From Brainstorms Of A History Project

From brainstorms of a history project

(Tw: Caps, negative self talk, executive dysfunction)

Basically a vent that dissolved into me writing down anything that I thought of while in history class :b

(bolded for convenience sorry not sorry)

Why? Why can’t I bring myself to do anything? Why am I like this? Quail just do the thing? The research??? You need to do that??? Why am I not doing that?????? Why am I just scrolling pinterest and writing whatever this is? I’m just writing nonsense instead of using the full period my teacher’s giving me to work on my homework? Why can’t I just do that?!

Bree boop boop bree boop boop bree boop boop bre bop bop bre bop boop brebebooooooooop

 -_- 

sigh

I’m just writing whatever comes to mind I guess.

 Shouldn’t I get to work on my project?

Why aren’t I doing this… Why can’t I just get to doing it……..All I can think of is eating lunch later but I know that means I’m gonna waste an entire period until then and then I’m gonna procrastinate about it and not tell my parents about it and sit there at home wondering why I didn’t just tell them in the first place. 

I could just talk to the teacher and tell them I’m thinking of changing my person.

 There’s hardly any information on him.

Henry VIII, I mean.

 At least, nothing relative to the renaissance. The only thing he did basically was have six wives and gain control over the church in order to marry one of them. 

That’s it. 

How the frick am I supposed to stretch that into 8 slides without bluffing and padding the heck out of it? There’s no way not to do that. I’m doomed. I’m gonna fail history. All because I didn’t do this one assignment I was supposed to do.

 Good job, me. GOOD FREAKING JOB. JUST DO THE EFFING RESEARCH. IT’S NOT THAT COMPLICATED. CHANGE TO A DIFFERENT PERSON.

 But what if that window’s already closed and asking them is just gonna be unhelpful and he has to explain that I should have had it all figured out way before now. ,:< only need to write a few bullet points on him anyway.

 I can switch to talking about other figures while pretending to be him I guess? SIDE EFFECTS OF CORN ARE… CHOKING. I GUESS. Lol that meme was so funi Slimesicle is a cool guy

but I wish he didn’t swear so I could watch his channel more :(

Lol this is just a dialogue of all my inner thoughts now isn’t it XD

Wait am I gonna post this somewhere? Probably not. But if I did I’d probably have to edit out the big vent spiral I just went through.

 Ooh this song is rly good! what’s the name of it again? Catch by Jaron? It’s really good. I’m totally gonna listen to this later. 

Very calming :D

Sigh and now how much time have I wasted? Why can’t I just get to researching? GET TO RESEARCHING QUAIL OR YOU’RE DEFINITELY GONNA REGRET IT.

  I’m wondering if I really am quoigender? But I don’t think so… I mean I know I’m a girl obvi but I sometimes feel really boyish or kind of nonbi? But not completely. Like not Imma-turn-into-a-boy-now intensity. But like I don’t really like skirts or pink or those 100% feminine things but I’m also kind of-

 How cool would it be if I got the right side of my hair cornrowed? Like just that side? It would be so cool :0  I could wear it in a ponytail off to one side or I could have the rest of my hair off one shoulder and it would look really really cool :3

🎶On the freezing sun, warmth, take each others hands and we would run, cold ran the autumn sky🎶

Man I love Jack Stauber he’s such a cool song artist. 

 I love fall too :0  The beautiful oranges and light sweaters were really nice

Do I really want my hair braided? I’ll lose the puffiness of my hair Noooooooo

🎶I wanna get lighter🎶

🎶I gotta get lighter🎶

🎶We’re bout to go up baby, up we go🎶

🎶Up baby, up we go🎶

🎶Blowin up speakers🎶

Gratatatattaatatatatattataattatatatatattatatatata

What on earth is that fluttery thing people keep talking about? When you just look at them and suddenly it’s like you turned from black and white to colors and they’re all swirling around that person and you feel like if you left them then everything would fade back to grey-

OMG I LOVE THIS SONG G A S P

🎶WE USED TO HAVE IT ALL🎶

🎶BUT NOW’S OUR CURTAIN CALL🎶

🎶SO HOLD FOR THE APPLAUSE🎶

🎶WHOAAH🎶

🎶WAVE OUT TO THE CROWD🎶

🎶TAKE OUR FINAL BOWS🎶

🎶OH IT’S OUR TIME TO GO🎶

🎶BUT AT LEAST WE STOLE THE SHOW-WW🎶

🎶BUT AT LEAST WE STOLE THE SHOW-WW🎶

🎶AT LEAST WE STOLE THE SHOW🎶

Oh gawd the teacher just walked past I need to start working but I’m doing something else why aren’t I doing that everyone else is working on it I’m gonna fall behind he’s changing my grade right now isn’t he I’m gonna fail I’m gonna fail I’m so gonna fail - 

Ok Quail, it’s gonna be ok just calm yourself. Calm. Calm. You’ll figure it out.

WHAT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FIGURE IT OUT I CAN’T DO THIS IM GONNA FAIL AND EVERYONE IS GOING TO HATE ME OH GOD 

No they will not, we'll be fine. And how does taking a mental break even begin to affect your relationships?

…

ADHD tips from my school counselors:

“You need to create a study routine!”

“You need to stop fidgeting…you’re distracting yourself!”

“Get more exercise and take your meds!”

“Stop procrastinating!”

ADHD tips from my friends with ADHD:

“I eat one chocolate chip for every page I read.”

“I can only study by playing the gravity game on the Quizlet website. I need to beat my friend’s high score.”

“Every ten minutes I get up, put on one song by Taylor Swift, and wiggle around until I feel better.”

“Instead of checkboxes, I draw little flowers next to each task, and after I finished the task, I color in the flower in a fun color.”

*Aggresively clicks reblog button*

I want to try something...

Reblog if you think that it’s entirely possible to have a loving romantic relationship without sex.

(I mean, obviously it is, but I want to see others opinions.)

*satisfied crow noises*

The clicking sound of this stimboard is very satisfying...

(Tw: Sporadic capitalization)

Man adulthood is gonna be LIT if I get to say all my internal insults at nosy family members without getting the Mom Talk™ after every1 leaves >:0

/hj

GOD DANGIT ITS SIDEWAYS