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Little Do You Know
Little Do You Know
Austin Butler x reader
Warnings - none just fluff
Word count - 1144
a/n - request: "I have a request. I was think about when Austin was in Budapest filming Dune II and reader showing him or the whole crew (Timothee, Zendaya, Florence) around the city in their free time and Austin gets a crush on the reader and the crew teases him about it" - hopefully i fulfilled your vision :)

âYou need to get out of this place, you know, get some fresh air,â you tell Austin as you stand in front of him.
He was currently reclining on the lounge chair in front of you reading Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. The book was literally centuries old, but somehow it caught his attention.
âI went out with you guys earlier,â he says referring to you and Florence, his eyes still attached to the book.
âThat was for breakfast, and afterwards we came straight back here. Iâm talking about just getting out and walking around to explore. This is your first time in Budapest, do you really want to spend your days off from filming surrounded by four walls all day?â
âItâs no use, heâs been stuck in that position all day,â you hear Florence say. Florence was sitting out on the condoâs balcony â it had been rented to the three of you for the duration of filming Dune. She swivels her chair around to join the conversation currently happening inside.
âIâm not taking no for an answer,â you glance at her before looking back at Austin. âThis is unacceptable. You have plenty of time to read, the book isnât going anywhere.â
âAnd Budapest isnât going anywhere either, weâre going to be here for a while,â Austin looks up at you while he speaks, but immediately looks back down at his book when heâs done.
You scoff before you snatch the book out of his hands and hold it behind your back.
He lets out a big sigh and says, âreally?â
Austin looks over at Florence as if he was silently asking for help, but she says, âIâm not on your side.â
He laughs at her statement before looking up at you. You raise your eyebrows, waiting for him to say something.
âI guessâŚI can take a break,â he finally says.Â
You smile and hand his book back to him, before turning around and heading to your room to change. This causes you to miss the smile he gives you back and the way he stares at you as you walk away. Florence notices, though, but she already knew about his crush on you. It was the main reason he caved in so quickly.
What everyone doesnât though is his reasoning for not wanting to go out â he doesnât know how to act around you. When you look up at him he canât help but smile, he also canât help the way his neck turns red, but you donât notice. When you asked him a question and he gave you an answer, he would end up overthinking for the next hour if his response was too long, or wonder if his answer was good enough, or even wonder if he made too much eye contact with you.
âAre you going to tell her, or should I,â she smirks at him as she comes inside from the balcony.
âDonât you dare,â Austin points at her, and she laughs.
You took responsibility for being the tour guide around the city, this is what you do in all new cities. Anytime it was someone else, you just ended up being in charge in the end, but of course you took suggestions.
âWhere to next?â you ask everyone behind you as you look down at the minimap on your phone. Timothee and Zendaya had finished filming for the day and ended up joining you guys on the sightseeing journey.
 The sun was setting and you all had just left St. Stephenâs Basilica, or as the locals call it Szent Istvan Bazilika.
âOh, now you want to ask us?â Timothee jokes from behind you, causing you to turn around to see him smiling at you, Austin standing next to him with his hands in his pockets. You continue walking, but backwards to keep moving.
âWell I wasnât going to, but I figured it was rude to not hear from the group,â you joke back with a shrug of your shoulders.
âIâm fine with you leading, youâre doing a great job,â Zendaya says from beside you, Florence hums in agreement from the other side of her. You look at Austin for his answer, and he just nods with a grin on his face
âWell thank you, Iâm glad my service is appreciated,â you say to no one in particular and then look back at Timothee.
âDo you have a suggestion?â you raise your eyebrows at him.
âWell since Iâm the only one that seems to have a problem, nope,â he laughs and you smile back.
Meanwhile, while you were talking to Timothee, Austin was watching you. He watched the way your face lit up as you joked with Timothee, the light from the sunset reflecting on your face. He watched how the whites of your teeth showed when you smiled and the way your lip gloss made your teeth look even whiter.
