I'm Struggling So Much, I'm Completely Out Of My Honeymoon Phase And So Desperate To Get Back In, I'm

I'm struggling so much, I'm completely out of my honeymoon phase and so desperate to get back in, I'm out of energy and burnt out, I've lost my period for almost 4 months and my mom's getting suspicious, I'm tired of the mental arguments I'm having with myself and I hate it, I can't even focus on my body anymore and I'm overall just so tired but I've almost lost 20 pounds and I wanna get to 125, 10 more but it feels so hard, I can't tell if I want to recover or not and just wait for my honeymoon phase to come back but if I'm waiting for it to come back then will I really "recover" when I stop restriction, e en tho I've attempted recovery I can't eat without logging my calories, but it still feels freeing not logging eating just a little Oreo or anything, help.

Nevermind, gained 11 pounds, I'm back ana community

Saw this on tt and went “yeah lol”

Guys yesterday all I had was a slice of cake and 2 cookies is this peak junkorexic

Does anyone have "safe binge" foods for me it's veggie straws popcorn and kimchi 😭😭

Actual question, would drinking a Celsius and sugar free mentos gum break a 24 hr fast??? Help!