I Think Its Name Was Tempora Fried Cali. Its Just Called Fried Cali On The Receipt. From East Side King

I think its name was Tempora fried Cali. It’s just called fried Cali on the receipt. From East Side King in Post Market in Houston, Tx.

Sired my mouth but damn is it good. Originally when I ordered it I thought it would have the fries in it. I don’t mind this either. Is tasty. Mom and Sib tried it but didn’t like it due to the eel sauce. Sib only tried one of the fries.

Looks like a normal California Roll with all those things but each price is fried. It’s covered with eel sauce and spice mayo. There’s also green onions, sesame seeds and roe.

The sauce and other stuff isn’t half bad with the fries.

I’m bouta make myself a whole fnf mod, except I’m not actually gonna cause I can’t animate or code worth shit. Next best thing, make a bunch of fact screen shots or something.

Undertale x Poppy playtime au

Call that ship poppytale or something.

Cast list(up for interpretation)

Frisk is still Frisk cause deflate character or whatever.

Chara is Oliver maybe

Flowey is poppy or something

Toriel is Kissy Missy

Paps and Sans are DogDays and CatNap

For sure Gaster has to be the prototype

Idfk figure the rest out yourself

About a week ago my sibling and I was having a conversation about random shit. I couldn’t fully understand what they were saying cause we were facing opposite directions. At some point the said something that sounded like they were referring to me as their brother and it hit something in me.

2 or so days later, we were at the mall and I wanted to ask them something. I was very embarrassed but I asked them if they would refer to me as their brother and told them about my misunderstanding. They agreed and we didn’t talk about it after that.

Today I remember it and I wanted to see if they remembered. For some reason I felt scared and embarrassed but I did ask if they remembered and they said yes and that was it.

I’ve been trying to experiment with my gender identity for a while now but every time I do it never goes anywhere. When I tell people to refer to me by different pronouns they forget about it cause I never have anything concrete and don’t remind them. It doesn’t help that I also forget too.

I don’t know why I’m embarrassed or scared to ask my siblings to call me something as simple as brother. I’m not even asking them to call me by he/him but I feel dread when asking about it. Maybe because it feels more concrete when it’s my own flesh and blood ok asking instead of just a friend.

Ive been struggling with this for a while. Where I feel a sense of euphoria when being refer to as a boy but not enough dysphoric to want to stop being a girl. I’ve looked in the mirror so many times, looked at my body, my chest, it doesn’t feel wrong but I can do imagine myself without it.

I think a big reason why I never stick with different pronouns is because I feel like an imposter. Like im faking it. Like I’m not dysphoric enough to be trans or gender-fluid or something else. I feel like I’m putting on an act for attention from people far more vocal about these things. I feel wrong feel bad feel unworthy.

I feel like I’m just looking for things to make me ‘special’ when I’m really not. Maybe I’m embarrassed because it’s all a farce and when it’s revealed I’ll be publicly ridiculed for labeling myself as a minority when in reality I’m not. Maybe im scared because I can’t tell if who I’m looking at in the mirror is really me or not.

I don’t know who I am

I have an ocverse where’s I’ve essentially just mashed all my favorite fandoms into one abomination and added my OCs in there. I’ve specifically made it where basically All gods from All pantheons exist in some form, but their powers are limited to the regions they hail from and the amount of ppl who worship them. I’ve also added some of my own for flavor.

And by all gods I do technically mean all of them. And by ‘technically’ I mean that they were there but now they are either dead or have lost their godliness for whatever reason. I haven’t quite thought of which gods to throw into one of two bucket, except for one.

God, as in the one from the Bible, in my ocverse is dead. I took the line about him being a jealous god and rolled with it. Due to his jealousy the other gods banded together to usurp him and in the process he parishad. I also decide to go down the path of Lucifer getting redeemed or something and him taking Gods place as ruler of heaven.

Anyways I’m also having to figure out how my own god OCs and their whole religious beliefs and such works and all that. I have actually put a good amount of thought into that. One of the things I’ve thought of is how their beliefs react and such with other religions such as Christianity. Which is where I get back to God. Now my OCs, their names are Pearl & Quartz btw, run their shit in a way that allows their followers to worship other gods freely with few exceptions. They have very relaxed and clear rules and preach kindness, love, acceptance of all or whatever but have no tolerance for hurting others, which is the basis of Christianity. Now you’d probably think that this is all swell and good and people would just tack their teachings onto their preexisting ones but you’d be wrong. Remember, I said God is a jealous god and he did not appreciate the new competition from the fledgling gods. While the other gods didn’t really mind Pearl & Quartz, God very much did and made a big fuss about it which was the catalyst to his eventual demise.

Now after God dies and Lucifer takes over things change. Lucifer takes a much more chilled out approach to ruling heaven and one of the things he does is basically endorse Pearl & Quartz. His endorsement ends up creating a new sect of Christianity which still follows the teachings of the Bible, but also preaches the importance of accepting others to the point where if you aren’t a good and accepting person you will get kicked out of the church. This is still Christianity after all. Most other sects don’t particularly change.

This has been a synopsis of Christianity in my ocverse. I have to write this down and share it so I don’t feel quite as insane as I actually am. And so I can have it to remind me on what world building I’ve already set in place.

I think my organs are shutting down cause I decided to not sleep. I’m weak :(