When you bumped into someone on accident from you walking backwards, he watched the way you immediately apologized and helped the person pick up their dropped belongings. He saw the embarrassment on your face when you turned back to the group to ask, âSo no one was going to tell me that I was going to crash into someone?â
You easily brushed it off and turned around to continue walking, allowing Austin to stare at you as much as you wanted. When he heard you laugh at something Florence said, a grin instantly appeared on his face.
Austin felt Timothee nudge him in his side to get his attention. When he looked over, Timothee leaned in with a smirk to whisper, âyouâre making it so obvious, just tell her.â
Austin playfully pushed him away. He did want to tell you, he just didnât know how to tell you, which he knew was ridiculous because you wouldnât be the first girl he admitted his feelings to. Another thing holding him back was the thought of you not liking him back and just seeing him as a friend.
What Austin didn't know, though, you had feelings for him too, but you were one of those people who would never admit their feelings first. You getting rejected? No. There was no way you could just move on and pretend like it didnât happen.Â
Florence and Zendaya both knew how you felt and kept asking you to tell him because according to them âItâs obvious Austin likes you.â You just thought they were saying that to try and convince you, not knowing it was actually true.
Eventually, Austin would admit his feelings to you when it felt like the right time, and of course you would say yes. When everyone found out that you were dating, you two would have to deal with the endless amount of teasing and âI told you soâsâ because little did you both know, the feelings were reciprocated.
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Hey babe, idk if anyone told you but you cant just write the most gut wrenching, hottest art fic ever and then not do a part 2!
Hope this helps <3 !
Ngl you had me nervous in the first half omlđ glad you enjoyed it tho and appreciate all the love from everyone else lol
Should I actually make a part 2 tho bc I have other ideas for art imaginesđ¤
Just One More
Farleigh Start x reader
Warnings - 18+, smut, overstimulation, edging, sub!farleigh, whiny farleigh
Word count - 979
a/n - i watched midsommar for the first time after putting it off, and I sat in silence for like 3 minutes afterwards. also i've had this idea for a couple weeks and it's inspired by this video if you're curious (18+). anyways i hope you enjoy :)

Farleigh liked to be dominant, but he also enjoyed the times when you took control. Those were mainly the times when you wanted to get back at him for something he had done earlier in the day or for whatever happened during your guysâ previous pleasure session.
Today, he had been teasing you in the presence of other people. During lunch with the rest of the Catton family, Farleigh had put his hand on your thigh and continued to move it up until it went under your skirt and touched your underwear. He would brush his fingers against you every once and a while over your panties before pulling away; the first time it made you jerk and choke on your drink mid swallow. That grabbed the attention of everyone at the table, including Farleigh who pretended to act innocent.
While the two of you laid naked in the middle of the field with Felix, Venetia, and Oliver, he had decided he needed a break from reading and lit a cigarette. He had also decided to start gently rubbing your hip, and then moved to the skin between your hips making sure not to move too far down before lifting his hand away. Thankfully the blades of grass in the field are so tall because to everyone else it probably seemed like normal pda.
Now the two of you are undressed once again, but this time in the comfort of your bedroom. In Farleighâs mind, he thinks you guys are going to do your regular foreplay before continuing on with the night, but you have other plans that include getting back at him.
âGo ahead and get comfortable,â you tell him as you motion for him to lay back on the bed.
He seems to get the message because he gives you a smirk as he gets himself a little too comfortable on the bed. He lays back on the pillows and puts his hands behind his head as he looks down at you. âWell, donât mind if I do.â
You throw him a fake grin before taking him into your mouth. You begin to massage his balls while your mouth makes its way slowly up and down his shaft, still looking up at him. You put your other hand on his thigh to stabilize yourself, but decide on moving it up towards his lower stomach. A sigh falls out of Farleighâs mouth as he closes his eyes to enjoy the moment. As much as you love him and how much doing this turns you on, you canât help but want to roll your eyes.Â
As his orgasm approaches, his muscles get more tense and his whines become more frequent.
He had removed his hands from behind his head long ago, but the hand on the back of your head begins applying more and more pressure. You make sure to do everything he loves to bring him closer and closer to tumbling over the edge, but right as you notice him getting ready to release, you pull your head off of him.
