TO THE GREAT MAC MILLER

i have so many regrets and wishes when it comes to mac miller.

i regret only knowing him at first as ariana grande’s boyfriend.

i regret only coming to appreciate him and his music after he passed.

i wish i could’ve seen him perform live, saw him do what he loved.

i wish i could told him how much he meant to me, and how much he changed my life.

i now listen to mac every day. every single day. he has become such an integral part of my life, and i miss him so much. he is my happy place.

there are times where i catch myself crying while listening to ‘congratulations’, or laughing when ‘under the weather’ plays.

mac touched the hearts of everyone he met. i only wish i could’ve been one of those people. but we knew that he was in pain. his demons were too strong for him to handle.

mac was and still is an angel. while i myself am not religious, i still like to believe he’s looking down at me from above, guiding me through life’s hardships.

he is my home wallpaper on my phone. so whenever i go on my phone, i see his smiling face and he reminds me that everything will be okay.

he posted a screenshot of a note from 2016 on his facebook. in it, he wrote ‘don’t stop dreaming, don’t stop doing, and always continue.’ i think that is a beautiful phrase to live by. it brings a smile to my face, and reminds me to keep going.

i want to be strong for mac. i want to keep his memory alive my being strong even when i think i can’t be. mac taught us all that even when life was kicking our asses, we should still keep going.

thank you, malcolm, for everything you did. you were a true blessing, and too good for this world.