Idk Why But Like, Whenever I See Posts Or Story Times In Yt About Eating Disorders I Get Jealous????

idk why but like, whenever i see posts or story times in yt about eating disorders i get jealous????

and then im like bitch???? ur already there you just don’t look like it lmao

if somebody says “bulimia” i’m like damn sure why not lol but then i see an anorexic-like food log and so i’m like oh shit i need to be this too so i engage in anorexic behaviour for a while and then i see another bulimic-like post and i’m like ohno i need that, that feels wayyy better and then the cycle continues...

just me? ok figures

hey guys, i know rn i have like 7 followers (i’m so sorry you’re in this too my dudes, you really don’t deserve it, i mean it)

okay so basically i live in colombia and i was in my family’s summer house for quarantine bc of my grandma, and since it’s like mountains and you know outside i could walk 10km a day so if i overate i kinda made up for it, but rn i’m back home in bogota and it’s really risky for me to go running bc it’s extremely unsafe, can somebody pls recommend easy workouts i could do for now?

day 23 - did the media report play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

yes. kind of. not as much as it did with other people, but of course it affects my mental state.

long story short- yeah.

ok so i just checked and i’m down 4 kg????

im so happy considering that myfitnesspal said i’d be down 3,3kg by october but this just motivated even more.

i havent snacked much and i’m prob keeping my kcal intake under 700 or maybe less idk but now i know if i keep it up i might be at my goal weight by november/december and i just can’t believe that i’m making so much progress i’m so happy

Height: 164cm
Weight: 46,3 kg