âNo, no, no, what are you doing?â Farleigh sits up against the headboard and frowns, his chest still heaving. Heâs still incredibly hard and now covered with a mixture of your saliva and his precum trickling down him.
âOh, nothing. I just thought Iâd have a little fun, you know just like how you had your fun earlier today at lunch and in the field,â you tell him.
âOh, come on. Youâre not really upset about that are you?â he asks, but it comes out as more of a whine, desperate for you to touch him again.
âOf course not, but like I just said, I want to have some fun too,â you give him your best innocent smile as you wrap your hand around him once again to tease his tip. A small groan comes out of his mouth as a result. You let out a small laugh before continuing, âLighten up.â
You start off slow, but quickly pick up speed causing Farleigh to throw his head back against the headboard. His orgasm approaches once again, and this time you let it come, not letting up on the speed. His moans are constant as long ropes shoot out onto his stomach and your hand. The flow feels like itâs never going to end, and you use the cum as a lube to keep going. Farleigh squeezes his eyes shut as he grabs on to the blanket beneath him. When it becomes too much for him, he reaches for your hand to pull it away, but you just flick it away.
âBabyâŚ,â he starts, but doesnât finish as he cuts himself off with a whimper.
âJust one more,â you sweetly tell him as your hand continues.
He squirms from the overstimulation, and you sit on his legs to try to keep him still. His second orgasm comes out as semi transparent ropes onto his tense abdomen. He looks up at you as a silent question, and you shake your head in response. You continue your movements up and down his shaft alternating between hands, and the squelching sound the cum beneath your hand makes just eggs you on. You both enjoyed it when it became messy.
Orgasm number three is mostly a liquid as it squirts out. Farleigh has fallen back onto the bed and is a whining and twitching mess beneath you. You decide that youâve tortured him enough and release your grip on him. He lets out a deep breath as his chest heaves up and down. You crawl up closer to his face to get a better look at him and give him a gentle smile. He looks up at you and playfully rolls his eyes at you before letting out an exhausted laugh.Â
After all, he does this to you all the time.
There We Go
Farleigh Start x reader
Warnings - 18+, fingering, overstimulation, drinking, farleigh being dominant when we all know he's not
Word count - 2366
a/n - this is my first time writing smut I wanted to give it a try, and it was hard for me idk how y'all do this lol. enjoy :)

Last night, you had your hands in between your legs scrolling through videos trying to find the perfect one, while Farleigh was outside smoking with Felix. You and Farleigh have never had intimacy problems, itâs just you having a hard time asking for or initiating the intimacy â even Farleigh has told you several times before that heâs always willing. You hadnât gotten too far in your journey when you started hearing those familiar footsteps outside the bedroom door getting closer. You hurriedly took your hand out of your pajama shorts, switched apps, and readjusted yourself like you had been lying like that the whole time. Farleigh opens and closes the bedroom door, kicks off his slippers, and crawls under the covers next to you.
âCanât sleep?â he asks as he lays his head on your stomach and you just hum in response.
So now here you were sitting in a pool chair underneath the hot Summer sun watching Farleigh, Venetia, and Felix messing around in the pool, and you canât seem to control your thoughts â mainly because you never got to finish last night. You throw your sunglasses on and try to distract yourself with the book in your hands and hope you werenât making yourself obvious to him, even though you could care less what Jane Austen has to say at the moment. You take a peak over the edge of your book and notice Venetia is talking to Felix, Felix is leaning against the edge of the pool with his head towards the sky not seeming to be really listening, and Farleigh is now swimming towards you.
You cross your ankles as if he could sense or see the arousal growing between your legs while he pulls himself out of the pool leaving the bottom of his legs to dangle in the water. Water drips off of him onto the concrete surrounding the pool and also forms into droplets on his chest and arms. Your sunglasses are pretty dark so youâre pretty sure he canât see you checking him out.
âAre you okay over here?â Farleigh finally looks at you with his own sunglasses covering his eyes, and places a hand on your ankle. He always randomly does this, but at the moment youâre not a fan. You clear your throat before answering.
