Someone Needs To Tell Me If Its Real Or If Im Searching For Something That Doesnt Exist Because Its Making

Someone needs to tell me if it’s real or if I’m searching for something that doesn’t exist because it’s making me sick with want and desperation and I have to know why I don’t have it

I keep on reading and hearing and hoping for this kind of friendship where you love and trust your best friend with everything, and they just understand you and I need to know if that’s something we all just hope for or is it real because I thought you guys were serious and I looked and I tried really fucking hard and it’s not anywhere

Is it me? Am I someone who just doesn’t like other people? Do people just not like me? Is this an actual thing?

It’s fine that I’m not like other people, it’s fine that I can’t even walk like them- I just need one person who I genuinely enjoy spending extended hours periods of time with who won’t disappear

Can just anyone let me know if they’ve ever felt the way Sirius and James or Dorcas and Reg or Jude and Noah (I’ll give you the sun) or Jeremy, Sebby and Mira (fans of the impossible life) have felt because I’m not even sure if what I’m looking for exists

I thought I felt it for a minute but it must’ve just been in my head because I don’t think they care, they’ll disappear on me for months on end and I don’t have the balls to ask them why or if I’m the only one they leave in the dust (and I would if they were someone I could just be myself with)

I have never felt fully comfortable or understood by anyone. I’ve never been completely happy just because I was near another person.

I keep on having these daydreams about people I would die for who I tell everything but there’s not a single person on this earth that I could give up my life for- I’ve been to so many different places as so many different people (and on occasion myself, just to see if that would work) and no one anywhere cares. I move on and neither of us care or even really miss each other.

please tell me (pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease) what I have to do because I would do anything to have just one person I trust- it can be anyone- I’ve never been picky or judgy about people, they don’t have to like anything I like I just don’t want to be afraid of liking it around them

trying to prove a point to the boys at school

reblog this if you believe trans men are real men like this if you dont

we all talk about doing it scared doing it alone doing it weird etc. but the the hideously awful truth is that you also often have to do it stupid

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