fandoms are holding themselves back from the art they want to create because they fear The Discourse and it's the most depressing thing ever like PLEASE stop clipping your own wings and create whatever art you want to. whyyy do we have to live in a panopticon it's so frustrating just make whatever!! be free!!!!!!
my favorite part of the jin guangyao & nie huaisang dynamic that seemingly every fic ignores is that jin guangyao genuinely thought of nie huaisang as incompetent and annoyingly whiny. he didn't realize at ALL until the very end that he was being intentionally played.
he mightâve recognized that huaisang has potential when he actually puts his mind to things. but jin guangyao honestly believed across two decades that huaisang at most was rich, pampered, and pathetically ill-prepared.
it came as a nasty, hysterical shock to jin guangyao that the little brother of the man he killed had actually 1) figured out at any point what he did 2) kept his bitter vicious rage inside and secretly wished him dead 3) brought that to fruition with a skillful mix of planning, improv, and making others do the dirty work of publicly exposing everything for him.
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mdzs villains are so much its like *guy with the most fucked up and complex power trip caused by years of weird psychosexual issues coming at him from all angles all the time until he snapped and started interior decorating hard enough to get away with a bunch of murders and political successions* *guy whos never known human compassion in all his life so the second he is remotely cared for he starts making the person serial kill about it and he gets legitimately surprised when the person does not take it very well* *guy whos Evil from the Evil clan where they wear Evil red and live on an Evil volcano and hes fucked up and Evil*
The problem with commercial F/M romance is that it's written by the most heterosexual women alive and reading it you feel yourself slowly suffocating from the Gender of it all like a fish in a eutrophying lake. And what we actually need as a culture is F/M written by insane bisexuals violently allergic to heteronormativity
The worst thing about piece of children media becoming popular among adults is the fact that adults fucking hate that they are not the part of the audience.
They start to write stupid ass meta how all adults in said piece of media are bad because they allowed children to be in a dangerous situation.
They want big rational worldbuilding.
They want adult characters to have their own sideplots with their own adult problems.
Dudes, there are zero children who after reading a book about their peers saving the world said: "Meh, I wish adults in this book prevented children from going to this dangerous adventure, I would rather read how economics in this world works and also about this adult character's divorce".
Being ace in fandoms is so awkward sometimes because yeah the allos like the irredeemably evil villain who has murdered countless innocent people and experiments on children because he's conventionally attractive, what's my excuse? I like this guy for his personality. His personality is a burning truck of chemicals without a driver rolling at 220 km/h down the hill towards the daycare.
I follow this lady on instagram who rescues cats, and i have been thinking about this video for literal months. behold the transformation of this wretched little beast
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Yeah you're right. It WOULD be pretty fucked up if you were a swan but you were raised by ducks and you grew up never seeing another swan or even knowing that such a thing as a swan even existed so you just thought you were a duck with something super wrong with it.
*sigh* I have never felt the urge to draw something specific stronger....
not a day goes by that i do not think about the sims 3âs disgusting moodlet icons
The thing about NieYao for me is that even when they know the worst of each other, they donât pull away.
After Nie Mingjue witnesses Meng Yao commit murder, after the confrontation at Nightless CityâNie Mingjue still agrees to swear brotherhood with him. And sure, some if it (even most of it) may be Lan Xichenâs persuasion, but not all of it. He still says he wants to keep Jin Guangyao on the right path. He still swears an oath that is mutually binding for both of them.
After Nie Mingjueâs suspicious nature and violent tendencies get worse, after he kicks Jin Guangyao down the stairs and calls him a son of a whoreâokay, maybe before, depending on the adaptationâJin Guangyao chooses to kill him, but he still does it in this very gentle, intimate way that involves him repeatedly going into Nie Mingjueâs home or welcoming Nie Mingjue into his, and after the death he maintains a good relationship with Nie Huaisang (from his POV) and remains enmeshed in Qinghe Nie, keeps Nie Mingjueâs head in his treasure room and feels bound to it, chooses Nie Mingjue as the tool of his ultimate destruction (even as he pushes Lan Xichen away).
Itâs the mutual obsession. And I wouldnât necessarily say that someone seeing the worst in you is the Most Honest way to read someone, but I think for me the reason why NieYao is and will always be the side of 3zun that most fascinates me is the fact that, imo, the worst parts they see in each other are also the parts they most fear.
Meng Yao sees NMJ as rigid, unyielding, incapable of empathizing with others or seeing things from other points of view, unable to be controlled or to control himselfâall things that are exploited by and exaggerated by the saber curse, the things that were already driving NMJ to an early grave. Also worth noting that the two main victims we see of his increasing instability are Jin Guangyao and Huaisang, his brother and his heir whom he loves. At times Jin Guangyao is even the one defending Huaisang (the symbol of Qinghe Nieâs future) from NMJ, which I can only imagine he hates more than anything.
As for Meng Yao, thereâs a common characterization I see of him that always strikes me as somewhat off, which is one in which he has, basically, low self-esteem and is shocked at being treated well and almost tries to walk it back on behalf of the person being nice to him. I donât think thatâs true. I think Meng Yao does believe that he deserves the position and respect his mother told him was his birthright, and he resents other people for failing to give it to him, because he loves his mother! He thinks SHE is worthy of respect and adoration, and therefore his status as her son shouldnât be shameful. Appropriately enough, I think thatâs what draws him to Nie Mingjue in the first placeâthe fact that NMJ is the first/among the first people to elevate him based on merit, which SHOULD BE how the world works!
But there is this insidious catch-22, which is that in order to be worthy of the position of respected sect leaderâs son, he needs to act like and uphold the values of a respected sect leaderâs son⌠and if he does that, no one will ever raise him to the position. He needs to be a bastard in order to get the job done, which is what Nie Mingjue criticizes him for. He needs to kill, to be sly, to eliminate his enemies, to do his fatherâs dirty work. And I do think that, over time, his sense of self-respect begins to falter a little, to become intertwined and tainted with disgust at what heâs done, especially when it comes to the people who are closer to himâkilling Nie Mingjue, marrying Qin Su and keeping the secret from her, Whatever Happened With Jin Rusong.
So Nie Mingjueâs attitude towards him represents this growing fear: itâs not that Jin Guangyao is unworthy because of his mother, but because of himself. Because his own actions are undeserving of the lofty place his mother imagined for him, the place that she prepared him for and he failed to achieve.
And both of them feel powerless to get off those destructive paths. Nie Mingjue is going to keep cultivating with the saber, because thatâs what his family does. Jin Guangyao is going to keep doing whatever he can to get his fatherâs approval, because thatâs what his mother wanted for him. They can see each otherâs downfalls so clearly but theyâre trapped, and eventually they end up trapped in that coffin together, hand in unlovable fucking hand.
I am more of a "technically can kick your ass but would rather bake a cake" girl and I like to think that Jiang Yanli is also like that
Maybe im just getting old (30) but I'm finding myself increasingly less charmed by the smooth-skinned, picture-perfect popstar aesthetic of a lot of danmei actors. Pls give me actual real people with blemishes and quirky features. I wanna see those bearded old men fall in love too.
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No amount of naysayers and heretics will dissuade me from asserting the one undeniable truth: Nie MingJue is a bottom.
by Andre