âYeah, why wouldnât I be?â you ask looking up from your book as if you had been reading it the whole time.
âJust asking since you normally start complaining about it being too hot if youâre outside too long,â he jokes with a shrug of his shoulders. âAs if weâre not all hot.â He now starts caressing your ankle, which any other time you would love it, but now all you want to do is push his hand off.
âExcuse you, you complain more than me. Plus itâs not too bad right now, as long as we get to go inside soon,â you say, looking back down at your book and start pretending you're reading again. You hear him let out a laugh.
âWeâre going out into town for drinks later, do you want to come?â
âYou guys are driving all the way out there just to drink?â you raise an eyebrow at him.
âThatâs what they suggested,â he tells you, referring to the two siblings still floating in the pool. âWe donât have to go if you donât want to.â
âNo, no. Itâs fine.â
âThatâs the book I told you about, how is it?â he asks, still rubbing your ankle.
âItâs pretty good,â you answer not knowing what else to say and wishing the conversation would just be over.
âWhere are you at in it?â
Oh my god.
You skim through a paragraph on the page and quickly paraphrase it for him. He gives you a look with a smirk on his lips, but with his eyes also covered in dark tint you canât tell what heâs thinking. Or maybe heâs not thinking anything and youâre just overthinking. Once he eventually leaves you alone and goes back to swimming with Felix and Venetia, you let out a breath you didnât even know you were holding.
Later that night when you all are at the pub, including Oliver who decided to come at the last minute, youâre no longer feeling like your head is going to explode. Well, you do, but thatâs just because of how packed it is inside the pub. Everyone in the bar has to raise their voice to communicate with one another, but no one seems to care. The group is several drinks in and are talking about the most pointless things, especially Venetia who is asking Oliver what color she should dye her already fried hair next, but youâre still enjoying yourself. Not Felix though, since he declared himself the designated driver because he doesnât trust anyone else driving his truck. Youâve only had a couple drinks since you were never a huge fan of drinking to the point of getting drunk.Â
Farleigh, on the other hand, is on his way there along with the rest of them, and is constant with his nagging towards Oliver. You nudge him every now and then as a warning and he gives you an innocent look every time. Thankfully Oliver doesnât seem to mind â or doesnât make it obvious â that he cares about what Farleigh has to say.
When everyone has decided theyâve had enough, you guys make the drive back and blast music loud enough to sober up an alcoholic. Felix, Farleigh, and Oliver donât seem to have any problem screaming their lungs out to it. Venetia complains about the music being too loud, probably because the music is ruining her buzz, and you just shake your head in amusement.
Once you guys arrive back at the estate, and do a terrible job sneaking into the house, everyone goes their separate ways. Felix helps Venetia to her room, Oliver stumbles to his, and you and Farleigh make your way to your shared bedroom. You tell Farleigh youâre going to take a bath to which he asks to join, and you decline. He whines in response and plops down on the bed as you head into the bathroom with a laugh to start running the bath water.Â
After undressing and climbing into the tub, you lean back and close your eyes until you hear familiar footsteps enter the bathroom. You open your eyes and turn your head to see Farleigh starting to undress himself. Someoneâs obviously sobering up.
âAnd what do you think youâre doing?â you sit up, obviously knowing the answer.
âWhat does it look like Iâm doing?â he responds.Â
âI thought I told you no,â you tell him as he gets down to his underwear and shimmies them off.Â
âYeah, but this way weâre saving water,â he smiles like itâs the best idea heâs ever had, even though he uses this trick every time, and for some reason you fall for it everytime. Plus itâs obvious the Cattons would never worry about something like water.
Farleigh makes his way over to the tub, all the while youâre trying to avoid eye contact with his slightly hard length causing him to smirk. You roll your eyes at him as you make room for him, and he climbs in behind you making the water level slightly rise. Once heâs comfortable, you lean your back against his chest, and he loosely wraps his hands around your waist.
