Okay, So I Have To Talk About The Crazy Struggles I Had While Getting This Idea.

Okay, so I have to talk about the crazy struggles I had while getting this idea.

So, it's 3am and for some reason I'm not willing to go to bed and I'm starting to slip into bad thoughts™

Thankfully, my willingness to get occupied by my ideas saves me every time.

So, the main story is what triggered all the connections to show up.

I was watching old anime AMVs and one was about Yu Yu Hakusho, I loved and still love Kurama when I remembered this old idea I had of a boy in school secretly being a demon. My 3am brain really wanted this idea to come back and it came up with this:

My MC Cassie is unknowingly attracting the attention of people around her. Not because she's a out of this world beauty, but because something about her attracts evil. One of these beings decides to interact with her as his urges gets the better of him. It's from there some event takes place where now Cassie and him are on a adventure that I said is like "Pokemon x Blue Exorcist x Inuyasha." Lol.

So after coming up with that, I revisited two older stories.

One worked in my favor because it was a story about creatures that I never did anything with. So it seemed perfect that I would use that as a connection somehow. It also gave me my main conflict and why I added Pokemon. The main goal of the story is to find as many of these lost creatures as they can. These beings are split into two categories: the ones with a human half and the ones that are simply creatures residing within a stone. That also opens the door to some great antag plots, but I'll spare you that much.

The other, the orphan story, worked because I recently reworked apart of it where they had stones or crystals that had monsters inside them. As a child, I also made some of the foster children based on animals (such as a panda boy or a golden retriever boy). So it fit almost too well into place. This particular story (I'll call it BFC for now) was actually only reworked because I wanted to write a story with a queer MC that wasn't just 25 eps long. I've wanted the Naruto of the Queer world for the longest and have actively looked for good ideas where I can implement a long standing plot and add a queer relationship.

Side note: I actually have written an erotica that's pretty lengthy, but I also wanted to write a non-sexual story as well about a queer relationship. Again like Hinata and Naruto or Ichigo and Orihime.

Oh, this is a good place to plug this also. If anyone wants to send me good representations of queer characters/ideas, it's welcome here! So far I think I do a pretty good job (since I have family members who are gay), but I'd never wanna queer bait or give inaccurate representation.

Anyways, this idea actually is very daunting to me, but I'm always up for a challenge and if I wanna become a published author one day, I have to be willing to make ideas like this.

But, thanks for reading and I hope you write well today or tonight

Oh, I wanted to do a little mini world building, this'll be character building for my favorite relationship!

I actually drew this and was so proud of it since I love them so much 🤧

Cassie and Bushimaru from The State of Quandary, are childhood friends who both have insecurities that keeps them from dating.

It's nothing spolier worthy, so I'll explain.

Cassie usually suffers from anxiety and feelings of inadequacy so I just put it in here as a roadblock that makes her feel like she's not good enough for Bushimaru, no matter how much she likes him. Also, the nickname I gave him "Levi" is one she told everyone else to call him by, but she calls him Bushi because she didn't want anyone else calling him that.

Bushimaru is a slightly insecure young man who's struggled with body image. As a child, he was a bit on the chubby side, but as he grew up and with his training, he gradually became thinner and now he has a complex about it. He feels he's too skinny and will try to gain weight if his feelings get too strong.

Their relationship is really adorable, to me, because they both don't think they other would want to date them. They're aware they like each other, but they both feel like the other would be better off with someone else.

As kids, they were friends who really liked being around one another since Cassie doesn't like to be at home with her family and Bushimaru is subject to intense training he typically wants a break from.

Here's a little scene of their typical interactions

Overall, they're my favorite ship and I love doing stuff for them ☺

That's too perfect. It's the exact dilemma I face but I've learned to write to keep my characters alive. So I'll make an anthology type book where it'll be just that a squeal about two middle-aged people just existing" or a bunch of random short stories about my teen characters planning a prom.

I believe in writing for the sake of writing, and if I'd wanna read it there may be a chance someone else would too!

Can you call something a work in progress if it's effectively done, but you keep opening the file to gaze lovingly at your characters and worry over whether this is really the very best you can do for them?

I randomly decided to make a more condensed version of my WIP/story list.

Though, here's another list of stories I'm not really working on atm 🍊 Idea list 🍊 and here's 🍊 my writeblr intro 🍊

This one is just a more condensed list in case the others are a little too much to read through.

Finished with more than 30k

Devine Intervention: The Demonic Repentance (63k).

All the Screams (61k).

Same Breeds (40k).

normalities (36k).

Finished with less than 30k

Before the Reignfall (27k).

Secrets of a Teenage Man (22k)

A Fourth Dimension Reality: The Strange Beginnings (22k).

A Fourth Dimension Reality: The Crimson Soul (19k).

A Fourth Dimension Reality: The Interpose of Idiocy (30k Ik this is thirty, but this is a series.)

A Fourth Dimension Reality: Untitled 4th book (23k).

Unfinished with more than 30k

The State of Quandary (62k).

The Makings of a Love Story (46k).

Unfinished with less than 30k

Kingdom of Bumalia (29k).

Orange Perfect (21k).

Before the Love Story (15k).

One of Malovence (13k).

The Promiscuous Journey of a Virgin (10k).

Manifested Malovence (6k).

Devine Intervention: Sirin's call (6k).

Why is this exactly how I feel >_< though for me it's more that I think I'm bothering someone by telling them about a wip. If only I could just think it once and everyone knew 🤧

as a writer, i feel like everyone should be able to read my wip telepathically — wdym i actually have to write??

from the very start the road hongjoong took to get where he is now has been rocky between his career choice not being ideal to his family to pursuing a company with such a passion that he sent in a cd of his work through registered mail directly to the ceo only for them to ignore it for a year and by absolute chance someone found it when they were moving. and to be introduced into this place he wanted to work at and being told you must do well if you want other trainees to come. you have to be good so others will join. while being alone and the first and only trainee for 6 months in a company who had less than/equal to 10 employees at the time and had no experience with trainee idols in any sort of way. and his mentor being so harsh and unwilling to teach him that he gave him a difficult task and giving him scathing remarks on his first day and yet. hongjoong still looked at that situation where he was hurt and belittled and said 'if nothing else, i need to prove this one man wrong and get him to respect me'. to have 40+ songs created by him before debuting and losing everything except the mp3 files on all those songs bc someone happened to break into their residence in the states during ateez's training and to still pick himself up and remake some of those songs despite that. hongjoong is someone so in love with his job and his dream and so persistent in the perfection of his craft beyond it being a fame game or for money or for attention. a lot of his art gets lost in the process because the edenary team is unwilling to look outside themselves and allow him the space to grow and develop inside ateez's sound, and you'll constantly hear hongjoong say that he doesn't make much music for ateez because the sounds he makes don't suit ateez but i think that's a bs excuse the production team are feeding him bc he is this fundamental foundation in ateez. he is ateez, he is part of ateez, he is someone who represents ateez no matter what he does. there is no one better suited to help ateez flourish than the members themselves and as the captain and leader and the one person ateez was built around, hongjoong deserves the platform for his creativity and work.