Oxabyssxo - ⁕﹡✶abyss✶﹡⁕

i figured out more shit. she is dissociated all the time. probably due to adhd and ptsd making a horror cocktail when she's stressed out i was about to kill myself earlier this week like i was a split hair from just ending it. but then i figured out that she's dissociated and that clicked another puzzle piece into the whole thing in my mind. so now im continuing to fight. for now. because i believe we can solve this. she just needs the correct help for dissociation. and obviously for adhd and ptsd too as its largely all connected. but im very concerned about if she will actually be able to push herself to get to therapy and docs or to have enough money to. so nothing is better yet and the hope isnt quite there. but at least i have a sliver of hope to keep pushing.