His fingertips tickle your lower stomach, reawakening that familiar ache you had earlier at the pool and last night that you didnât finish satisfying. You hope he doesnât notice your breath catching in your throat. Feeling him against your back doesnât help much either.Â
âSee, this isnât so bad,â you hear him say in that playful tone of his. You elbow him in his stomach, and you hear him let out a small grunt. âHey, did you notice Venetia flirting with Oliver the whole time tonight?â
âIt was kind of hard not too, I feel like she gets hornier when sheâs drunk,â you say as you start to gently move one of your feet around in the water.
âWell, duh, doesnât everyone? Iâm just surprised she did that in front of Felix,â he laughs and starts to lightly rub your lower stomach..
âSpeaking of Oliver, wh-,â you start, but Farleigh cuts you off.
âWeâre not.â
âSpeaking of Oliver,â you try again, âwhy do you give him such a hard time?â
âBecause heâs weird.â
âYouâre weird, Farleigh,â you angle your body and turn your head back to look up at him. He gives your side a little pinch making you jump and let out a giggle.
âYou know what I mean. Donât tell me youâre growing a soft spot for him just because of those big blue eyes,â Farleigh lets out a scoff.
âNo, Iâm just saying to ease up on him a bit. You can be a little mean sometimes.â
âWell, I donât trust him,â he shrugs.
âFarleigh-.â
âCan we talk about something else,â he cuts you off once again letting out a dramatic groan and throwing his head back.
âOf course. When weâre done with this conversation though,â you give him a forced smile. He looks down at you and gives you a little glare. âJust say youâll be nicer, and weâll be done.â
All of a sudden you feel the hand that was grazing your lower stomach dip lower, and you feel a finger start to lightly rub up and down your slit causing you to tense. You widen your eyes once you realize what heâs doing, your jaw falling slightly open.
âAre you trying to shut me up?â you furrow your eyebrows at him, and he gives you a smirk. âThe audacity.â
âWhatever helps.â
âFarleigh, Iâm serio-,â you try to get out, but he starts to rub circles into clit. You hold back a moan that threatens to spill out from the sudden touch, refusing to let him win, even if this is how you wanted your night to end in the long run.
âSorry, what was that?â
âFarleigh-,â you try again, but this time he dips a finger in you causing you to let out a gasp at the intrusion, your eyes closing on instinct.
âHmm?âÂ
You reach a hand down to wrap around his wrist as he curls his finger and starts to slowly pump in and out, but he uses his other hand to take it away and hold it. He adds another finger, still going the same deliberate pace along your walls on purpose to tease you. You bite your lip enjoying the stretch that his fingers bring, but still wanting to hold the noises in your throat back. Farleigh notices this and pushes his long fingers deeper into you, and then uses the hand holding yours to wrap around your waist holding you close to him.Â
âIf you want me to go faster, all you have to do is let some of those little noises come out for me,â he leans down and whispers into your ear. You love it when he does that, and he knows that, but you still didnât want to break. âYou know I saw you staring me down at the pool earlier.â
You knew it.
You feel his breath on your neck before he starts his trail of kisses making you clench your teeth. You make the mistake of looking down at his hand between your legs right as he finds his favorite spot on your neck, forcing a moan to accidentally slip out. You feel a smile form on his lips while they still attack your neck, and at the moment thereâs a part of you that wants to strangle him, but you just give in to him.
âThere we go,â he murmurs, and you finally feel his fingers speed up inside of you, causing your face to contort and lean your head back against his chest. He lets go of your waist using that hand to start rubbing your clit again, but this time rougher. This causes you to arch your back into him. If your body wasnât submerged underwater, you guarantee you both would be able to hear your wetness with every movement.
Eventually, you feel your pleasure come to a powerful end, and Farleigh helps you ride it out as long as possible. You roll your hips into his hand until youâve had enough, and just when you're about to motion for him to stop, Farleigh picks up a rapid pace forcing the water to start sloshing around. Your eyes widen and you let out a small squeal as you reach both of your hands for his wrist.
âLet go,â he says strongly.
âFarleigh,â you whimper, and itâs all youâre able to get out.
âLet go,â he says again, and this time you do. Instead you put one hand on his thigh and the other on the edge of the tub.
He continues his vigorous torture inside your cunt with you squirming and litterally gasping for air until you can both feel yourself gushing. But, of course he doesnât stop there, not letting a beat pass. You bring your legs up to your chest with his hand still between, and he pushes them both back down. You let out a cry as he puts his legs over yours pinning your body to the bottom of the tub. It doesnât take long for your third orgasm to come with a wail, and this time Farleigh stops.
Your heavy panting bounces off the bathroom walls as you finally have a chance to collect yourself, and Farleigh just chuckles from behind you. He slowly slides his fingers out and out of the water, but not before giving your clit a light tap, making you practically jump out of your skin.
âHow are you doing down there?â he asks, as he wraps his arms around your waist. You canât tell if heâs being sarcastic or genuine with your eyes closed, but at the moment you donât care.
âHonestly, Farleigh, just stop talking,â you tell him, and he lets out a loud laugh that makes your body move against his chest.
yes make a part 2!!
Bet, part 2 to cheer up coming soon ;)
Also just wanted to thank everyone for all the love on my art donaldson imagine, I really appreciate itđ
Read part 2 here!
Moving to Los Alamos
Cillian Murphy as J. Robert Oppenheimer
Warnings : none
Word count : 1681
a/n - this was lightly proofread so there may or may not be some mistakes and this is also my first time writing fanfic in like 5 years so I'm kind of rusty. I hope you enjoy :)

You hated change and you always have. You had just gotten used to living with your husband and adapted to his long work hours and constant work trips. You had made a couple friends in the neighborhood and could see yourself living there for a while. So when Robert came home one night and said you two were moving to Los Alamos, you werenât exactly thrilled.
You were sitting at the kitchen table reading a book in the dark underneath the dining room table light as you liked to do. You enjoyed the ambience and peace. A set of headlights entered through the kitchen window that you had opened earlier causing you to look up from your current page. You watched Robert climb (more like rush) out the car with his briefcase and head to the front door. He seemed to be in a good mood, but knowing him it could be something small that happened at work he couldnât wait to tell you. You smile to yourself at the thought.
Once he walks through the door and notices you sitting at the table he gives you a wide smile. You return it along with a confused look. He quickly sets his hat down on the hat rack, his briefcase down on the table, and finally sits down next to you. Throughout all of this, his smile never fades and now you have a feeling itâs not anything small thatâs got him like this. You lay the book in your hands on the table after making a mental note of your current page, and give him your full attention.
âWell, how was your day?â you smile at him, already partially knowing the answer.
âWhat do you think about moving to Los Alamos?âhe asks, causing your smile to falter.
âI asked you how your day was not about moving to New Mexico,â you gave him a confused look. Robert scoots his chair closer to yours and grabs your hand, resting it in your lap. Your brows are still deeply furrowed as you look at him.
âThis is what I have been working towards these past months. I moved out here to California for my work to be recognized and itâs finally paying of-â
âRobert, what are you talking about?â You cut off his rambling with a wave of your hand.
âRemember when I told you about that special project and how no one would let me on?âhe asks and you nod. âWell they finally did and they want my help.â
âAnd what do these people need help with?â you ask, and he gives you an uneasy look. You motion for him to continue and he hesitates a little.
âThey want to build a bomb,â he finally answers with a hushed voice, and you just stare at him not knowing what to say with your mouth slightly ajar.
An hour ago you were thinking about how to change the look of your living room and now your husband comes in and hits you with this. Youâre not even sure heâs supposed to be telling you this.
âSay something,âhe gently says once he notices your silence.
âI-I donât know what to say. I mean what am I supposed to say? You just said the word bomb Robert! What is it for? Who is it for?âthe whole time you speak in a whisper but you still manage to raise your voice at him.
âThat I canât tell you, you just have to trust me.â
âTrust you? You want me to trust you and move to a different state for something you canât even tell me about because I might get killed for knowing too much!â
âNo, no, no. Youâre not going to die, you just donât have security clearance for me to tell you,âhe says with a small laugh. You lean back in your chair and give him a dumbfounded look because thereâs no way heâs laughing right now.
âSecurity clearance? What the hell is this Robert?â
He grabs your face with his hands and looks into your eyes.
âThis will all make sense when weâre in Los Alamos, I promise. I need you to trust me. Will you trust me?â he searches your face for an answer.
You donât want to but you look him in the eye. The same blue eyes that you instantly fell in love with the first day you two met. The same blue eyes that were always able to convince you to do anything as long as he pairs it with a smile. Move to New Mexico. Trust him. Just like you trusted him when you decided to kiss him for the first time back when you were married to your ex-husband. Just like you trusted him when he asked you to marry him, which you did and divorced your previous husband without a second thought.
You let out a sigh. Once again this man was able to persuade you, this time though, with hardly any details. He raises his brows expectantly and you nod.
âThank you,âhe smiles at you as he gently caresses your cheek before leaning in to place his lips on yours, and then repeating it again. âThank you.â
About a month later it was time for the move to Los Alamos. You and Robert had packed âonly what you neededââ Robertâs words not yours â and made the drive down from California. According to him there would be a house waiting for you with everything that you needed. Along with the clothes you packed, there were also some knick knacks from home you planned on putting in your new temporary one.Â
When you two finally arrived you hadnât even realized until he told you. Based on your surroundings it didnât look like much given the fact that you were in the middle of nowhere. It was just a hot, dry desert with the sun beaming harshly down on you. That was until Robert kept driving, and you saw something in the distance. You glance over at Robert, and he gives you a quick glance back along with a reassuring smile.Â
Once you get closer youâre able to make out a small down that looked like it didnât belong. Robert had told you the government had built a temporary town to help with whatever it is that was going on here, but you didnât think he was serious. Robert pulls the car up to a gate with a couple uniformed men who had to be drenched in sweat from this heat standing around. As you were pulling up, there was a car already waiting to enter. The guard standing closest to the driverâs side window hands what seems to be some sort of pass to the driver and motions for the gate to open and for the driver to continue. Once you pull up, the guard notices Robert and just motions for us to continue.
âThey were checked, but there was no need to check us,â you thought. You continued to think about this as Robert continued the drive into the town.
You could tell all the buildings were new from how bright the paint or letterings on the buildings were. But, that could also be the New Mexico sun reflecting off the buildings. Robert had told you the main reason for the town was so the men working on the project could bring their families. You passed by convenience stores and other small stores, as well as a makeshift hospital. To go along with the new buildings, the people who worked in them and shopped filled up the streets. Some of the wives of the men that were working on the project could be seen casually walking and gossiping as if this had been their home all along. The men who they belonged to were too busy running in and out of work the different work buildings. You were somewhat impressed with the town.
You also wondered how some of the other men were able to convince their wives to move out here.
You eventually reach where all the houses seemed to be, but Robert never stopped in front of one of those. The one he did pull in front of was secluded from the others. It wasÂ
âI thought you would like your privacy,â he tells you as he turns the car off. You give him a small smile at the gesture before exiting the car.
The house looked pretty small on the outside, but so did all the other houses you passed on the way here. As you step inside you realize the house is not yet furnished making it appear bigger than it was. Robert follows you inside with his hands inside of his pockets and watches you as you look around waiting for your reaction.
âRobert,â you call out to him from a different room and he follows the sound of your voice. He raises his eyebrows as a way of asking what was wrong, even though he already knew the problem. âThereâs no kitchen. What am I supposed to do?â
âDonât worry, Iâve already dealt with it. Some guys are going to come out and bring everything you need.â
âWhy isnât it already here?â You ask him.
âThatâs just how it is, but donât worry, in a couple days everything will be fine. The house will be furnished and you will have fixed it up how you like. Think of it as a home away from homeâ He grabs a hold of both your hands to bring you closer to him.Â
You take your hands out of his and wrap your arms around his neck. He places his hands on your waist and starts to do a gentle sway â something he did to calm you down once, and now he does it for every similar situation. He knows youâre not completely content with it, but hopes you are able to handle it for the time being.
âI sure hope all this is worth it,âyou tell him as you look up at him.Â
âMe too.â